#but im so SCARED kdsf idk why

[uwulouis]

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#im watching vertical labret experiences bc i want it soo bad #but im so SCARED kdsf idk why #i know everyone has it and it's not bad it's okay #but like im so scared idk why #some people have like bruises on their lip!!!! #and im scared it's gonna get super swollen #idk sdkfnj i so scared #i fr don't know why i've never been scared of any piercings even my tongue i got done and i wasn't scared at all #and my industrial too #but this one terrifies me jkfsdf idk what to do :(( #if anyone has any experience i'd appreciate it hehe #shut up laura

[enaasteria]

Hi, Ena! 💙 how've you been? Are you enjoying the winters slowly setting in? Drink lots of water and coffee and stay warm, haha. I've been rereading Apt (again, like every other weekend) and your drabbles for INSPO! One of my friends has her birthday around the end of this month and I wanna write some fluffy Sehun/Chanyeol for her! But everything I write either turns into Do Kyungsoo or angst. *sobs* send your writing gods to me, please. I feel like I can only write Kyungsoo and nobody else. :"/

cocktailsandexistentialism said to enaasteria:

// #2 // Song Rec: you’ve probably heard it already, idk but, Paris in The Rain by Lauv. It’s one of my favourite happy songs and I listen to it usually in the mornings. And when I do, my mind always conjures up this serene, heartwarming highlight reel of Sehun and Ahri walking through the streets of Paris. It’s slightly drizzling and they’ve had their breakfast and they’re walking around. Sehun is being playful and Ahri keeps pulling him under the umbrella to save him from the rain. Haha. ☔💙💐

I love winter!!! It’s my favorite time of year and I’m really counting down the days until I’m on the plane to Japan. I can’t wait. Maybe it’ll give me inspo to write. AND WHY IS EVERYONE REREADING APT. PLS. There are so many good fics/great fic authors who update new and much better stories than mine. pls let my blog rot. I haven’t posted any story in so long and I’m feeling quite down from it T___T

Do you have any ideas of what you want to write for Sehun/Chanyeol? Like themes or prompts?

But I totally understand where you’re coming from. It’s really difficult for me to write for other members of EXO (even though I love them to bits) because every time I write, I can only imagine Sehun as the lead. Ijustreallylovethatboy. And I must apologize as there are no writing gods with me for they have abandoned my in my writing ditch. If you find them, please send them my way hahaha.

I will check out this song when I get back and edit this post! I need to go run some errands and do work. I have 300 envelopes to write calligraphy on and my arm is dying. dsaklfjal;kdsf BUT SEHUN AND AHRI TAKING A STROLL THROUGH BEAUTIFUL SCENERY IS SO ROMANTIC. MY FLUFFY HEART IS CRYING. I can’t wait to write 18. Like the scene I have for it is so uwu but LIKE THE WORDS ARE NOT MATCHING THE IMAGES I AHVE IN MY HEAD AND ITS VERY FRUSTRATING. I’m capslocking it because I’m screamingngngngngng. 

EDIT//

Getting lost at night under the stars

UMPH. MY HEART. Because you know what I’m thinking, right? RIGHT? Because can you just imagine Sehun and Ahri traveling abroad and he purposely gets lost in the outskirts of town just so that he can watch the stars with Ahri? sdklfj;aslkdfj;adf OHMAHGAWD. I’m dying. My otp. T____T

Your lipsThey pull me in the moment

BECAUSE---HER LIPS ARE HER BEST FEATURE. WHAT IS THIS SONG. SEHUN’S LOVE CONFESSION TO AHRI??? I’m so angry at this song. It’s so fluffy. My angst heart is melting to GOO.

Anywhere with you feels right

DID THIS SONG JUST JACK MY “RIGHT” THEME FROM CH 16??? EXCUSE YOooOOooU. But also. This is close to a theme I have in my mind for the last chapter and I’m crying. IM SO CRYING. THIS SONG IS BREAKING MY HEART EVEN THO ITs LIKE A HAPPY SONG. My heart. IT HURTS FROM ALL THIS LOVE.

I look at you now and I want this foreverI might not deserve it but there’s nothing betterDon’t know how I ever did it all without you

I’m skipping around the song because I’m so angry at it. Like good angry. Like how dare this song define what Sehun feels for Ahri. I’m very upset. So this part. kdsjffklj;asf UNF. This part. Once I heard the I might not deserve it bit. I SCREAMED. Well. Internally. My dog is sleeping so I didn’t want to scare him with my anger but that part probably defines Sehun. He probably knows he doesn’t deserve the chances he’s been given. Like there’s probably a part of him that believes he doesn’t deserve Ahri but he’ll spend his entire life to make up for it and to be the person she can be proud to be with. UWU. dskjfkl;asdfj;al MY AUTHOR HEART IS CRYING. 

Anyway. I need to go yell into a pillow because I’m very angry at this song @cocktailsandexistentialism T_____T

#cocktailsandexistentialism #messages #but srsly tho #@words #why are u no work-y???? #i have so many drafts of 18 where i start it #and then immediately abandon #but can't delete bc WHAT IF I WANT TO GO BACK TO IT #but i never do #and it's just clutter #sfjjslkdaf;a;lkdsf dying in drafts