#but idk the vibe in there. i also dont know the vibe wrt god

[toytulini]

I saw Barbie last night, I dont think i have a long film review of it for yall but idk I'll put some thoughts under a readmore I guess?

-Right off the bat, I enjoyed it, it was fun. It was a fun pink poppy romp. Thats about what I expected of it, and thats pretty much what I got

-Its not particularly radical in its gender/feminism takes, its very basic, which, I saw a number of ppl mention that before I saw it so I wasnt expecting anything radical. It couldve done better. it was. fine. im shrug about it i guess.

-My mom enjoyed it and was apparently not expecting any sort of emotional depth or story at all so it caught her off guard. I heard her crying. she cries easy at movies. I'm glad my mom liked it. Maybe she'll absorb some of the very basic feminism it drops idk.

-I knew the Kens adopted patriarchy and introduced it to Barbieland but it felt lile that happened very fast, idk.

-The ending....I. is her going to a gynecologist supposed to be like. shes gotten a vagina by deciding to be human?? or is she trying to schedule a surgery or something? that felt pretty weird to me if im honest, i thought it was gonna be a job interview or smth... Especially with how everyone was like "Barbie is ace (heheeh i agree) cos she has no genitals! (sorry what. excuse me. wanna run that by me again?)" like okay that makes that headcanon reasoning even more dewply uncomfortable that it already was?

-I enjoyed weird Barbie. i wish theyd cast someone else cos iirc ka/te mckin/non was a transmisogynist? unless she apologized or said she changed her mind on the topic since like 2017?? but i havent seen anything? idk. just. annoying to keep platforming these ppl. i guess theres probably other actors involved that have shit views of trans ppl. whatever i guess.

-I did dress up a little. i feel like my outfit had Weird Barbie Vibes. maybe ill post a pic.

-I did enjoy it and it had a number of shots and or transitions i liked, i think the one with the disco ball to the moon or whatever was enjoyable.

-god we really are so weird about barbie

-it just feels factually incorrect that all dolls pre barbie were baby dolls? idk. im sure it was the most common kind. but idk. not to be weird about The History Of Dolls but like. the porcelain dolls from the Victorian era. idk if those count as baby dolls. iirc those were to help young girls practice prepping dead bodies of loved ones for funerals or smth??? but i guess porcelain dolls have a sort of babyish look about them. and are fragile so you cant play rough with them.

-Like i Know its a 2hr long toy commercial for mattel but also god that cant be right. even if they werent filling the same niche as barbie as idk basically a fashion doll? there had to be other dolls right?

-I know the flat foot thing is Supposed to be over the top and silly for them all to get upset about but also tbh. as a bitch with falling arches the way some of yall make jokes about flat feet still is uh. well. rude. but also lmao man. the day my arches started hurting for no reason while i was barefoot did sorta feel emotionally like her feet falling to the ground lol.

-i want to introduce barbie to margot robbie's harley quinn owo. i think that would be Fun :3

-i want Ken's job. how do i do Beach as an occupation.

-I actually liked how they handled Ken and Barbie's rship til the end. i feel weird about that ending overall and also it feels weak wrt her dynamic as Ken. they make him grapple w her not reciprocating his feelings the same way but then she just leaves barbieland anyway?? and ig they dont get to explore a friendship or qpr dynamic. ok. its fine i guess.

-her saying she has no genitalia felt so transgender in a way im not sure it was intended to. ken saying he has all of the genitalia felt even more transgender. headcanoning them both as extremely transgender in fun weird new ways and no one can stop me.

-Allan is my favorite character i think. bro me too

-bibbleless movie. add bibble.

#toy txt post #barbie spoilers #barbie movie #everyone kept trying to get my dad to come see it and like.i get it.but genuinely he would hate it even if not for his conservative bullshit #he hates goofy fun movies. OR. he wouldve actually enjoyed it a little bit and been REALLY ANNOYING ABOUT IT bc he would never admit it #and insist he hated it #and hed enjoy the ken patriarchy thing too much #basically im very glad we didnt drag my dad along cos i have to live with him and i think he would be insufferable about it #he has no appreciation for any kind of whimsy or fun! he would hate this silly movie #also this was the first time id been in a movie theater since pre2020. #i enjoyed dressing up in a silly little outfit. but i think i wouldve been happier to wait for it to be out of theaters tbh. theaters teste #tested my patience even before covid like oh im gonna sit uncomfortably in this chair and crane my neck up at this screen and i cant pause #it and theres no captions and people are Eating all around me and now i go and its all the same but im the only one wearing a mask so i dont #get to have a lil snack either and i still have to hear ppl eating around me and part way thru the movie someone across the aisle was making #some kind of horrible very wet and loud gulping noise with their drink or Something?? and i did feel violent about it #i would never be violent about it but my god do i feel like biting. you know. anyway. not sure if ill bother seeing any more movies #in theater now. i just would like them at home. idk #i will give props to barbie. it was like kovie theater loud but at least it wasnt giant major booms and inaudible ass dialogue

[mousehole5000]

tgcf lb the fourth chapter 23 - 33

“hmmm looks like theres people in the fertilizer. i shan’t say a word” ok king of minding your business i guess

oh looks like it has a long tongue. oh i dont care for that at all

The build of their bodies were similar, and atop their shoulders, all of them carried cudgels that were densely covered in sharp wolf teeth. It created an illusion that a pack of wolves had transformed into people. attack of the furries? okay.

It was easy to comprehend after thinking about it. This person had been buried in the desert sand for fifty to sixty years. The flesh of his body had long been transformed into nutrients for those Kindred Moon Herbs. He had been entirely consumed until the only thing remaining was a mere skeleton. when this book isnt being very funny its being very grim!!! yikes!! also this was an episode of hannibal 

Ke Mo definitely had never heard someone ask to go first in this place. His eyes widened and looked like bells as he asked in astonishment, “You want to go first? For what reason??” Xie Lian naturally couldn’t reply and say it was because he wasn’t scared. Thus, he chose an answer that conformed with the norms of society. “General, these are merely innocent merchants just passing through. They even have a child amongst them.” - love watching the immortals trying to act like humans. would have been funny if xie lian had just hit em with “well i cant die so its chill”

That young man had crossed his arms. With an indifferent gaze, he thoughtfully sized up the deep Sinners’ Pit.　　 A bad premonition sprung up unbidden in Xie Lian’s heart. “San Lang?”　　 When he heard Xie Lian call him, San Lang turned his head. He smiled faintly and said, “Everything’s fine.” - edgy bastard lets go

What Ke Mo had been cursing was, “It’s this slut again!” - me when a corpse gets up and knocks all my soldiers into the sinner’s pit what a relatable reaction

oh now im switching translations here we go

does hua cheng just straight up transform in the darkness? edgy bastard. also  hualian having their little discussion while ke mo keeps trying to attack im still amused by these kinds of shenanigans

banyue guoshi ma’am your backstory.... rough. im on your side im sure you had your reasons

why do the soldiers keep her up near the top of the pit of death if she keeps getting up and knocking them all in? am i missing something? or are they just that dumb/dead fjdf;adjsf

fu yao: y’all alive? lmk. if not ill guess ill go back to the the merchants who totally promised to stay put in the circle. in case its not clear i do not care what happens to said merchants.

hua xie... of course thats the fucking name he picked. also looks like that wasnt so much a parallel being drawn between xie lian and the general as it was the same exact line

fasdlkfjsldfdsf god xie lian really has a hard time. you help some orphans, you try to keep people from dying, you try to save an orphan and you trip and get trampled but you cant die so you wake up in a river full of corpses and just float away. actually tbh i really appreciate him as an immortal character this is the shit i like to see. love xie lian ready to defend himself from the slander of being completely flattened. he was only mostly flattened

cunty vibes so strong all the wildlife in a 10 foot radius just chuck up the deuces and split

ITS RAINING SCORPION SNAKES. THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO PUSH A REVEAL. love that the umbrella is just always on hand

okay i guess fucking. everyone is here now why not. we’re all in a hole covered in scorpions and everyone knows each other but not everyone is admitting it but we know. we know. still not 100% sure what is going wrt pei su/pei ming/general pei/pei junior im a bit confused idk

okay i cant explain it but im attached to him now.

i like banyue. i feel like theres going to be a few background female characters i really like but im not so sure theyll get a lot of development. wind master come back you and your lady friend i would like to know more of you. anyway fuck this pei guy(s?). also they just put banyue in a jar? fair enough

is xie lian another mc who cant cook? so much so that everyone who knows him just leaves if he offers? love that for him

okay we’ve got ONE identity admitted. i liked how casual it was. i wonder if hc was waiting for this bc yeah he was not subtle i feel like he definitely wanted xie lian to know. if he didnt then bruh. get lessons in how to act human please

screaming. no words. cant wait to meet him. and hua cheng please keep up the good work. i love that now we’re just. sitting. chatting. chilling. okay.

yeah it makes sense that hes an immortal i think you would have to take this attitude after 800 years

this authors note about not writing ugly characters.... fjkdalfdjfa obviously i dont think holding beauty as such high standard is good it warps our views and values etc etc but also i would expect nothing less from a story like this. yes we know everyone is going to be beautiful theyre immortal and beautiful and young forever

lmao at exile being a temporary banishment for crimes.... yeah that sounds about right tbh. rich elite fuckers

oh good we haven’t forgotten about human face disease boy. im wondering when we’re going to find out how important he will be bc he clearly matters otherwise he’d have been resolved already also yeah how tf does he have that disease that sure sounds like an issue

i dont like him. pei ming i also wish you to die of syphilis. also of fucking COURSE xie lian’s cultivation method doesnt let him read dirty books

im just saving this because its funny

okay lang qianqiu i see you falling asleep at the meeting. i like you already but you are not above suspicion. actually you know what i suspect you already. crown prince of the kingdom that conquered xianle? idk if youre good or bad but you know something i learned this lesson from beloved morally grey huaisang

okay last comment for this post. mxtx’s little authors note about everyone being straight except for hualian but you can make up headcanons as long as you dont split hualian up fjdlfakdj. i just find it silly to write a story thats so clearly for an audience that understands shipping and ships often and say not to split a specific couple up but i mean to be fair i kind of get it that sentiment as an author and not wanting people to do certain things with your work, although again i think its silly

i guess the point of this note is just to be clear that no one else is going to get together so no one argues about it and i dont actually know much about how this was published but it seems like it was serialized so i can see why that would be an issue. personally i dont really care for knowing stuff like that ahead of time but i know a lot of people do and it seems to be thing in other cnovels ive seen to know whos going to get together as far as major characters are concerned i guess thats part of the draw and i guess i kind of get it

not sure how much other romance will be in this but also i think its kind of ridiculous to be like “these are the only two gay characters” in a cast that just keeps growing but whatever shes really leaving that work up to the readers to make it happen which they’ll do anyways so whatever. also there had to be at least one of the 33 officials who fought hua cheng who thought he was hot. theres no way that didnt happen

#if theres a note that explains why some of the immortals have a whisk can someone point me to towards it? #im assuming its not actually a kitchen whisk although that would be something #is it like the feather dusters songxiao carry? #tgcf liveblog #mouse mumbles #i guess this is what im doing with my time now

[tellywoodtrash]

suno chanda episode 19 lb

oh ho ek toh wifi nahi hai, mobile data par ruk ruk ke dekhna padta hai, uske upar se humtv waalon ne pichle kuch dino se title track aur recap ghusaaake jeena haraam kar rakha hai. TIME AUR DATA WASTEEEEE.

recap ki baat kiiiiii hi hai, toh pls note that Look™ arsal gave sherry when he said jiya and him had “made plans”.

its 24 hours later and i am still fucking legittttt lmao at nazaakat vibratinggggggg with rageeeeee 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

UGH I HATE WHEN THEY START EPISODES WITH FUCKING KINZA MANHOOS

LMAO JALAL "kaisa do number khaandaan hai"

he's not wrong lmfao

UGH KINZA YOU'RE THE FUCKING WORST YOU SPENT ONE 2 HOUR DATE WITH HIM AND DECIDED YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM IF HE WAS SO HUNG UP ON JIYA, AND NOW YOU'RE BACK TO ACTING LIKE YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT HIM. LOVE YOURSELF GIRL. FFS.

"khabees" is my new favt. insult word ever. imma call everyone who pisses me off it.

the real "jinni nikki unni tikkhi" around here is naeema. she's like 3 feet tall and so unassuming, but the amount of sheer violence and tenacity with which she manhandles jiya??? yike.

LMAO NAZAAKAT IS STILL VIBRATINGGGGGGG

meanwhile idhar new and improved arsal, now with reinforced spine! chakkarein kaat raha hai intezaar mein.

FUCK MEEEEEEEEE, YEH ZERO RAAT-O-RAAT KAISA HERO BAN GAYA HAI. I CANNOT HANDLE. ALL KINDSA ANGSTY LOOKS AND FEELS AND HAAAAAAAAAYEEE.

lmaoooo “aa apne pyo ki gaali sun le”; like she's inviting him him to the table for dinner or something

OMFG ARSALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL MERAAAAAAAA SHERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR YAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSSSSS

omg he's sitting and looking at her pics. LADIES AND GENTS, THIS BOY IS A GONER.

KAISE RAHUNGA MAIN USKE BAGAIRRRRRRRRRRRR DLSFJDLKFJLDSJFLDJS

eeeeeeeeeeeeeee djjjjjjjjjjj

lololololol the aankhon hi aankhon mein ishaare.

OHNOE! CAUGHT!

you know when a desi kid is TRULY free of their parents' tyranny? when the "jooti utaarne" ki dhamki doesn't affect anymore. arsal is free of the curse now. bas jiya ko bhi hona hai.

neeyat toh badallllll gayi hai ladke ki.

HE'S IN LOVE WITH YOU, YOU IDIOT GIRL.

lol i know he's doing this outta 75% selfishness, but he right about the stand thing.

no you wontttttttttt (re: sending her the papers later.) or maybe he will. coz the boy is just so far gone, he’ll do anything to make her happy.

HAAATH PAKDA!!!!!!!!!!! HAAATH PAKDAAAAAA!!!!!!!

TRUST HIM JIYAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOOK AT THOSE PUPPY EYES! SO SOFT AND MELTY!!!!!!!!!!

bijaaan so hassled by this roz roz ke drame, that she's finally resorted to dosti with aghaji, the only other sorta sane person in a ten mile radius.

lmaoooooo the instanttttttttt way both bijaaan and arsal NOPED THE FUCK OUT when aghaji suggested jiya + sherry

UGH FUCKING KINZAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

YEAH BUT WE DONT CARE ABOUT YOU. COZ YOU SUCK. NOW GTFO HERE. 

i love sherry. he's interested in jiya, but he realises that he can never really take the place of arsal in her life, in whatever capacity these two do decide to continue their relationship. also he never backbites about arsal, unlike fucking kinza. manhoos.

PAR MERA DIL ZAROOR JAL KE KHAAAK HO GAYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOI IF YOU DON'T STOP WITH THOSE ANGSTY PUPPY EYES.........

YIKE. AWKWARD ALPHA MALE-ESQUE PASSIVE AGGRESSIVENESS.

lmao come on, we all know that the real alpha in this whole situation here is JIYA.

but oh ho ho hero sangeen mood mein hai. do not mess with.

LMAO IDK WHAT IT IS WITH THIS GUY AND LAUNDRY. LIKE..... HE'S JUST SO ODDLYYYYY PREOCCUPIED WITH IT AND HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH JIYA IS AT LEAST 80% ABOUT ISTIRI. SACH MEIN ISKI KOI KISI DHOBAN SE SHAADI KARWAADO.

“tum kyun mujhe chodne mein tuli hui ho????”

oh bb boiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

siiiiiiiiiiiiiiighhhhhh my angsty babiessss. she's right on her place, but oh my heart his soft puppy eyes. #iCrieEverytym

oufffffffffff this nonsense billo.

please confirm that you too see that this billo actress has heavyyyyyyyyyyy drashti dhami vibes.

THIS SHOW NEEDS TO END WITH MASOOMA FUCKING MURDERING JALAL FOR THIS FUCKERY

LMAOOOOOOOO NAEEMA IS 4000% DONE WITH NAZAAKAT

snaps to nazaakat for knowing and confirming that men are trash.

my god. senti waale whatsapp messages. boy's bringing out the big guns.

GOLU'S HERE GOLU'S HERE I LOVE HIM SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCHHHHHHHHH THE REAL STAR OF THIS SHOW AND MY ULTIMATE FAVE  AND I LOWKEY HATE EVERYONE ELSE FOR TAKING AWAY HIS SCREENTIME. someone give this kid a whole spinoff about him and his hustle. 

arsal you idiot, be nicer to golu. he's your greatest ally in this whole thing.

BIJAAN IS FULLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYY UKSAOFYING THE BOY AND FILLING HIS HEAD WITH OOTPATAANG IDEAS. WATCH HIM FINALLY TAKE THE GIRL AND RUN.

i fucking love any interaction arsal has with jalal phupa. peak comedyyyyyyyy. 🤣🤣🤣

is sherry adopted? coz he's tooooooo mature to even remotely share a gene pool with all these fucking insane ppl.

FUCKING KINZA. THIS GIRL LEGIT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE NAZAAKAT, ILL AND SHAKY AND JUSTTTTT UGH

"MAIN BHI NAHI??? AAP KYUN KAR RAHE HAI AISA MERE SAATH????" GIRLLLLLL FORREAL WHY ARE YOU LIKE THISSSSSSS

jamshed is truly arsal's father. dheeeent x 1000%.

arsal directly telling his abbaji to fucking cool his geriatric heels wrt billo is my fave thing ever. DO IT MORE, SON. MOARRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

oh shittttttt alpha male dhamki to uthaake le chalofyyyyyyy

lmao sherry's resigned and benign smile. bechaara bachcha.

NAHIIIIIII CHOD SAKTAAAAAAAAA JIYAAAAA. NAHI CHOD SAKTA.

OMFGGGGGGGGGGG FDJKSFKDSJFKSDJKJFSD

DSLFJDSLJFKSDJFDSLFJLDSDS

DSFSDSALDSDJASLDJLASDJ

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FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

TUMHEIN CHODNE KA SOCHTA HOON TOH SAANSEIN RUKNE LAGTI HAI MERI JIYA ASFGHDHGKLFDGDFG

GIRL IS SHOOOOOOOOOOOOK. AS AM I. AS ARE WE ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. JESUS CHRIST ABOVE, SOMEONE BRING ME MY SMELLING SALTS

#suno chanda #sc lbs #episode liveblogs

[winterywitch]

I just want to say that I really admire the depth you put into your OC's and your confidence in talking about them! I'd like to learn more about them, but I'm on mobile and it isn't letting me search the tags, so... are there any W@tchtower Grotto characters you haven't talked much about that you'd want to talk about?

oh!! ;-; gee thank you.......................

uhhhhhhh gee idk why but it feels like i dont have an actual comprehensive post on who/what nana actually is bc most of my friends know him very well already? so here’s that

hes like... early 30s?? in terms of appearance/maturity, hes the godking of the country in midnight

nana is uh... certainly a rebel at his core thats one way to put it, a lot of core things about him for better or for worse challenge the status quo. he thinks this is a good thing 100% of the time, like he’s some kind of radical rebelling against an oppressive norm on every single norm he challenges. (its not)

he is RIDICULOUSLY people-smart, hes likely an empath and could easily be called a genius when it comes to reading people and understanding how people tend to work.

if he were a dnd character he’d be a sorceror, he casts from charisma not intelligence [though he is certainly NOT lacking in that department]

hes definitely considered the leader of his little commune of kings [involving desiderius, hachi and kyuun], those three tend to defer to him and seek him out for advice [well. they mostly Used to now its just hachi that does that last part]

he sees himself as a teacher and guide to people, which isnt inaccurate necessarily!

hes very good to his people, his country as a whole is doing pretty well financially, there’s a vibe there of everyone taking care of one another! not to mention the fact that its lovely visually

he’s right about most things and he’s comfortably aware of the fact that he’s right about most things. but hes open to being corrected! he cant possibly be right about everything ALL the time!! he just has to consider you an authority on what youre talking about, which is something he very rarely considers other people to be, or he might just ignore your correction. but sometimes he wont, which makes you feel kinda silly for pointing out his tendency for hypocrisy! how confusing. it’s hard to keep up with this one.

he, like all of his colleagues minus desiderius, thinks he is the only Good King while all the others are complete messes who dont know what theyre doing or are just flat out bad people. but like, yknow, its a fucked up dysfunctional family! that’s totally normal, right??1/11

something about him just makes you think “theres a guy who knows his shit,” its probably his sturdy [outward] confidence, his [appearance of] wisdom, his [very real] intelligence and his long list of supporters that make you think that about him

his hair is weird as shit! there are ‘stars’ in it that glow, not BLINDINGLY bright but i mean yknow, they do glow, and where theyre embedded in his hair theres increased physical sensitivity. pulling on this guy’s hair fucking HURTS, even petting it can be uncomfortable if youre not really really careful. not to mention a fucking haircut, good lord (haha)

his parents were kind of like... very emotionally shallow, they were the sorts of people to be like Oh I’m Fine ^_^ at everything, and in subtle and hard-to-detect ways, they would punish nana for showing emotion of any kind (for example, laughing at him when he would cry at sad things as a child). because of this, he is now very open about his emotions and embraces them as something he should listen to and follow rather than only relying on cold logic as his parents tried to have him do. (its a lot more sinister in practice than it sounds, because yeah most of the time it is innocent like this but at the same time, he takes his own feelings VERY seriously and if you hurt them, even if it’s just by having boundaries, he will identify you as someone mistreating him or even abusing him depending on how close you are]

[heres where we get into The Shit, big tw for abuse, csa/pedophilia and “marital” sexual abuse/assault]

his closest friend and advisor arya kurosawa has been his best friend since they were both teenagers. they met when arya was 14 and nana was 17 [in terms of appearance/maturity are what those ages refer to, they were both immortal] and they got along very well.

of course by very well i mean on top of getting along very well, nana has ALWAYS had an inherent, base-level disrespect for arya’s boundaries. it’s been there since they were teens, and it mostly manifested in nana pressuring arya to do [mostly innocent - but the pressure and coercion made them not so innocent] things he was scared to do.

they were inseparable pretty much ever since they met and VERY, very in love with each other

they definitely were a romantic item by the time nana inherited the throne from his mother, and the age gap was definitely concerning but it only grew more concerning as nana’s mental/appearance age rose because he was growing up emotionally and psychologically and arya’s... stagnated.

when nana was in his early 30s so to speak, arya was stuck at 14-15 or so. and like... they didnt really see anything weird about that, they figured “well we both met when we were kids so its not like nana is a pedophile or anything, why question something so good?”

to someone who didnt know better wrt age gaps in romantic relationships and pedophilia, the relationship between those two would have looked completely normal and healthy. there was certainly an appearance of mutual respect, support, love and commitment

nana could only treat a 14-15 year old so much like his equal. to be totally honest, even since they were teenagers, nana treated arya like his inferior, like a student that needed to be taught, and that dynamic only grew/got worse as nana aged mentally.

but at the same time arya also taught nana so many things! see? nana wasn’t some condescending prick! obviously everything is fine. there were a lot of ways sometimes in which ARYA was the adult and nana was the child ^_^ so it’s equal, right?

arya certainly didnt know any better, nana was the love of his life and that was all there was to it. he knew [because of nana] that any discrimination they might face due to their ages in this relationship was simply unfounded, cruel bigotry from a species of essentially cavemen who were afraid of fire. he knew he was progressive for his time, in a couple decades probably everyone else would come to their senses too!

long story short, one day arya very quickly, almost violently realized EXACTLY everything that was wrong. nana’s condescending behavior had come to a head and someone arya considered a playful rival had forced him, very painfully, to face the truth of what this relationship was: abuse from a man who should know better, taking advantage of a boy who didnt.

arya couldnt exactly love nana after realizing this. and it really fucking sucked. he really wanted to go back to the way things used to be, he wanted to “undiscover” what he’d discovered, but there was no way back and he felt so broken and dirty and ungrateful and bratty and selfish for suddenly feeling this way.

nana on the other hand noticed arya very suddenly averse to being touched or held or even looked at. for a while, he was very understanding about this - what that playful rival did was essentially cast a spell and at first he thought arya was just sick or physically not well or something, and that he’d get better soon.

he didn’t.

nana didn’t know what to do. suddenly arya was neglecting him, acting like he was terrified of nana. he’d never been like this before, what happened? it’s incredibly painful and confusing, losing the love of your life like that; one day you’re everything to them, and the next they’re flinching every time you raise your hand around them. nana had never hit him or abused him verbally... in fact, it was nana who HELPED ARYA gain the strength and courage he needed to become independent from his emotionally abusive parents. so why was nana suddenly the bad guy? he had no idea what happened, why, how to fix it, or anything like that.

eventually he snapped, unable to take being deprived of love and attention like this, so he just took whatever he wanted, physically, not caring what arya thought of it.

he knew it was wrong. he knew he’d definitely crossed the line into objectively unforgivable actions. but he was almost too afraid to stop and relinquish this power over arya, because then he had to A.) lose arya, and B.) be held accountable for his actions. both two very terrifying things he saw no personal gain in.

that went on for a long time, until nana sort of... slowly realized he was feeling weaker and weaker, more prone to physical weariness dizziness, severe headaches and nausea, and he didn’t put 2 and 2 together until it was too late.

arya had figured out how to start poisoning him and getting away with it.

by that point, nana realized not just what was happening and why, but also that he unquestionably, factually deserved this pain and much, much more. that realization was too much for him, it sort of broke him psychologically for a very long time, leaving him completely helpless to whatever revenge arya decided to take on him

[it was all physical and psychological torture, but arya was certain NEVER to stoop to his level and sexually abuse nana. he couldnt even think of sleeping with nana “consensually” anyway, it made him horribly sick to even consider]

eventually after a long-ass time of this, arya just got sick of looking at nana and couldn’t even be around him anymore without feeling absolutely god-awful, so he just abandoned nana, leaving him to fester in his broken body and mind

and y’know, stuff happens after that, but thats all there really is to the most prominent phase of nana’s development in THIS story. i also play him in his phase of development after that last bullet point [roughly 200 years later], where he’s fucked up in all kinds of ways and totally deserving it, but also trying to... not really redeem himself or anything like that, he knows that’s not really a thing, but rather to make himself useful to good people who want to do the right thing, in a dnd campaign

nana goes through a SHIT TON of changes, to the point that each phase of his development has his own individual profile on toyhou.se, he’s become a Big Trauma Coping Character for me and somewhat an experiment in redemption arcs, seeing what exactly should happen and how to make “redemption” arcs seem not cheap or forced

here’s the one i talked about in this post though

http://toyhou.se/335049.nana-of-the-stars

#kara's charas #w@tchtower grotto #mind the warnings! #misstooni

[soledadcatalina]

for the character asks, magnus, simon, charlie, and/or lucretia

ooh this is a long one

maggie

1: sexuality headcanon: he bi2: otp: its just the big polyam mags/jules/taako/krav combo at this point tbh3: brotp: id say its a tossup between him with lucretia and merle, both very good interactions between em4: notp: idk there isn’t one specifically comes to mind except for the general disclaimer of don’t be a nasty freak abt shipping5: first headcanon that pops into my head: p much just both him and merle are birkenstock men. these hard ass sandals in their leisure time6: favourite line from this character: technically not a line but “i hand her a coupon for one free backrup” exchange still fucking gets me7: one way in which I relate to this character: i too would love and cherish julia burnsides8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: i guess from like a straight up rp standpoint the whole leeroy jenkins/rushing in thing like gets my blood pressure fucking going tbh9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?: cinnamon fave

mr. red flowers

1: sexuality headcanon: pan (as in pansexual and not Pan-sexual the way marlow is lol)2: otp: i have a soft spot both for simon/alex and simon/zee tbh3: brotp: i would also say simon and zee but simon and donovan shooting the shit together and taking the piss out of alex for their various Alex Experiences is too funny to not consider4: notp: again not rlly anything big5: first headcanon that pops into my head: simon would make everyone watch die hard during the holidays bc its a perfectly acceptable christmas movie and that he likes the Rickman himself6: favorite line from this character: “you’d think the nectar would’ve given you a bigger-” 7: one way in which I relate to this character: i project onto pinoy simon. so hard.8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: whats his fucking deal with dicks!!!! he’s REALLY going for that angle to that dangle!!!!9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? another hot cinnamon fave

Charles 

1: sexuality headcanon: charlie’s pretty gay tbh2: otp: charlie/marlow is like...... good guys. kind of a similar simon/alex vibe of asshole boyfriends3: brotp: also with marlow but honestly he’s also getting rlly cheeky with herc too and its also funny4: notp: i dont rlly think theres enough to make a hard notp in this series or multiverse tbh5: first headcanon that pops into my head: he shits on vaping... but he has vaped once in this past and keeps it a secret6: favorite line from this character: i cant remember specifically but the whole confrontation scene was like this grand reveal of secrets, but like “dude you were fighting for the wrong side, bro! you totally fucked it bruh!”7: one way in which I relate to this character: he’s just trying his best and i appreciate his commitment to the whole on fire but nude thing8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: wrt nude fire thing “hey its what god gave me” / “god didnt give you much”9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? : problematic roll

lucretia, whomst i adore

1: sexuality headcanon: barold she’s a lesbian2: otp: lupcretia is Primo baby, but lucretia/maureen is very nice older lady ship u know? 3: brotp: with merle and mags tbh4: notp: with any man honestly5: first headcanon that pops into my head: while she definitely has light spells sometimes a girl needs that ambient moody lighting when filing moon taxes so she has a lot of candles set up in her office6: favorite line from this character: THERES SO MANY GOOD ONES “point and click baby, windows 98″ / “do you want to spend another 40 minutes buying shorts again or...?” / “we very quickly cut your hand off and get the bracer off-- but then we attach the hand back, and it’s like not a big deal.” / “you can’t just poop out a rock.”7: one way in which I relate to this character: she’s such a complex character i love her so much but i think her goofs are just Iconic and the best quotes of the series tbh8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character: nothing im love her9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?: SHE’S A WONDERFUL MULTIFACETED CHARACTER AND THATS THAT

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