#but i'd like to at least feel an ounce of existential worth from like other things

[clarissaexplainingitall]

i feel like it is a really fun new and exciting low to be like. you know what is giving me a solid sense of purpose in the world right now? my job.

#like objectively it's meaningful i contribute positive change and can do stuff that has tangible impact #it is also kind of soul sucking and very stressful because of all the academicapolitic ass shit #but i'd like to at least feel an ounce of existential worth from like other things #unfortunately the universe keeps trying to suck the joy out of shit i love!!! #we have a storm and also my entire digestive system is unionizing against me and i have had Too Much Caffeine so it will be better 2morrow #just a real fucking kick in the ass kinda day so tomorrow i am manifesting will be a nice break if i simply choose to ignore it hard enough