#but i won a sonnet contest yay congrats go me if there's one thing i can do it is write pretty weird sonnets that people like for some reas

[rusalkaandtheshepherdgirl]

sucks to suck sometimes

#that is to say i'm going to vent here in the tags i would apologize but this is my blog so #but i won a sonnet contest yay congrats go me if there's one thing i can do it is write pretty weird sonnets that people like for some reas #i even got prize money for it again all good here #however yesterday i was driving because you know i was planning to go try and take my driving test and get a license #for you know government id and also so i can. drive a car and whatever useful skill in this car-centric hellscape amiright #and i did passably all hour i just drove around the city practicing like passing and stopping smoothly and all those good things #and then i drove onto my street which i cannot stress enough is a one way residential street #and it was the middle of the day so like. there were a total of five cars parked along the block #and my mom picked up a call with her girlfriend which like good for her right but it's very distracting because she's right next to me #and i'm trying not to listen because she doesn't like to be eavesdropped on when she's talking to her gf #and the apartment has paper thin walls so i basically have to try and turn my attention off so as to give her privacy #so anyways i turn half my attention off and manage to tap one of the cars parked on one of this nearly-empty street #because to quote olivia rodrigo i'm not cool and i'm not smart and i can't even parallel park #and they test u on that so i was trying to parallel park right which i can't #so now i am refusing to go take my driving test because i hate myself and my abilities #and to get back to the setup i can't even be happy about prize money or anything because obvs i have to pay back my mom #because cars are expensive even if it's just small dents in them #and like. there's been a whole thing about me being promised a job and then not getting it so i don't even have a job right now #i'm applying to all the places i can think of that i can get to on public trans and who might wanna hire a teenager with v little experienc #so anyway until someone decides to take pity on me and hire me i don't even have a job to help pay her back with #which it could be worse! we have enough money that it's not going to be a disaster until i can properly pay her back #and my sweet twin is even begging me to let them pay half because we generally split expenses and pool our money and whatever #even if it's usually like. buying coffee for both of us or getting lunch someplace not me managing to fuck up driving on an empty street #so like it could be way way worse however it really sucks #anyways i feel terrible about the whole thing obviously and needed to vent someplace #so hi strangers on the internet it was probably not worth it at all to read all of that #rio remarks