#but i dont have the request anymore

[3-aem]

i also don’t want to portray myself as faultless. my work isn’t ai and it isn’t copied. but nk will say i Had old pieces that were copied and referenced ai. Yet it isn’t good faith when i apologize, state how i took accountability, and explain thats definitely not the case today because i learned my lessons- to respond with well you made these mistakes in the past so how can i believe you, you are lying, and have not changed.

so i quit. how can i prove myself then besides what i mentioned in the last post. my question is will you even ALLOW me to prove myself. each time i must explain, i place a spotlight on something that was resolved agreeably with the artists, resolved by removing the works, and resolved within myself by learning from it. but by not saying something i also allow You to concoct narratives and have to watch people spread them around and come to me demanding apologies. it is a very uncomfortable very distressing process that has worn me down completely.

never mind that other artists who have copied have not nearly been requested to apologize as much as i have been. never mind that they were forgiven when they removed the works or even when they just say sorry and don’t remove the work at all. But you still choose to hound me afterwards for doing just that?

nk has stated that i have not fixed this. and that i must address it. how many times though? for how long also? who on this planet starts the conversation by recounting all their mistakes, especially when they know they are resolved.

i have had to learn my lessons through cruelty like yours. trust me its a trauma i have to bear and they are not lessons you then forget.

my anger and my feelings of defeat come from the fact that even after nk was still talking like i had not even attempted to make progress. just look at your tone here.

#im going to fking throw up this is the last time i will ever say this #do not come begging to be for another apology i am done #i will never address this issue again okay #i need to say this because no matter what when i see people supporting me now i feel guilty #i recognize it is just because i hate myself #it is because i havent accepted i made mistakes #but i cant accept it because people cant accept it #i cant accept it and i cant move on #and that is why i think its best to leave art #i cant make work i am proud of anymore #i dont want to list names of artists #but i will say that when king chris reposted my work without credit i viewed it the same as when i referenced other artists work #but there was no callout no request even from the comments for credit #and he has millions of followers #i felt like i could not stand up for myself because i have this history #because of this history i can never properly defend myself i feel i must always kneel to it #even though i have changed and realized i was wrong i still have to acknowledge it always

[strobilo]

#ratboy genius #summer solstice baby #little king john #sneezy #i challenge someone to join me in rbg art spamming #sad to see how quiet the tag is now... seems to have happened after ssg ended which is expected but still #and i guess ppl dont use tumblr as much anymore #also feel free to send rbg related requests/asks i would love to do some

[arinmoss]

Hatsune Miku doodle

#basically mt older brother had a laptop he wasn't using anymore and techinically gave it to my mom #but my mom gave it to me since she already has a laptop #anyways the colors are kinda eh but i didn't feel like painting or being colorful rn idk wanted a simple easy thing to get used to having #to use a wacom tablet again -___- #going to try and finish up my one commission left plus maybe draw those requests i got on kofi digitally hehe #tho drawing on this tablet is kinda the worst but i did draw on this for like years but....main did my surface pro spoil me -___- #keep trying to remind myself how one of my fave artists litcherally draws with a MOUSE PAD like i can. i can handle a screenless tablet #even tho i dont want to -______- #art #doodle #miku #hatsune miku #vocaloid #vocaloid fanart #fanart #digital art #sketch #illustration #vocaloid miku #artwork #arin moss #arin moss art

[cloudcountry]

i'm noticing that when people request things and i write it for them, sometimes the people i write for dont reblog or give me any feedback. ^^ its starting to get a bit irritating when i take the time to write something and i just get a like from the person. the twst fandom has been talking about this since forever but literally the least you can do is reblog. seriously.

#im thinking about not taking requests ever anymore honestly #like i have ideas floating around in my brain #why should i write something for someone else when they dont even appreciate it #i wanted to finish the 1.8k event but i dont even think i'll be able to do that #its a shame the twst community turned out this way #and even just writing in general gahhh #like i love writing but its becoming such a chore #anyways my mutuals can request stuff but im getting fed up #its also been hurting my feelings a bit. #i actually had this happen DURING the 1.8k event too #i wrote stuff for moots and couldnt wait to see their reactions and then they just liked #it felt like a slap in the face #idk man i just want to enjoy things again that would be nice #ikepri and ikevamp fandom here i come i hope ygys are more receptive!! #🐙! auburn's rambles <3

[haechan]

haechan in the start of love song track video ♡ 

⏤ for @moitt 

#nctinc #nct #nct 127 #haechan #gifs #mine #i feel like i dont know how to gif anymore #these look so bad i am so Sorry #requests #imma have to go look for some coloring tutorials or smth

[astragatwo]

For the drawing requests, do you mind drawing Adam lobcorp? Thank uuu so much :))

#request box #Anonymous #lobotomy corporation #project moon #lc adam #bright colors #confession: i never managed to finish lobcorp and i dont think i ever will #also fun fact: i had this sketched for 2 weeks before actually finishing it #sketched it the very night before everything went to shit #i have about 5 other requests on that same canvas sketched out #gonna redo some bc i dontlike the sketches anymore but that's your fun fact of the day #i was gonna leave out 'slut' but i decided to leave it in

[deejadabbles]

Hello there, my name is Deeja and I have very little shame for a 28 year old woman. If @secondaryrealm follows you, sends you asks, or replies to your posts, that's me.

About this blog: This is a side blog where I post reader inserts and other fanfiction. Below you'll find my master list and link to my tag list form!

I do post NSFW stuff quite a bit, so Minors, please do not interact with my blog. If you're an adult but don't like NSFW things, I do try to remember to tag it as "spicy lemons".

I never use the term y/n and always try my best to avoid any physical descriptions for the reader. I usually write gender neutral (GN) readers unless otherwise stated, however please keep in mind that I'm a cisgendered woman so said readers may be unintentionally fem-coded.

I hope you enjoy your stay on my little corner of Tumblr! 💙💜

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Master Lists! (sub-sections and tags will be added as needed)

Attention: this list only includes my star wars stuff. If you would like to read my works from other fandoms they're all on my AO3 account

List is divided by characters

Misc tags:

Deeja writes (my general tag for all my fics)

Works by others (please check out these amazing writers!)

Fanart (wonderful artists who deserve love)

Feel good tag / Happy tag (things that make me happy)

Captain Rex x Reader

The Mistake You Can't Live Without (jedi!Reader)

Desperate Distractions (fem!reader smut, drabble)

Take a Ride (fem!reader smut)

Ruin (fem!reader, smut)

Spicy prompt: "I don't think you're supposed to use the Force like that" (jedi!reader, spice, drabble)

Western AU Headcanons

The Captain and the Shadow (jedi!reader, series) Prologue /// [Part One coming soon]

Echo x Reader

Dreamy Desires (incubus!Echo x fem!reader, smut)

The Hidden Room (halloween prompt)

Somebody Else (fem!reader, angst, drabble)

Western AU Headcanons

The Beauty In All (Matchmaking AU) Part One // Part Two //

Echo and Comms (comm officer!reader, series) Part One /// Part Two /// Part Three /// [Part Four coming soon]

Fives x Reader

An Awkward Kind of Charm (matchmaking AU)

How to Summon a Demon Boyfriend (demon!Fives halloween prompt)

Five-Oh-Thirst, Part One (fem!reader, spice, 501st x reader)

My Ding-ding-dong (humor)

Touch (fluff, drabble)

Tup x Reader

Hold On Tight (fem!reader, smut)

Wild, beautiful things (fluff, drabble)

Languid Reunion (fem!reader, smut)

Tup NSFW Alphabet Headcanons

Kix x Reader

Forbidden Masks (fem!reader, halloween prompt)

Five-Oh-Thirst, Part One (fem!reader, spice, 501st x reader)

Spicy prompt: "I don't need to take it off to fuck you" (fem!reader, smut, drabble)

Jesse x Reader

Five-Oh-Thirst, Part One (fem!reader, spice, 501st x reader)

Funeral Grey (fem!reader, spice, drabble)

Commander Fox x Reader

Among the Hedge Maze (halloween promt, fluff)

The Handmaiden's Fox (fem handmaiden!reader, series) Prologue /// Part One /// Part Two /// [part three coming soon]

Commander Thorn x Reader

Safeguard (drabble)

Safehaven (oneshot, companion to Safeguard)

Hunter x Reader

Songs in the Kitchen (fluff)

Hunter x (fem) Reader x Hound (predator/prey vibes, drabble)

Western AU Headcanons

Wrecker x Reader

A Tooka for a Puppy (fluff, drabble)

Western AU Headcanons

Tech x Reader

The Right Parts (western AU)

Western AU Headcanons

Crosshair x Reader

The Garden (fluff, drabble)

Crush (angst, drabble)

Western AU Headcanons

Grey x Reader

Feverish Flirtations (fluff)

OCs and Unnamed Clones

Period Pains (unnamed clone, comfort, drabble)

OC Mana: Introduction post

OC Tiio: Intro post, personality ask,

OC Jacen: Intro post,

OC Jedi Knight Mayreen: Intro post,

OC Commander Zedge: Intro post,

OC Whisper: Intro post, more headcanons, aesthetic/style ask,

OC Bravo: Intro post,

OC Fixit: Intro post,

OC Dott: Intro post,

#making this so i can pin it #deeja rambles #i also wanted to clarify the request situation #as i do enjoy requests but just dont have time for full one shots anymore

[f0rgetf0rgetting]

@(・●・)@

#osomatsu san #mr osomatsu #osomatsu san fanart #ososan #ichimatsu #ichimatsu matsuno #osomatsu #osomatsu matsuno #karamatsu #karamatsu matsuno #the third one is a drawing i did while being on call with friends #it’s kinda funny how on top of it there is another karamatsu getting backshots😭😭😭😭[special request from a friend] #not posting that shit thoguh……..at least not here… #wink wink wink [I have pixiv] [dont tell anyone] #OH. almost forgot. the first drawing it’s supposed to be ichimatsu in the junjo romantica art style lols #just watched the first minutes of the first episode of junjo and i was like ‘welp. i aint watching all of that anymore’ #lols again. the opening song is pretty banger though wished that the main couple was t that abhorrent

[gibbearish]

btw its interesting the way james tries to imply that like. well the videos that have plagiarism are the ones our dumb stupid annoying patrons requested about bad topics that didnt deserve to have the effort put in to covering them well so basically its fine. like obv thats interesting on its own but moreso the fact that he doesnt actually /say/ it, or like. give a list of the videos hes referring to, just says "those videos are very clear on which ones they were" i think as a nod meaning like "yknow the ones everyones talking about". unless what hes meaning is that like they put a note in certain videos saying "this video was requested by a patron, we here at james somertom incorporated do not espouse these views" which seems unlikely to me. idk methinks maybe it's because there is indeed a lot more than people think and with all the buzz he's not sure which ones have been discovered yet or not, so putting down a solid list that missed some would look like he was still hiding things whereas putting down a fully sourced list would be admitting to wayyyy more than anyone's found yet

#which is ironic too bc if he genuinely did want to prove he understood what he did wrong and that hed changed thatd be the way to do it #yknow like a full list of every single source including ones no one has found on their own or /can/ find anymore would a) be taking full #responsibility and b) make people less likely to always be like 'youre still hiding something' #which in turn makes me super think hes still hiding a lot of somethings #also cant go without stating that the 'request a video topic' thing was only for $100/month patrons after 3 months on that tier #like fucker these people gave you THREE HUNDRED DOLLARS AT LEAST and youre trying to blame it on them?????? #no one forced you to make 'let patrons pick video topics' a reward dude like. hello???????? #shit dude even hbombs highest tier ($10 for anyone wondering bc he doesnt see his audience as a money machine lmao) #just says you can vote in polls about future topics #like that makes complete sense to me as a version of this‚ the most dedicated audience members get a say in the future of the #channel while the creator still gets overall control of the direction #also 'patrons who gave me fuckloads of money asked me to make videos on topics i didnt like so i plagiarized those' is i think uhhh #worse than just 'i plagiarize everything without remorse' frankly? #like at least with the second youre just a general shitbag but the first where youre a shitbag specifically to the people #majorly financially supporting you rather than just like. be an adult and say 'hm i dont feel like that topic really works for the channel‚ #do you have any other ideas?' #or dare i say even perhaps yknow. doing what other youtubers do in similar situations and find ways to tie that subject #to what they usually talk about is just. wild #course that last one would take actual creativity and aint that just the crux of the issue #james somerton #or i say cannot go without stating i should say cannot go without restating kwnrkabdkwbrn

[faunabel]

*staring up at the sky*

is it an italy simps renaissance right now...

should i pull out all the fanfic & imagine ideas i secretly have been fostering in my mind for years?

is this what we want? are we going to rise from the ashes?

#speaking of fanfic ideas... #if any italy simps have any fanfic requests... u should inbox me #i will write nearly anything i dont care what it is or how different it may be from my interp #i have things to write for my imagines blog but i will always get distracted for him ♡ #( 💭 faun thinks ) #i dont wanna seem like such a simp but the THOUGHTS i have about this man i could go on endlessly #i could monologue for hours #the only reason i dont is bc i dont wanna be seen as Absolutely Insane #but if we have an audience..? #i will consider it #i am not the only obsessed one i dont need 2 hide in shame anymore <3

[avianreptiles]

Grrrrr

#would anybody be interested in if i just like #opened up ask requests to draw furry characters #i want to get better at dynamic poses and facial expressions #like if you sent in an ask youd have to give me like an expression or something #avian speaks #not saying this is an invitation but if you wannnntttt you can send #prolly not dragon characters tho #i dont reqlly draw dragons anymore #but if you hsve like a furry or non-human enough monster character thats fair game

[fatuifucker]

hiyaaa I wanna do a little rant/commentary on my lesbian experience but a focus on the genshin fandom because I do be thinking about it at 2am, feel free to ignore I just wanted to get my thoughts on and see if anyone relates

you see, I could never fathom being lesbian because I never experienced the same things my peers had. I never thought "ew men I would never date a man" until recently, I never realised I was attracted to women until my early teens, I never liked fictional women the way I like fictional men.

I see my sapphic peers passionately advocating for eimiko, beiguang, jeanlisa, etc but I couldn't care less and I never actively searched for those ships either. whenever I try to read fics like that, I couldn't connect with it the way I connected with mlm ships or straight pairings sometimes. until now, I still don't understand why I feel this way.

I try so hard to write reader x fem characters but it never comes out right despite me doing massive research on the character and I don't know why. when I write it, it doesn't feel natural, it feels forced, it doesn't feel right.

I don't understand why because I know I only like non-men irl and I abhor the idea of marrying a man. I feel disgusted at the thought of kissing a man. but I feel safe doing all those things with a woman.

at times, I wonder if I really am a lesbian. usually I feel like I'm a fraud because of these experiences lol but what do you guys think?

#oh yeah little update if you're wondering about me #ive left the genshin fandom #i dont remember if ive announced it i probably did #i dont check this blog anymore #also been busy with school and work #my bpd is kicking my ass but i might be seeing a psych soon so yayy #speaking of bpd sucker will definitely be completed but i will have to cut some chapters because i dont have the willpower to stretch it out #requests and event shit will be finished too #thank you for your patience

[nom-central]

i have GOT to get more shameless about posting my oc content, but i also want to get more practice with writing preexisting characters...hmm

#speakin words #just musing out loud #i dont get a lot of canon requests anymore but i DO have one #i might chip away at that as a drabble #and ocs are just a struggle to me bc i never draw them and people wanna see art #but i LOVE writing about them

[itzsana-kiddingmenow]

ok so i jusst finished HANDPICKING and writing the lee/ler list for tickletober along with the prompts...who would like a reveal?

#sorry if this is spoiling u guys #also i have a new tag for this stuff #sana's tickletober #OOH also i will finish all requests and upload them before october #but dont send anymore rn pls 😭🤚🏻