#but god fucking damn I wanna be a bear so bad. it WILL happen!!!!!!!!!! GRRAHH!!!

[heartbeetz]

I wish liking fat wasn't seen by so many people as an inherently "weird and sexual" thing. I wanna be able to make posts about it without feeling like I'd have to hide them on my nsfw. Like my ideal body type for myself is bearish and I'm not there yet, so I like thinking about my f/os rubbing/patting my belly, complimenting me when they notice I put on a little extra weight, making sure I eat enough to be fat n happy (in the literal and figurative sense), etc... but people are so weird about it that I get self-conscious. It kinda blows.

#jazz is already supposed to be bearish but I do think I should just dive in and make him a full on bear #but I feel weird having a fat s/i when I myself am currently just kinda chubby. my gut and my fat face/chin and hands and thighs ♡ #but god fucking damn I wanna be a bear so bad. it WILL happen!!!!!!!!!! GRRAHH!!! #I need to get on t and eat more (bc I'm already undereating due to lack of spoons [chronic illness term not literal term lol]) #fat people I'm so unbelievably sorry about the way the world treats you and thinks about you #roz posts