#but esp the showing off imperfections part cause waaaah my feelings about mu qing being like jade .....

[feietouhuo]

what is your true role in the story?

the antihero

ah yes, hello edge lord. it is lovely to see you again. you my dear, are the  incarnation of duality, and you might think of claws and venom mixed with grace  but alas, nothing near as poetic. you my friend, are mixture of what is seen as right, and what is questioned. you follow the path of your own two feet, you know the twists and turns of life's forests quite well if I do say so myself. and you can meander along them wonderfully. you strive to stay true to a certain sense of principles you might call your code, but whereas in reality, those would be your morals. people tend to see you as strange. sharp edged and glinting  you hide behind a cloak of chain mail but really you just prefer to show off your imperfections first. unlike many who scramble to make it as if their flaws never existed, you proudly raise yours up. saying, "this is me, this is the worst of me, now you know what to expect." and might I say, it is quite an intriguing mindset, for truth be told, the ones that love your spikes and craters are the ones who appreciate your softness the most. 

you wish not to be loved as something lovable, but as a monster. for aren't we all just beasts in human skin? you are brave, but you are lonely. you know quite well how to scare off most, making even the heroes with the boldest bravado creep away with their tails between their legs. you are not a villian, sometimes you play the part a bit too well. but nevertheless you are no hero either. YOU PUT YOURSELF FIRST, but if one wins your trust then may the gods have mercy on those who might wrong them. you long to be a poetic mess of sorts, and well, if the ink sets in long enough you might just become that sooner or later. but for one who is so dead set on truth you sure do hide a lot don't you? 

please, step out of the shadows, there is a difference to not making your flaws visible and to simply acting as if you're the most despicable person in all the realms. it's because you're afraid of attachment is it not? well let me tell you a little secret, everyone is. you say you wish to be left alone for eternity but than why are you craving connection. you WISH TO BE KNOWN and understood truly, but you snarl and push the ones that might be trying away. please little wolf, accept you are lovable. you are not some ravenous beast that terrifies the multitudes, sure, you are not for the faint of heart but that does not make you an inkling less perfect as you are. 

young antihero, step into the sun. you would do better actually REACHING FOR THE THINGS YOU WANT rather than pining for them in the darkness.

#LOL a lot of things wrong cause i had to cross a lot of things about but there are some gems in there JFKSALDJ #but esp the showing off imperfections part cause waaaah my feelings about mu qing being like jade ..... #where jade is accepting of its flaws and doesn't go to hide them but that's what makes it so precious #but LOL ain't no WAY he sees himself as despicable or anything like that :P #and he most certainly doesn't want to be loved as a monster when he's been seen in a bad light his whole life #i mean let's be real he literally gets so angry when he even THINKS anyone looks down on him #or views him as horrible #so dont do that <3 #he will beat you up <3