#but as part of the pact he cannot remember at all his childhood and teenage years

[malkaviian]

im writing zachary's backstory and man im tempted as hell to make maverick a part of it

#basically; if i make him a part of it: maverick killed him due to his obsessive behavior; but it was in self-defense #because zachary tried to kill him first with a dagger; he just got lucky to be able to grab the dagger and attack #however when he realized what happened hours after and while watching his dead body; his mind did a complete change to deal with it #he ended up as obsessive as zachary was with him but with other people; and developed his autassassin0philia #the trauma of being nearly killed because someone just 'loved' him that much now turned into the most hot and romantic situation he everwas #and now he desperately wants to be in that situation again with someone he 'loves'; and actually end up being murdered. #if his obsession kills him that means they truly love him right? that's what zachary tried to do after all; and he loved him #once again: any posts involving maverick end up being REALLY dark #now with someone else that isnt samael!! #thats how zachary ended up being a demon btw he got killed and a demon wanted to have his body; so they did a pact and their souls got mixe #but as part of the pact he cannot remember at all his childhood and teenage years #his memories start at 21 y/o in college; and even then he misses basic details like which career he was studying or past friend's names #he doesnt even remembers how many crushes he had in college before maverick appeared in his life; he thinks it was like 7? #but he cant say for sure. he only clearly remembers the events that eventually led to his death #starting from when he first talked to maverick. the whole obsession and stalking and stuff. #and the thing he remembers the most vividly is being repeatedly stabbed and then having his throat slit by him. all the pain he felt #now his obsessive tendencies got toned down due to the demon's influence; but he still has his twisted version of what love is #i mean; he always was a little bit obsessive. but with maverick is when he got the worst #and fully developed his thoughts that anything is valid if it is for love; regardless of how immoral your actions can get #oc talk #ask to tag #you know what im going to make this canon; this is fucked up and i like it