#but apparently i wont have the freetime to do that

[fckinghunt]

need someone to tell me that everything will be ok and that this day will pass just like all the rest

#dont mind me im just having A Day right now #i knew Emotionally Charged Event was gonna happen in the next few days but i didnt know it was happening TODAY #i found out literally when i woke up this morning #i am not mentally prepared for all the shit ill have to go through and deal with #and i have work today and tomorrow which means im gonna have no free time today before i have to sleep for work #so tempted to ask my supervisor if i can leave early but honestly i prob wont #i just want to spend the day at home and play games with my friends #and do my own thing #but nah i wake up this morning and find out today will be a day where i dont get to do that #maybe its the tism being upset that there was a sudden change in plans #cause i was gonna progress in a game with one of my friends today #but apparently i wont have the freetime to do that #i have to go to an Emotionally Charged Event that i honestly in general didnt want to go to #and now i REALLY dont want to go #ughhhhh #if anyone actually went through and read all this thank you <3 #but honestly i just needed to let this out and all my friends are asleep lmao

[lol-despair]

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#debating on whether or not i should even bother with the hour long trip at 7am just to take another 1 hour long trip #to a college open day i already went to last year #then take a two hour long trip home #or to just stay home and lol do actual work for my portfolio #apparently attendance for this trip is mandatory but half the people in my class arent going #but my attendance is poor because im always late or not in #and i need like 4 distinctions in this course out of like 9 or something and a pass in everything else #to even get into a college. for me atleast because my leaving cert results were pretty poor #and distinctions are apparently hard to get according some people. 80%. #so i figure i might as well do extra work on some of the briefs I've enjoyed most so far in some of my freetime #to hopefully get said distinctions #and i cant exactly do said extra work when on trip up and back. since its on a bus. and not my vehicle. and motion sickness. #then again i was told that i have to also start improving my attendance and anyone who isnt on the trip tomorrow will be marked absent :/ #eck. i only really have one bus to catch tomorrow morning if i miss it then i guess i just wont go since theres no point. #delete