#but I'm determined to kick SAD in the butt this year (also my half-brother will get on my ass if I do that) so FUCK IT

[hyperfixation-tangentopia]

When you're on a time crunch but your (presumably) ADHD brain decides "fuck you I want to write"

#and NO this is not a time crunch I can be flexible on and YES I literally have to do it and NO there's nobody here to help #we've established I function best under pressure BUT APPARENTLY THIS ISN'T PRESSURE ENOUGH #kill me #also I have like. 2-3 days min 2 weeks max to somehow get my dog to walk well enough on a leash that he won't pull on distractions #harder than it sounds #especially because I'm working off of YT videos without help #(I'm trying to look at trainers for help but A I will be completely alone in paying those expenses for a while) #(and B I don't know where to look except for local pet store that we don't have the gas to spare to drive to rn) #vent in the tags #umm yeah #I'm fine this is fine everything's fine #I want to stop existing and sit in bed chewing on peanut butter and doing nothing all day #but I'm determined to kick SAD in the butt this year (also my half-brother will get on my ass if I do that) so FUCK IT #I've taken my dog out and am trying to find someone to VC/call and am writing instead #FFFFFF #*dying*