#but I’m BAD at starchess okay I hate it I suck at it sucking at it makes me hate it more

[petrichorium]

The fav I have the most frequent (and most intense) fights with is actually jing yuan btw

#pattering on the roof #he has a tendency to make me feel stupid and it’s not entirely by accident #he just can’t help himself #like JDNJFNEF I reference it in my meet fruit fic (which was Very selfship coded) but #the first massive fight we have is before we start dating when he’s still like courting me ig #and wheedles me into playing starchess w him #but I’m BAD at starchess okay I hate it I suck at it sucking at it makes me hate it more #and I like him so much and he’s so good and I wanna make a good impression but I SUCK and I leave every time upset #and he knows ofc he does. I’m improving and he loves seeing me improve which is why he keeps asking #eventually he’s like well maybe it’ll help if I let her win #no. it doesn’t. I blow up at him entirely bc I HATEEEE being condescended to and if u wanted someone who could beat u in starchess then go #find someone else u fucking asshole don’t humiliate me like that (<- face puffy weeping literally the only two people in the garden) #and I storm off sobbing. literally refuse to interact w him for MONTHS he’s making every excuse to bump into me and it’s full cold shoulder #I also never fully forgive him for it. we never play starchess again even centuries down the line after we’re married and he’s retired #n e way yeah #p much every fight is similar he just makes me feel dumb sometimes and I lash out at him #and frankly often it’s warranted bc not infrequently he provokes me on purpose #ss.🌧 yujing