#btw my brother of course is ignoring my mum crying and is trying to bully me

[master-dellamorte]

I hate living in this house so much. Ironically I was so angry that my mom would not let me help her that I made her cry very hard.

It's been years that I've been trying to have a reaction out of "programmed routine" from my mother. I wanted an apology, a change...only when I am really angry I want to see her hurt. Today I made her cry, but I didn't want to. I wanted a change, a dialogue at least. And now I feel awful and I am crying too. But I am also angry (as Always), bc when I tried to explain myself (and I promised I would never tell what made her cry again), I understood She listened to 1/3 of my argument and did not care about the explaination of what i really meant. She did not listen. Not even this time. I got a reaction by pure accident.

#personal #btw my brother of course is ignoring my mum crying and is trying to bully me #he doesnt give a fuck #that fucking horrible narcisistic psycho #sorry i wanted to cut like the read more thing but idk how to do it on phone #i hate my family