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bratty-telepath · 1 year

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It has come to my attention that people often don't consider I'm poly and I am a multi-shipper meaning that if I see a range of characters, I will devise a way for them all to be happy together in some way, shape or form, with each other, this includes redacted so…

Bratty Telepath's Poly Redacted Stuff/Multi-shipping shit

(I am a disgrace for not coming up w a better title)*

In this, I will be giving you, dear reader, my poly headcanons and thoughts regarding the redacted universe (this will probably come up again as time goes on). If that's not your cuppa and you prefer monogamous content then that's great! I'll just be over here making people have feelings for each other to make myself happy and you can be over there! Also none of this is organized. It's me rambling off about the things that invade my brain

David /Angel/Asher - happens after David meets and dates Angel and he's able to actually loosen up enough to see that Ash has always cared for him before he starts realizing "oh shit, I'm in love with my best friend" before they go on a bout of him avoiding Asher to avoid his feelings as Asher think David's drifting away again. Angel is who pulls these idiots back together and is like "fix yo shit".

Darlin/Sweetheart/Sam - is long running and went on for a while before Darlin left Dahlia. They were highschool sweethearts who were still dating while SH was at DAMN. At the same time, SH was also seeing Sam unofficially before he got turned and dropped out. Both these bitches really ran and SH was like "I am never letting you shits go" when they met again. SH/Darlin is very much a danger duo situation while SH/Sam is a flirty old roommates situation.

The DAMN polycule - them bitches hanging out and FL was like "what if we dated each other" cuz like they were all not actually seeing anyone they figured "eh, we can try", it started out as a joke...but then they caught feelings and now they're all dating :3

Aaron/Bäbe(aka Smartass)/Asher - Bäbe's old job was with Aaron where they met Asher and when they got a new job, they started dating Aaron. Asher and Aaron know about each other and hang but they're not dating

DAMN polycule/Lovely/Vincent - I think Lovely should know more people and more people should know Lovely. I also think Vincent and Gavin have fucked and they both push Damien's buttons and Huxley has them both on a leash. They'd all be cute together, I know it.

Milo/Lasko/SH - All of my loves, in one ship? Absolutely. After inversion, Lasko started talking to Milo when he was isolating from the group because Milo made him feel bigger than he ever felt when they met and not long afterwards, Lasko ended getting pursued by Milo and SH. It's a very fun relationship.

Sam/FL/Darlin - *Ahem* FL finds Sam w Lovely's help and they ask him to teach them about healing magic. He takes them on as their tutor because he recognizes the same spark he had in them and they both start falling for each other. Darlin is chill w it and doesn't join in the relationship until they get to know FL better and are like "you are amazing and I am going to keep you close forever now".

Milo/Darlin/David/Asher - THEY ALL USED TO BE BEST FRIENDS GROWING UP AND NOW THEY'RE IN LOVE WITH EACH OTHER AS ADULTS. That's it. That's the plot. That's the idea.

David/SH/Milo - Milo realizes he likes David when he talks to SH about him and SH's like "you should tell him then" but Milo's hesitant because they're not as close as they used to be. David however does like Milo but he also likes SH because of their small back and forths with each other and how much he respects their dedication so SH who's noticing all of this is like "He likes you, and he likes you. I think both of you are idiots but you're hot and have a good personality sooo let's all date".

Asher/FL - They're so good together, I promise. Asher and FL bounce energy between one another like a particle accelerator of sorts so they multiply each other's vibes but they both know how recognize and help each other through their shit.

Guy/Seer(Honey)/Morgan - Honey has been a seer obscura all along and was fine dating Guy cuz he was unempowered and they never needed to worry about him finding out about seers but when they have the inversion vision, they meet Morgan who's like "I can help". Morgan requires stress relief which Guy is great at, and Guy+Morgan are also amazing at helping slow down Honey.

SH/Vince/Lovely - These three have a dyanmic where Vince used to get in trouble with the department and used to flirt w SH a lot but SH always kept him ar a distance cuz he didn't have any damn sense. Then SH started liking the person Vince was when he was actually with Lovely. Vince has always liked SH but they just never visibly returned his feelings so he thought they weren't interested but Lovely was like "maybe, talk and like figure that shit out so my boyfriend can stop acting like a fuckin' loser". Vince's dyanmic w SH is absolutely flirty back and forths in contrast to complete adoration of Lovely.

That's all for now, I'm tired of writing but if you're curious about my thoughts on a ship, shoot it my way in a ask🤷🏾‍♂️

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cashandprizes · 1 year

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5+1 Redacted Headcanons

thank you sooo much @ejunkiet you absolute darling for tagging me, this is so exciting!

Tagging my friends (hope you weren't tagged yet): @bratty-telepath, @penncilkid, @zozo-01, @latenightsleeper share your headcanons with the world (tumblr)

Uhhhhh since it's me we're just gonna put this bad boy under a cut, minors dni go away and as usual we take canon out back like ol yeller k thanks let's get into it

In case you haven't noticed, I have a lot of thoughts about Lasko Moore. I'm gonna talk about the fact that Lasko gives off such repressed Southern Bible Belt energy, tgwgigitgwdd. I think it would be so funny if he got rid of his southern accent until he forgets himself and says some real southern grandma shit like "Jesus Mary and Joseph" or "Mother of pearl" or "Jesus be a fence". I feel like Lasko's storyline is pretty queer coded and I think you know why not just add in a little religious trauma to top it off? Not only is being the magical queer son of an unempowered family hard, there's definitely some bible thumpers who think it's demonic, it's a sin, you name it. And who does everything is about church and you are filled with sin better than southern Catholics am I right? like iykyk. That man was repressed as fuck and moving to Dahlia and being around magic users was obviously so life-changing for him.

Which is where it gets spicy, cause it's me. Deep in Lexi (@autisticempathydaemon) and I's DMs is what I like to call the "Unholy Trinity" files, which is me just talking about various redacted characters and their hoe phases before canon started and this post features two different headcanons. When it comes to Lasko though, like I said that boy was REPRESSED and once he was on his own? Oh he went wild. I like to think it started with him going with his roommates or something to an unempowered frat party and he was like "I want to be this free. I want to not have to think" and it started with him just getting drunk but then he realized there's an even better way to shut your mind off that doesn't come with a hangover - getting fucked stupid. The most important part of this headcanon though was at the height of his hoe phase, he was at an unempowered frat party on a weekend after one of the local college sportsball teams won a championship. Lasko was like a little fucked up idk maybe he took some molly or something but he decided that since they won the game, there should be a reward right? Which ends up being him letting like 12 dudes on the football team run a train on him like some kind of hentai gangbang. He doesn't really remember it, but he's LEGENDARY at that college for years afterwards.

And then there's Doll cause it isn't me if I don't talk about Regulus. I obviously looove Reggie and while I hear the Regulus has kidnapped his listener and they are struggling against him, hear me out. I think it would be so delightful if Regulus's listener was someone who was at such a bad point in their life that Regulus was a welcome change. Doll thinks they're going crazy at first, but it's so nice to not have to worry about things anymore. They don't have to go to work, they don't have to worry about making and keeping friends, they don't have to worry about money - Regulus takes care of all of it. Regulus tells them exactly what to do and makes them do it and it's suuuuuuch a relief for them to have someone tell them what to do and to completely give into someone. Regulus to me seems like someone who needs to be needed and by god I gave him a listener who is so grateful for him erasing everything in their brain but him. Also playing with the idea that Doll could be blind, but that's a whooooole other post.

Sentencing your partner to three hours in silly jail for their silly crimes against humanity. love me a hot honey pizza So I love Guy and have been listening to him a lot and talking about him a lot. It's almost a problem. But I have this hilarious idea that after Guy and Honey got together, lived together for a while, really got into each other, they needed to get a new apartment. They're not super well off, but they weren't willing to compromise on the fact that they needed to be on a top floor and sturdy ceilings so they could have anchor points for suspension. Because Honey loves tying Guy up, gagging him, and sitting in a chair nearby with a cup of coffee getting some work done and their hoodie on while Guy... hangs out. get it, hangs out??? anyway there's also a sign in the room that says "Silly Jail" which Guy finger painted for Honey as a joke but is hung on the wall.

Milo..... oh Milo. How I have mentally corrupted you. This is part two of the unholy trinity files. I think Milo used to be, and I say this in the kindest way possible, a bit of a fuckboy. He was a good guy, he was really polite, but he wasn't interested in relationships but definitely into sex. And Milo Greer got AROUND. Lexi and I were like "how many people in canon can we have made him sleep with and can we put them in a groupchat called 'raise your hand if you've ever been personally victimized by milo greer' where they just trade stories about how buckwild he got before he grew out of it" and it's HILARIOUS. Somehow Vincent, Sam, and Alexis are in the gc and they HATE IT, Lasko and Gavin are in there, Hudson definitely is, and just a bunch of people. There's some HILARIOUS mock texts we made that I will share with you. “I didn’t know I could squirt until Milo Greer” "milo greer is all i can think about when people talk about men growling in erotic novels. i asked him for a demonstration for a book i was writing and somehow I ended up with my panties shredded, covered in bites, and dehydrated. my novel is doing really well now btw" "i cannot believe milo has fucked me and both of my siblings. good to know you're all here, say nothing about it ever" "when he said my size was not a problem he wasn't fucking playing. he deadlifted me because he thought it would make me feel better. this man had my ankles by my ears. no man has ever compared" "you know how guys like to say they can turn lesbians? if he got me, he could get others. lesbians are no longer safe"

And last but certainly not least I have been a whore I am a whore I will continue to be a whore - If being a hot werewolf boy means you don't have a knot, I don't want it anymore untrue but my point stands. I love a/b/o, I love knots, I'm a monsterfucker, what can I say? I think all of the Shaw pack would really just be improved if being a wolf shifter meant you got a fat knot. I know can't be the only one, come on somebody.

#WHEW THIS WAS A BEAST!!! had to go back through dms for a while!#tag games!#moon queue.#redacted #redactedasmr #redacted asmr #redacted audio #redactedverse #redacted milo #redacted lasko #redacted shaw pack #redacted guy #redacted honey #redacted regulus #speed run

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ethicalredhat · 4 years

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@teslay

The subway wasn’t too heavily occupied and it helped that the passengers had scattered themselves throughout the unit. The sound of the train running along the rails was like white noise to Darby, the unceasing lull being background music to her thoughts. Some more work had rolled in for her, the list of clients ran behind her eyelids like computer script. She’d dive into her work once she got back to her room but for now mentally organizing things would have to do. Easier said than done though with all the noise but that wasn’t what was peeving Darby at the moment.

No it was that damn little dog just glaring-well maybe it wasn’t glaring but it had a certain bratty way about it Darby thought. Judging maybe? In all actuality the shih tzu was most likely simply looking her way but in her current mood Darby just didn’t care for that shit at all. Why was this distracting her? Maybe the dog can tell there’s something wrong with her. That she’s incorrect, tainted with lies and manipulation to get the outcome she desires. Any semblance of candor long gone but that wasn’t entirely true no matter how strongly Darby believed it. Maybe her paranoia was actually making her loose it now. Half ass contemplating the moral judgments of some guy’s theoretically telepathic dog.

Feeling a bit stupid now for her (brief and weird) internal emotional roller coaster Darby sips on her bottle of water she’d been clutching. Why’d she always have to act this way, like even the most benign things in the world were somehow out to get her. It was just an innocent dog. Maybe some Xanax would do her some good like her doctor suggested all those years ago.

Twisting the cap of the bottle between her fingers until it was screwed on way too tight she looks over at the shih tzu then up at the man who’s lap the dog sat in. In a rare (but not unusual) whim to be social Darby speaks up. “That’s a cute dog you got there,” Is asking for the name too annoying? Ah fuck it, she might as well. “what’s their name?”

#[ A plane parallel to this one but rearranged ] Unspecified Verse #I hope this is okay #message me if you want anything changed #teslay

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janeykath318 · 7 years

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Chains

Kirk awoke to a sore head and dingy dungeon cell. He groaned as he tried to move and felt fiery pain all over his strangely bare back. Oh, that's right, he remembered, Another whipping from overly suspicious aliens who had no imagination when it came to torture. His hands were chained together, as were his ankles. There also appeared to be a sort of collar on his neck, though what purpose that would serve was beyond him. Looking around he caught sight of his first officer in a similar situation with his back covered in bloody green stripes. "Spock!" He hissed in horror, afraid to speak very loudly, "what did they do to you? You're a mess!"

"Nothing they did not do to you, Captain," replied Spock calmly, "I am merely sore from the whipping." "You've got a nicer collar than me," Kirk noted. "Yours has jewels in it, mine's just plain. What do you think these things are for, anyway?" He poked the leather around his neck curiously. "I do not know for certain," answered Spock, "but after much thought I would hypothesize that they intend to make us slaves of some sort. Perhaps my more mild temperament caused them to mark me as a more ....useful... commodity." Kirk snorted. Yep he had definitely not gone down without a fight and plenty of mouthing off. "That, and your pointy ears are pretty exotic looking. Endangered species and all." He sighed. He hoped they got rescued before any selling happened. He'd finally found someone to spend the rest of his life with and he really dreaded the thought of never seeing her again. "I bet Ny and Bones are about to stage their own rescue party for us. If they're riled up enough that means bad news for the aliens," Kirk rambled hopefully. "I would imagine so, given their protective and emotional instincts. I have attempted to inform Leonard of our situation through the bond. I do not know if he can understand me from this distance." Spock looked rather uneasy, shifting in his bonds. "They'd better fix us up, then, if they're going to sell us" grumbled Kirk. "Who wants to buy damaged goods?" It appeared the aliens thought along those same lines, because their wounds were washed and they were fed fairly decently for prisoners. Three days went by before anything happened, though. Jim spent them stewing and fretting and thinking about his fiancé and his ship. Spock had begun to shiver with cold and Jim scooted over closely to provide as much warmth as he could. On the fourth day, a sleazy looking creature appeared. "Get up. You must be prepared for your new owners." He gave a greedy smile. Jim looked nervously at Spock as they struggled to their feet. Bones and Uhura had better hurry if they ever wanted to see their mates again. They were led out of their cell and taken to what appeared to be a bathhouse. Jim and Spock were then thoroughly scrubbed, dried, buffed, shined up, and dressed in loose clothing. Then their hands were cuffed behind them and leashes attached to the collars. Spock couldn't hide the look of utter disgust on his face and Jim felt something like despair. "Move!" Commanded the sleazy alien, grabbing hold of the leashes and brandishing his whip. He yanked, and the captain and commander stumbled forward. They were led down a path for about a mile before the alien procession filed into a ornate stone building in the center of the town. It appeared to be a place of business transactions, judging by the haggling that was going on. Kirk noted other collared slaves being bargained over like sheep and It made his stomach churn. He and Spock were led to a small room of the main arena. "Kneel," ordered their guard, "Keep your heads down unless I tell you otherwise. I would not like to have to leave more scars on your splendid bodies." He brandished his whip for emphasis, causing a shudder to run through Kirk. He got down on his knees and forced himself to stare at the ground, gritting his teeth in irritation. He heard their leashes tied to something in the wall and the alien gave a satisfied sound. "Excellent!" You will bring me a pretty penny. Such fine specimens." He rubbed his scaly paws together. Jim heard another voice chatter to the Sleazy Pimp Alien (as he mentally called him) and there was a brief command from Sleazy Pimp in return. Then the door opened and footsteps entered. "Welcome, welcome!" Said Sleazy Pimp in a sickeningly cloying greeting to the guests. Dread rose in Jim's heart as he realized the buyers had arrived, but he didn't dare look up. He was planning a desperate struggle for freedom, when he was stunned by the sound of a soft, sultry, voice just in front of him and a pair of familiar feet in killer heels. "Well, well, well. So this is the merchandise," said Nyota Uhura. "Not bad. What do you think, Gordon?" A pair of shiny black dress shoes appeared beside the heels. "A couple of very pretty boys, Nina," drawled another familiar voice. Bones tapped the ground with a cane as he spoke. "They might do fine, if they're not too much trouble to train." The sound of his mate's voice caused Spock to twitch slightly, but he kept his eyes down. "This one is very obedient," said Sleazy Pimp, indicating Spock, "but HE" (pointing to Jim) "likes to fight and be impudent. If you wish to buy the pointy eared one, I will include the young rascal half-price." Jim was rather insulted. Being sold was bad enough, but to be considered a discount item thrown in cheap was a little embarrassing. Uhura laughed a little, walking around Jim, evidently making a show of examining the goods. "May I take a closer look at this impudent mouth?" she asked in that voice that did things to poor Jim. "Go ahead," said Sleazy. Jim felt fingertips slide under his chin and it was gently pushed up. "Look at me, boy," she said. Jim looked up into the brown eyes he loved so much, telegraphing his relief with his best puppy dog look. She looked dazzling, all dolled up in a feisty black number, hair twisted up and giant earrings dangling from her ears. He gulped. She gave a sharky grin, that belied the gentle touch. Beside him, "Gordon" was giving Spock an equally thorough once over and probably expressing his joy telepathically. "It may be a sassy mouth, but it's a pretty one, all right with those full, pink lips.Those eyes, too, would bring a fortune," "Nina" commented. "If he gets too bratty I can always gag him." She winked and Jim squirmed, partly mortified, but mostly turned on. "You like them exotic, don't you, Gordon?," she said to Bones, who made a fantastic pimp in his pinstripe suit, fedora, gloves, and cane. Jim was never going to let him forget it, either. "Yes, Ma'am," he answered smugly, lightly touching the tip of Spock's ear, which was turning green from the attention. "Vulcans are very cool characters, but I've heard they're extremely.....skilled...in certain areas. Not that they'd ever brag about it." He lightly ran his cane down Spock's arm which rendered the first officer completely green. In addition, Bones had deliberately exaggerated his drawl to enhance his act. "How much you asking for them?," he asked, walking around to Jim, and poking him with his cane. "Seven thousand for them both," answered Sleazy Pimp Alien. "Nina" and "Gordon" looked at each other and frowned slightly, but nodded to each other. "It's pretty steep, but they'll earn it back in no time." Bones gave a shifty leer that stunned Jim. He hadn't known the doctor had that kind of acting chops. Nyota shook the hand/paw thingy of the Sleazy Pimp Alien after the transaction was concluded. Delighted with his sale, the creature bowed and groveled as he untied their chains and handed them to their new "owners", practically dragging Jim and Spock to their feet. "May they bring you much profit," he said in farewell as the "slaves" were led away by their leashes. When they were safely out of earshot of any buildings, Jim let himself relax a bit, staring at Nyota with undisguised admiration as she led him away from the village. "That was amazing, you two," he blurted out. "You deserve a commendation and probably an Oscar for that performance." "Nina" dropped the leash and unlocked his cuffs, immediately wrapping him in her arms. His still sore back protested, but Jim didn't care as he kissed her deeply. "Oh, Jim. I was scared stiff the whole time," she whispered as they rested their foreheads together, "I was so afraid you'd already been sold, or they'd ask more credits than what we had, or you'd been assaulted....." She broke off. Leonard had pulled out his communicator and they were beamed back aboard the Enterprise. Before Jim could resume his conversation with Nyota, Bones got his attention. "If your back is anything like Spock's you're coming to Medbay. Big risk of infection. You can finish the joyous reunion after I've taken care of those cuts." Nyota narrowed her eyes. "Did they hurt you, Jim?" Jim shrugged and then winced at the flare up of pain. "Yeah, they whipped us when we first got captured so we'd know who was boss. They're not real deep. They just sting a lot." "I'll be the judge of that, Jim," said the doctor, "Now, March. You've still got that leash on, by the way." Spock had already been freed from leash and collar and was beginning to look like his usual unflappable self again. "Oh," he said lamely as he reached for his neck and unhooked the long leash from the collar. "Hey, it wasn't too bad when YOU were leading me around. Good grief, Nyota. You and that dress and heels are a deadly combination. And nice get up, yourself, Bones." Jim said, admiringly to his friend. "You were a convincing pimp. The fedora really suits you." He giggled. Bones turned red and scowled. "I did what I had to do to save your sorry hides. I'm a doctor, not an actor. Thank Sulu for rigging me up in this thing." "I'm sure Spock will, at least." Jim winked outrageously causing the Vulcan to give him an annoyed look. Uhura smiled and sighed at Jim's antics all the way to Medbay. Jim got his cuts regenerated along with extra hypos for being a smart aleck, and by the time he made it back to his quarters it was quite late. Nyota was there waiting for him, hair let down and heels kicked off, but still in the Little Black Dress and looking beautiful. They came together wordlessly and simply held each other for a long time, basking in love and relief. "You're my hero, you know that?" He murmured into her ear. "I kinda got that idea," she whispered back, head resting over his heart. "And you're the sunshine that I just can't live without, baby. I'd take on the Klingons to get you back, Jim." Jim's reply was typical Kirk, but completely genuine. He leaned in and gave her a grateful kiss, followed by more telling of how hot she was and that she could lead him around on a leash ANYTIME. Nyota grinned and looked him over. "I might just take you up on that."

#kirk x uhura #spock x bones #my fics #spones #kirkhura

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bratty-telepath · 1 year

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Getting to know me better ig???

*Count on @ejunkiet to simply drag me out of my shell when I refuse to leave it 😅

1. Three Ships

Ok, Shaw poly pack (Redacted Audio) because why not? They're all cute, why must I pick? Genevieve/Sweetheart (Castle Audios) because they're amazing together your honour and they deserve everything. Ghostmaker/Batman/Superman (DC Comics) call me crazy and I'll call you a coward because there's potential and I will fight about it.

2. First Ever Ship

Gods, that's a trip down memory lane...mmmmm Sonic/Shadow (Sonic the Hedgehog) I have no excuse other than it was the early 2000s and I just got a small peek at the internet and I was a child so I'm blameless.

3. Last Song

My Goodbye (Epic the Musical; The Cyclops Saga), it's so fuckin good and my brain was having fun imagining a fight between Sadhil and his mom, AND IT WAS SO AMAZING. Fuck my mind for giving me shit like that.

4.Last Movie

This is gonna be embarrassing since I don't watch movies that much but it was last year and I watched Everything Everywhere All at Once after Black Panther: Wakanda Forever.

5. Currently Reading

A Magic Steeped in Poison by Judy I. Lin, I just started it but I've heard good things however I am more properly rereading through @dominimoonbeam 's "Long Time No See" fic as it goes along!

6. Currently Watching

Nothing actually. I kinda left TV shit at the door of Fandom because TV series are like hard for me to get into because starting shit is hard for me (ADHD hehehe...) but the last thing I watched was The Bastard Son and the Devil Himself. I liked it, dunno if I'll get into it more but seeing as how it's cancelled apparently, probs not.

7. Currently Consuming

Hotdogs. Today's a hotdog day and I am having energy drinks w that. I'm fine, I can handle treating my health like shit.

8. Currently Craving

Cheesecake...I want cheesecake always. I love it. I just want it. Just gimme gimme gimme.

Tagging... @fregget-frou @castleaudios @thicchaco and anyone else who sees this ig

#redacted audio #castleaudios #fandom #Bratty-Telepath #Bratty Telepath's Train of Thought

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bratty-telepath · 1 year

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*I'm back with more thoughts, this time about my Lovely(GN), Sam and their responses to trauma as I've personally put it around in my head (also a reason for me to talk about how I've written Lovely).

So there's no denying that Sam and Lovely have very similar parallels and contrasts involving their respective turning and I think there is room for an interesting thought experiment in the idea of how people internalise and externalise their trauma especially those with trauma of similar happenings(because no one responds to trauma–even if similar trauma–the same way).

In Sam's case, we know how he has adressed his trauma, he has cut off all interactions with Alexis(his former sneaky link) and has chosen to pretty much exist in defiance of and within the limits of his circumstances. Basically, he views his turning as a bad thing due to the loss of his abilities' innate potential as well as the circumstances surrounding the turning (ie. Alexis turning him regardless of his denial).

Tldr; Sam has repressed and unresolved trauma from that night

Lovely on the othe hand is an interesting case because we are made to project onto Lovely how they feel about being turned as they don't present negative feelings about visibly. While this has brought us a lot of angst, I wanna introduce a concept:

Lovely isn't as upset as Sam is about their turning.

Hear me out and remember this is just my variation of things, you don't have to agree with it, but I am personally interested in the dynamic this presents. To better illustrate my point, I'll set the stage and use Sam and my Lovely, Logan Varney.

*To get you up to speed, Logan is a Navajo ex-foster kid and college dropout that pretty much was going around getting odd jobs in Dahlia before wandering into Wonderworld and meeting Vincent which leads us into the current canon of things.

Now imagine with me if you will, a scenario in which Sam approaches Logan and attempts to talk to them of his own volition, about their turning and how he presumes they must feel about it, however he comes to learn that Logan isn't as upset about it as he had initially assumed. Instead, Logan views it in the same light of a videogame's reset function–sure, they have to start over with their progress in electro magic and may never get the same results they once did in their previous try at their life but they still have a chance to go about learning magic even if it looks different for them as a vampire

Now, we cannot deny that there are two very different backgrounds to consider in this little clash of trauma responses. Sam is coming at their turning from the perspective of an assumably magic-born freelancer background with the mindset that Lovely is experiencing a major loss after working incredibly hard, whilst Logan is taking it from the perspective of a latent electro energeric who is so used to turbulent change that this is simply just another step back that they can overcome. They also have never had the length of experience they do with their magic that Sam has and as such have chosen to view it otherwise as they don't see loss but an alternative route. One also can't deny that Lovely sees a therapist whilst Sam does not (to our knowledge anyways).

This also opens for me to talk about the mental process I've basically theorised in Sam's approach to his view of trauma, in which it mirrors Stephen Strange from the MCU. When I say that, I should be specific and say that it falls under the idea of a "fall from grace". Both Sam and Stephen are at the height of their prime before tragedy strikes (coincidentally a car crash) and leaves them both unable to perform as they're accustomed to. Additionally, they mourn the incident in a way that moreso derives sadness from the percieved outlook of the loss of their former capabilities (Sam being coded as a disabled man really coming in clutch here). Meaning that the biggest gripe they have in their shared view of their circumstances is that they will both never be the same (which is valid).

Where am I going with this?

Well, welcome to my agenda of "Everyone with similar traumas to Sam is going to be a narrative parallel that will make him face an aspect of his trauma" aka "Sam gets therapy"; Logan's role in that is the facet of accepting the lingering effects of said trauma.

Here, lovely challenges the notion that Sam hasn't addressed how he views the outcome of that night. They've had support and chances to understand how the inversion has affected them which has allowed them to comprehend their feelings about their turning and their circumstances so they know what they're specifically sad about and how they've come to counteract that sadness by seeing their vampirism not as a curse but as a different way they now have to live.

Sam has not done that. Thus, this is a foreign concept because he's held in almost three decades of resentment for the way he now lives, meanwhile Lovely is vibing and processing their experience.

The most important part of it, is that Lovely's reaction now places Sam in the position to recognize that he's unwittingly projected his feelings about his turning onto them, seeking validation from them through someone who doesn't feel that. There's of course nothing wrong with that and I intend to emphasize that people do that regardless of intention to or not, but the absolute best part of this perspective I wish to explore in my current WIP is that Lovely takes it so casually that Sam now has to understand that despite their similar circumstances, Logan doesn't feel the same about their turning and its effects which now makes him consider the way he addresses his trauma*.

*As is normal for people, we challenge our own thoughts and ideas when we get new information, in some cases that means we change our mind about previous subjects and in other cases, we don't. Depends

Frankly I'm excited to finally get done with this WIP especially since this is Logan's first proper fic that I'm doing for them but it's also just interesting to explore how they feel about their turning outside of the normal view of it.

Anyways, laters ✌️

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