#best believe imma apply for all the scholarships 😤 no but srsly this is all bullshit ughh

[jamesbukkakebarnes]

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#i thought i was done w school but rly i was just postponing that shit lmao #i thought i'd have time before going back for my bsn but fuck me i guess #AND im probably gonna have to get a loan?? kms 😭 #at least for the first term but thank fuck its not super expensive. plus if theres anyone who can finesse the govt for fin aid its me #best believe imma apply for all the scholarships 😤 no but srsly this is all bullshit ughh #i hope the job im trying to apply to is willing to hire me while i do this.. #if not im gonna have to find someplace else but man that would suck bc i really wanted to work there plus i have an in w someone #and its in the specialty im interested in 😭😭 #i just feel like i have wasted so much time i'd already have my bsn had i hustled but alas depression got my ass since last yr #OH WELL im in a better place now (even tho it doesnt seem like it. esp when i rant on here lmao) so nows a good time to start doing better #worst case scenario i get a crappy job working on a med surge unit while i finish my bsn and then i can start at this place 🙃 #i guess a bit of experience wouldnt be so bad but still :/ #ignore me #this sucks ass but 2023 is already better than the shit show that was 2022 lmao this is just the start of me getting my shit together 🤧