#because of my birthday. and my Nana and Pop left most of their stuff. specifically food and a few items.

[squirmydonnie]

Vent: TW: ( disordered eating in tags.) (probably)

i wish I would have stayed up stairs and had eaten the cake my Grandma made for me.

It's what I wanted all day.

Now I can't.

#cheeseburgerboy #i still want it. #i have a full roll of paper towels in my room. so i could wrap it #i didn't know we would have this much food in the house. #because of my birthday. and my Nana and Pop left most of their stuff. specifically food and a few items. #i wasn't prepared #ive been forcing myself to eat everything. but i feel afraid at the same time to take too much. #my brother has his phone taken. #my dad is doing his mocking voice of my brother #i started screaming again. #i screamed in the car this morning. #i screamed twice at an appropriate time actually. during the pep rally #and then i screamed more at home. because my dad was criticizing my posture #he brings it up often. #he doesn't want people to be off put by me. #if this is the one place i can be let out. why am i not letting outm #its almost like that not true??? idk🤔🤔🤔 #no one will listen. so i don't always try and talk. it seems unnecessary. #why i haven't said much lately. #5 day weekend didn't start well. but i want to do some more stuff tomorrow. i should at least try #i try a lot. i get tired. i am tired #but i have 1 last assignment to do tomorrow. its not hard. but im not good a focusing. ill probably be able to get it.