#because I'm super self conscious about writing outside of RPing

[didntdeservethisshit]

I’ve basically finished two books today. Good lord.

#I've done it before #but usually when this happens I'm reading a series of books #rather than multiple stand alones #but it's been a consistent #''it doesn't matter if it's a series or a stand alone you just gotta read.'' #because I need distractions tbh #but also tbh part of me reading #is me totally avoiding something I've wanted to do for a day or so now #which is #free write for like a few minutes #but quite frankly for some reason I'm nervous about that idea #because I'm super self conscious about writing outside of RPing #but I want to do it #I want to get better at it #I'm just so scared #because I'm such shit at it right now #I've always been shit at it #I'm too anxious to do it #so I'm reading both for distraction and potential inspiration #even though sometimes you just have to do something to get anything done #but I'm nervous about the idea of someone finding any of it #so I keep making excuses not to just do it #outofscars