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disneychannie · 3 years

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sing for you | d.kyungsoo

pairings: kyungsoo x female!reader

genre: fluff, nonidol!au, slice of life!au, established relationship, shy!kyungsoo, baker!kyungsoo

warnings: mild swearing but nothing intense

word count: 3.09k words

you’ve dated quite a handful of men before kyungsoo and you’ve got to say that kyungsoo was really none like the rest.

he was more preserved and preferred to keep his social status lower. yes, he was a baker which means he constantly see strangers coming in out of his bakery but he has never made it a big of a deal. even though he barely promotes his bakery, there seemed to be quite a good amount of customers daily. don’t exactly know if it was because of the cute owner with the big eyes or that his goods are actually tasty. he prefers to think the latter.

then when you met him, you weren’t that surprised when he wasn’t that touch-y or affectionate with you. to say that you were shocked was an understatement. when you first became friends, (through jongin, his best friend and one of your good friends), you could tell how he wasn’t the type to always initiate the conversation but he does like to say his input on some things once in a while. for some reason that made you attracted to him though you were kinda the total opposite.

but hey, opposites attract right?

when you first started dating it wasn’t that awkward to your dismay. surprisingly, he was the first one to ask you out. not just you, who were surprised but jongin too. he always thought that you were the one who was gonna do all the work. he didn’t mind you being affectionate towards him, if you’ve ever decided to kiss his cheek, or a random back hug, he would accept it.

just, he’s not use to being out of his bubble but he hopes that you know he loves you too.

it was 12am and an hour after closing time so kyungsoo was busy tidying up the bakery. though he refuses to accept it he acknowledges why people calls him a neat freak. it takes him at least 2 hours to make sure his small bakery is clean and spotless. he does this every single day and he doesn’t seem to get tired of it.

he was moping the floor when he heard the bell of the main entrance ringing, which signals that someone has entered his bakery. he doesn’t bother to stop what he was doing tho, cause he knows that it was you. usually, after a shift at the hospital, which was conveniently the same time where kyungsoo normally finishes cleaning, you would stop by at the bakery so that you could walk with him back to your shared apartment.

“kyungsoooooo” you exclaimed skipping happily towards him with the biggest smile on your face. kyungsoo rested the mop against one of the tables to come and greet you. you engulfed him in a big hug immediately and out of instinct he would hug you back. “how was the shift?” he asked, going back to moping.

you sighed dramatically as you sat down on the nearest chair. “it was sooo tiring soo, i might as well stop being a nurse and come work here with you,” you said with a smirk on your face. kyungsoo just laughed and shook his head. “the last thing i would do is let you even stand 10 cm away from a chopping board, love,” kyungsoo joked. you fake gasped but laugh a long with him.

“i’m seriously so hungry, the hospital cafeteria served pork cutlets which i thought would taste good but ended up tasting like utter shit” you sighed plopping your head on the table which caused the sound of the impact to resonate throughout the small bakery.

“i know you would say that, i have two sausage rolls and a red velvet cake for you on the counter,” he said simply, nodding his head towards the counter as he continued to mop the floor. you squealed excitedly and made your way towards the counter to claim your goods from the countertop. “thank you so much my baby honey bunch i love youuuu,” you said dramatically making kissing sounds as you head back to your chair before to start eating the pastries. kyungsoo blushed at your pet names for him and only replied with a small welcome. he wished he was able to call you by cute pet names too but he was too shy to do so.

you took a bite of the sausage roll and made a sound to indicate how good it was. “this is so good man,” your voice mumbled as your mouth was full of the pastry. “eat with your mouth closed y/n, you’re gonna choke on your food,” he warned before heading to the back room to put the mop away after finally getting all the corners of the bakery clean. you only made a face to him and continued on eating your food.

it was the little things that kyungsoo does to show you that he loves you when he has a hard time showing it. like this for example. he knew how bad the food at your hospital was and reminds himself to make some extras for you a half an hour before you arrived so it would still be nice and warm when you make your arrival. he immensely knows how much you prefer his food than anyone else’s, well, your mom’s cooking comes first but kyungsoo has a 89.8% chance on taking that spot from your mom.

it was a week before your 4 year anniversary with kyungsoo and you couldn’t be more ecstatic about it. you already bought and even made some homemade gifts you knew kyungsoo would love.

while you were anticipating for the day to come by, kyungsoo was shitting himself.

he had no clue what to get you for your anniversary this year. he was the worst at giving you gifts and always opted on cooking something extravagant or making top tier cakes or pastries just for you but he was scared that you would grow tired at his way of giving gifts and would eventually get tired of him too. you’ve always reassured that him cooking was already enough (which you genuinely meant) but he obviously had doubts.

he has thought about getting you jewellery before but he knew you weren’t the type to enjoy wearing jewellery much but you wouldn’t push away the thought of having a nice necklace, right?

so here he was, at jongin’s house currently dying inside as he complains to his dearest friend about what to get you for your anniversary.

“i’m about to go bonkers jongin, i’ve gotten her the same thing each year and i feel like if i do it again this year she’s going to break with me on our anniversary,” he said all in one breath, and may haps on the brink of tears. “wow you truly are a simp for her huh,” jongin mumbled before continuing. “i have a quite decent suggestion but i just don’t think you would like the idea of it,”

kyungsoo shot his head up and grabbed jongin by the shoulder shaking him with determination in his eyes. “i’ll take anything you have, i mean it,”. startled by his action, jongin stuttered before talking. “well first of all, let go of me,” he said taking his friend’s hands off his shoulders. “you could try writing a song for y/n and sing it for her” jongin said shrugging.

you never knew that kyungsoo could sing but jongin knows. back in high school, kyungsoo use to join the choir and school band and was always chosen as the lead singer for each of them. but as uni came, he became a bit shy to show his voice off and only opted on not telling anyone about it, including you. it’s not that he didn’t want you to know but he thought that you wouldn’t like his singing and think that he was a full of himself.

“i don’t know about that man, what do i even sing about plus, would she even like my singing voice?” kyungsoo said suddenly going glum. jongin hated seeing his best friend at this state but he undeniably believe that this was a great idea.

“don’t even start soo, you know that i know that your voice is one of the finest out there, still think that you could’ve joined an entertainment company and become a singer instead,” kyungsoo nudged his friend upon what he said and jongin just laughed. “i’m serious though man, you could write about how much you love her but is too shy to show it to her,” he suggested. “you could even ask jongdae to help you with the lyrics and chanyeol to help you with the composing,” jongin continued.

“that’s actually not a bad idea,” kyungsoo mumbled. “thanks jongin, i don’t know why i’ve never came up with the idea,” he said gratefully to his friend. “no problem dude, the only way you’ll pay back to me is by giving me a niece,” he joked, which earned a hard slap on the head by kyungsoo.

kyungsoo spent the whole week with jongdae and chanyeol trying to come up with something good in just a week. he didn’t tell you what he was doing obviously and faked that chanyeol had just gone through a massive break up and he kyungsoo had to check up on him making sure that he didn’t do anything stupid. you were gullible and actually believed him to the point you went to the flower store to buy flowers for chanyeol and had kyungsoo to pass it to him. he felt bad about lying to you but in order to give you a special anniversary gift, he had to take one for the team.

he couldn’t thank jongdae and chanyeol enough for helping him to compose and write the song that he promised to give them free pastries from his bakery for free for 2 months. his business was shaking at the thought of that but anything for you.

the day finally came and he was nervous as fuck. he still opted on buying you the new necklace though as he thought that it would at least be something you would carry around for a long time. he kept practicing at the bakery as he was making the pastries and since he was to engrossed in practicing he forgot that there were customers in his shop but thank god he got positive feedback and some of the older customers even told him to sing at retirement homes for them which he didn’t know if it was a compliment or not but he counted it as one.

on the day of the anniversary kyungsoo had packed you a nice breakfast and for one lunch as well so that you didn’t have to eat the nasty hospital food on this special day. he even gave you a kiss on the lips and a big hug before you left for work, wishing you a happy anniversary and a good day at work before letting you go.

he decided on having one of his staff to close his store down which he usually doesn’t ask them too but thank god that they were more than happy to see their hardworking boss to give them the responsibility and for once go back home early. before he went back he stopped by chanyeol’s house to burrow his guitar for the night. once he reached home he hid the guitar in the store room and started getting ready for dinner. he thought that he would get the recipe for your favourite dish from your mother since you’ve told him that you were home-sick lately and thought that this was the perfect opportunity to bring a piece of your home to seoul.

as he was finish setting the plates, he heard the front door open which indicated that you were home. “i’m home honeyyyy” you said dragging out the Y. you dropped your bag and jacket down on the sofa and crushed your lovely boyfriend with a big hug. “is this [your favourite food]?” you asked and observed the mouth-watering dishes on the table. “yeah, i even asked your mom for the recipe since you said that you’ve been missing home lately,” he said. you started to tear up and gave him a kiss on the cheek. “thank you so much soo, i’m gonna eat this all up till my body explodes,” you said as a tear slip from your eye and kyungsoo laughed.

“come sit down, let’s eat,” he said and the both of you ate the delicious food he made as you talked the night away. you were talking about the patients you had to handle that day and kyungsoo took the time to admire you. you look absolutely stunning to him and he never stops thinking about how lucky he is to have such a beautiful, hard working and driven you are. you were never scared to voice your opinions out and was clearly the epitome of brave. that’s one of the thousand features that he loved about you. the thought of how brave you are was even sexy to him in some ways but we won’t talk about that.

after the meal it was finally time for the gift exchanging. you got him a new watch with his name engraved on the strap as well as new pairs of airpods with his name engraved on the casing thought you didn’t know that kyungsoo could sing, you knew how much he loves music. “y/n, this must be super expensive, thank you baby but now i feel bad,” he said, grateful that you would spend so much money on him. “don’t worry about it love, you mean the world to me i don’t care that i spend extra money if it was for you,” kyungsoo couldn’t help but when ahead and give you a chaste kiss on your lips and hugging you. “thank you y/n,” you smiled in return.

it was now kyungsoo’s turn to give you his gift and he was beyond nervous. “i actually got you something as well,” he said. he went over to the kitchen where he hid the necklace behind the sugar jar and went over to hand it to you. “you didn’t have to soo, you worked hard cooking for us,” you pouted but he still passed te box to you. you opened the box to see a beautiful necklace with a small delicate star pendant on it. you gasped upon the beauty of the necklace and turned to your boyfriend. “soo, this is literally perfect,” you said. “i’m glad you liked it, i took almost an hour trying to find the perfect one,” he said. you laughed at that and he took the necklace from you to place it around your neck. “thank you baby,”. shit this was it. “i uh, actually have one more thing to give to you,” he said

“what is it?” you asked curiously. kyungsoo then went to the store room to retrieve the guitar and brought it to the table. your eyes were as wide as your mouth was when you saw what he pulled out from the room. “where did you get that?” you asked. “i burrowed it from chanyeol, actually i wrote a song for you. well, jongdae and chanyeol helped me with it but i did most of the lyric writing,” he said and you kept quiet as you still didn’t know what to say, till realisation hits you.

“you can sing?” you asked, shocked. kyungsoo suddenly got shy and placed the guitar on his lap and had his fingers ready to strum and throat ready to sing.

With my old guitar I’ll take all the confessions I couldn’t say All the things I swallowed inside And tell you right now as if I made it into a song Just listen, I’ll sing for you

kyungsoo started off with a shaky voice cause this was the first time you have ever heard him sing but as he continued on he became more engrossed in the song.

I love you so much but I don’t tell you that I love you It’s awkward, my pride won’t allow me I’ll take courage and tell you today But just listen without much thought, I’ll sing for you

It’s kind of funny, I only have you But sometimes, I’m worse than a stranger to you When in truth, I just wanna put my head in your arms And be held by you

you were about to cry halfway through the song because one, he had such a nice voice and two, it was because you knew that kyungsoo had trouble trying to express himself to you though you could tell by his actions that he loves you, you didn’t know it was to the point that he would make a song just to tell you how much he loves you.

When today passes, I might get awkward again But I wanna tell you today, so listen

The way you cry, the way you smile Do you know how much you mean to me? Words I wanna say, words I lost I’ll confess to you though it might sound awkward Just listen, I’ll sing for you, sing for you Just listen, I’ll sing for you

just as he finished you started to clap enthusiastically. “soo, this is absolutely beautiful,” you said, hand over your mouth still trying to wrap his head around the fact that your boyfriend had such a wonderful voice.

“do you like it?” he asked, hands already sweating. “like it? babe i LOVE it, please sing more for me in the future” you said emphasising the love. he then set the guitar down and took your hands in his and made you stand up with him.

“i know i may not be the best at being vocal about how much i appreciate you but i hope through the song you would understand how i actually fell and how much you mean to me and that i love you,” he said.

you laughed through the tears and kissed your boyfriend. he kissed back with just as much passion. the both of you pulled away and rested your foreheads together.

“i love you kyungsoo,” you said. “and i love you more,” he replied placing another kiss on your forehead.

“so all this while chanyeol didn’t go through a breakup? he was just helping you with the song? you questioned.

“that man doesn’t even have a girlfriend,”

#exo #exo imagines #exo scenarios #kyungsoo imagines #kyungsoo scenarios #d.o #d.o scenarios #d.o imagines #do kyungsoo #do kyungsoo imagines #do kyungsoo scenarios

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dreamerology · 6 years

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my biggest i love monsta x ever!!!!

no offence but if u had told me a year ago that these seven boys would have had this much of an impact on my life and not only that but i still love them as much now as i did on day one (maybe even more) i’d say u were lying. usually my interests come and go in phases and nothing has ever lasted as long as mx???? but i rly truly cannot imagine my life without them at this point. in fact, the 2-3 months at the very beginning of uni where i stopped having time for them and thought i was moving on were the worst of this year (ofc that wasn’t the only reason those months were hard, but feeling like i was falling out of love w mx hurt more than id care to admit). they’ve brought me so much happiness and connected me with so many amazing people and not 2 be cheesy but made me into a better person! like they just continue to have the biggest positive influence in my life and i got the opportunity to meet one of my best friends bc of them, i’ll forever be thankful for them

i know i havent been w mx since the beginnign but!!!! even just seeing shownu grow so much this year has made me sooooo happie!!!!!! i Love how u can just see he’s more comfortable now and seems a lot more at ease……..the fact that hes comfortable enough to host his own solo vlives and no offence but theres not a single thing i dont love abt that man! hes so fucking funny….like its sorta weird humor?? dad humor almost? BUT HES HONESTLY FUNNY WITHOUT EVEN TRYING hes just reached a point where he’s got no filter and will just say whatever and sometimes even the wording will make me laugh dkjfhkjsd the true underrated comedian of the group tbh. hes so selfless too bicht………….i still cant believe he split the money from his solo event w the other members My Heart :-((((((( and when hes on a solo schedule he’s always mentioning the others!!! nd doesnt let anyone forget abt them, they rly are one big family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALSO HIS SMILE is the cutest shit ive ever seen!!!!! like when he smiles rlllly big nd his eyes crinkle nd he :D and his big “ha ha ha” ,,,,music 2 my ears!!!!!!!! i wish he could be that happy forever. hes the biggest softest teddy bear i just wanna give him a giant hug???

fun fact wonho was the first member i knew abt nd was able to recognize nd such!! my friend who helped me get into mx talked abt him a lot so i grew to love him before i even knew the others!!! actually hes probably still the one i know the most abt bc of her? anyways! angels exist and wonho is living proof of that! his love for mbbs is on a whole other plane of existance???? ive never felt this loved nd appreciated as a fan before nd its all genuine!!!!!. wonho is a monbebebebe first and a monsta second. hes just so full of love….im convinced thats why hes so Large he needs to fit his heart in his body somehow...hes just got so much love to give!!!!!!! he is the most thoughtful and caring person??? like not even towards monbebes and his memebrs but like at the end of mxray when he made sure to buy all the staff and crew little gifts as well, my heart grew 3 sizes for him!!!!!! and im so soo soooooooooooooosososooo proud of him to have some of his songs on the albums this year and not only that but! from zero getting a stage on tv!!!!!! his song!!!! he did that!!!!!! his hard work paid off….i hope he continues to be able to produce more music this year! oh one last thing, i love how? childish he is??? idk if thats the right word but hes always teasing or changing or playing around w the other members and hes always being goofy and laughing and it just makes my heart!!!!! rly happy nd warm

what is there left 2 be said abt minhyuk that i havent already said yet jdfshkjdhf i just! Love Everything abt that boy :-((((((( i love his sunshiney positive personality that never fails to cheer me up, i love how caring he is and how he always makes sure to be there for his members and makes himself open for them, i love his uneven blink, i love how soft his voice is and how it sounds exactly how sunshine looks, i love his fingers go sorta crooked when he makes a peace sign, i love his laugh and how silly he is, i love his thoughtful and serious side, i love how smart he is, i love his toothy smile, i love when hes on stage and he looks so radiant and glowing and u can see how happy he is and how he was truly built to shine, i love his ears, i love how affectionate and loving he is, i love his one (1) dimple, i love how sometimes he just says the weirdest shit…...like i rly wanna understand what hes thinking sometimes, i love how cute he looks wearing hats or how soft he looks in giant sweaters, i love him sooooooo much my heart hurts

can u believe i didn’t used to love kihyun this much? past me was a whole fool! i’ll try to keep this one sorta short too since i’ve already written a love essay for him but! once again i rly do love him w my whole heart!!!!!! absolutely Everything he does is so endearing and i loooove how he cares so much….he rly went and made us our own season's greeting for free nd his photography is rly No Joke! hes so talented nd u can rly see how passionate he is abt it!!!!! it makes me so so happy seeing him talk abt it, like he just lights up its the best thing ive ever seen. i Love his smile!!!! when his face scrunches up and u can see the little dimples on his cheeks and see all his teeth and he laughs and throws his head back or hits whoever’s closest to him or just collapses thats Good Shit!!!!!!!! im so glad he’s happy enough to be able to smile like that!!!!!!! it makes my heart tingle thinking abt him being happy. he rly is the cutest, i love him nd all his beauty marks :D !! nd no offense but hes never had a bad hair colour/style nd thats the tea on that!

chae hyungwon 2018’s lord nd saviour????????? anyways its about Damn Time i write him a love essay :-((((( having both best friends being hyungwon biased ive secretly been converted 2 a whole chaebebe….their love rubbed off on me!!! i love it :D idk where to start...gosh hes seriously so hardworking????? im soooooo so soo so proud of him!!! icb he picked up djing as a hobby nd then made it to a big festival, is on mix and the city and has released not one but two (2) songs only months later!!!!!!!!! we love a talented man!!!!!!! nd his dancing bichksjdfhsdj hes so fluid nd smooth when he dances…...i always find myself watching him first in group practices like there something rly captivating abt him?? please let him show us more of his dancing its So Good. also hes got the nicest voice…...its so deep wtf...but like its So Calming 2 listen to? especially when hes sleepy nd its extra raspy? Good Shit! and when he sings!!!!!!!! bicshjkdfhksdhj hes got one of my fave vocal voices i rly wish he got the lines he deserves :((( hes! So! Cute! jfhsdjfhs he gets embarrassed so easily and always makes the goofiest faces but i love it….he covers his smile sometimes too :-((( i wish he wouldnt its So Bright nd cute nd warm just like he is!!!! hyungwon’s smile is the 8th wonder of the world thats just the facts folks!

mister jooheon……….the true example of the duality of man. i dont understand how he can go from his scaredy cat self to and Actual God,,,blows my mind. i’m pretty sure i’ve said this at least a hundred times but his stage presence is truly Unreal……..its on a whole other level…….ive never seen them live but if i ever do i fear for my life. nd i know once it’s over im only gonna know one (1) man and that man is lee jooheon. but at the same time hes rly The Cutest id trust him w my life???? his eyes are so warm!!!!!! And his Big Smile!!!!!!!!!!! his dimples? deeper than the marianas trench, i wanna build my home in them nd raise my family there. hes such a talented dude!!!! mx don’t have a single bad song thenks jooheon! also for the first couple months i’d alway forget he was one of the youngest? like hes very mature too nd seems very responsible djfhkjsdhfjsd idk how he was the only one 2 be able to keep it together during their first win 2 give the speech…..hes so strong. i love him so much :-( hes so cute nd gentle nd thoughtful...truly the biggest angel who deserves the world!!!!!!!!!!

i think if there's any member i would actually get along best w it would b changkyun. we’re both rly similar from what i can tell...like sorta quiet, but loud around those we’re comfortable with!!! first off hes so funny nd…..weird but like in a good way sdjfhksdjhf sometimes i rly just think he says the first thing that comes to his mind “actually we have a baby” ????? who let him \…..he always makes me laugh reading his fansign notes too omg that being said hes also one of the most serious members at times i feel like. hes just got this rly mature vibe nd he handles things rly well??? idk if that makes sense but Yeah. he’s just someone who’s not rly afraid 2 be themselves, i wish that were me??? ive got so much to learn from them. also icb he literally invented being cute???? he doesn't even have 2 try hes just adorable!!!!!! like his laugh nd smile? The Best!!!!! and when u can see his lil dimples yeahhhhh hes sooo super sweet and cheesy. i looooove how close hes gotten w the other members despite their rough start, they rly are a family nd im glad hes comfortable around them it rly warms my heart!!!!! whenever hes getting showered in love my heart !!!!!!! its what he deserves!

on that note, the one thing i think that has stayed with me more than anything is that one fansign note where ck was asked how he wants to be remembered in the future, when they only occasionally thought abt him and his answer was “that i gave you happiness” and not 2 b a sentimental shit but fuck! i cry every time i think abt that!!!!!!! bc i Know there’s gonna come a day where i don’t think abt them at all! there’s gonna be a day where i won’t think abt them until i see something that jogs my memory and jolts me back to this time and even tho this year has been rough i know i always will remember how much happiness they’ve brought me. i’ll remember how they were able to cheer me up when nothing else worked. i hope one day i’ll be able to feel the Pure Joy i felt when they got their first win….i’ve never felt anything like that before. i cant wait to be able to look back in nostalgia at all the happiness they’ve brought me.

anyways that got real sappy towards the end i gotta blast now bye!

#dont feel like u gotta read this im just yelling 2 the void djkfhsjdhf #its rly long nd a lot of text but i wanted 2 write something nd it got sorta out of hand #i say 2k later kdjhfsjhfkjsd #long post /#IM SO SORRY IF UR ON MOBILE AND THE READ MORE DOESNT WORK #lu.txt #for those who are wondering why its real ass emobebe hours its bc its my 1 year stanning mx and im a Giant Sap #now im gonna shut up and not talk for the rest of the year ://

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preslawsblog-blog · 5 years

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The best and worst travel

For now im for about 6 months here in Coventry and ive been to Bulgaria only twice. Once for the winter holidays and another time and thats what i wanna discuss now cause my travel was quite interesting although it was a complete tragedy. So befor the winter holidays i doesnt 3 months out of home missing every place, every one of my friends and everithing i was doing with them. From the very beginning i was feeling that im on a camp with other people cause its not like the first time i separate from home. Ive traveled to many different places not only in Bulgaria but in other European and Asian countries mostly because of the many european Championships i had but that i started to miss little by little every little thing about my home cause for me it was like: ok, so till now i knew some people, i better forget about them. I might know some places but i better forget adout them. I might like doing some stuff but for the most of them i better forget. It was like u live one life and they take everithing u know and replace it with sth different. I was aware of everything. But i think that was sth kinda like inner stress cause for example i couldnt sleep properly at some point and i disnt know why i just couldnt fall asleep on time. At the end of the semester before I come back home i was really missing it. I couldn't ever imagine and describe such a feeling ive never had.. In the summer me and my brother made a rap song with a video and it was quite good like the professional once. We had many views and made a couple more and during the end of the first semester we were invited to sing in a club in my city. So i got the offer and i had to take the decision fast cause i didn't have too much money and i wanted to purchase the ticket faster so the its cheaper and for me that was really exiting, i was so happy about it but i wasnt too optimistic about it cause i was having uni at that time and i also wanted to keep my money for songs and videos but what are the songs for if i dont feel the glory for a while and also my friends were so happy about it and they changed my mind. The other reason was the fact that i was really suffering the nostalgia for my home and i knew that ill be very happy to be back home even for a while. So i bought some cheap and early tickets. It definitely was one of my happiest purchasees ever. Than i came back to Bulgaria i had a good time saw all my friends family and most importantly my dogs oh my god i was missing them so much. So yeah i had my good time and than i got back here. The time i was here was fine cause i knew that ill be back soon. I started writing with one girl and i really wanted to meet her so i was waiting impatiently to come back again. So when i was buying my ticket i was looking for the cheapest one and thats why i bought one that allows me to carry one small bag that can fit under my seat. When i was traveling before with my suitcase i was able to but it under my seat so i thought that it would be fine to travel with it. Unfortunately they told me at the airport that its too big and i should pay for it. Honestly i didnt have enough money so i was lucky that i had my backpack in my luggage so i took all i need and put it there and threw the suitcase to the garbage. After that it was all fine i got home late night.next day evening was my concert. And i met many of my friends there and was soo cool they were all cheering me and i was having so much fun up there on the stage and all my friends singing my songs and the other people who didnt knew me were enjoying as well it was a damn good night. Basically i was having plans for absolutely everyday of the week i was there cause i wanted to see most of my close friends but i was having too many hobbies and things that i used to do and i wanted to see my friends from school the friends from the karate club the friends from the hood from the near city from my village my brothers group and many others. I couldnt see all of them of course but 1st day i saw most of them at the club. The second day i spent with the girl i was writing before and than we went out for a club again. The performers were my favourite rap group and i was really enjoying it but i started to feel a bit sick cause it was the 4th day in a row i didnt get enough sleep and on top of that i the next day i should have got up early to go to the near town to see some friends and than their karate club cause i know them very good and they are my good friends. At the end of the day when i took my train back i was really exhausted and that was the time when i got sick. Some friends were inviting me to clubs again and i really wanted to go cause in Bulgaria we are having a few different types of music and every club is playing only one type music but i didnt have enough sleep and i was definitely sick cause at that time the weather was a bit cold similarly to the weather here. The next day i wanted to go to a tournament of one of my favourite games that is held every saturday but it was from too early so i decided that i actually need to rest so that day was a rest day. And eventually in the evening i went out to a bar with a few of my closer friends. Next day i went out with one group of friends that i used to spend a lot of time with the summer but it was fallen apart after i came here to study. Next day i wanted to have a training and meet my friends at my dodjo as well as my trainer. After that i met again with that girl and the bext day i was having a goodbye forever party. Than it was the day when i was about to fly back here. And i missed my flight... My mother drove me to the airport and keft me there. I was like an hour earlier and i was waiting for the flight. Actually i feel so bad right now when i think back what happened. Basically at the end of the corridor there were 2 separated places and at each place there were two gates. My gate was 13. I went to the place where was written "12-14" And for me thats from 12 to 14 so that 12,13 and 14. Than i saw that nobody was there and i started to be worried so i started asking people what should i do. They didn't know and they were confused and actually nobody helped me but loosing my time and i just missed it. I was feeling so embarrassed. I feelt like i just took a shit in my pants. Was so bad and i was stressed worried and omg i cant describe it was like a horror move. Trough my head were flying thoughts like what will happen with the uni cause i cant afford to miss another week and i didnt know wether it will be a week or more and i was about to miss a lot of lectures i was about to waste a lot of money on another ticket and basically i was feeling fucked up. I was stressed cold and i didnt have any Bulgaria money cause i spend them all cause i thought that i wont need them anymore but i had a card with some money so i managed to come back home. It wass a terrible day for me and it was a good thing that my mother wasnt home when i got back cause idk how would i look at her eyes. When she was back here we bought a ticket for the upcoming weekend and it was quite expensive but it seemed that its all better. Next few days i saw some friends and anjoyed them too but i definitely dont think that it was worthed but anyway... There was nothing else i could do but deeply i was feeling so bad and sorry for my mum and about uni cause even one week more was enough to pull me back and when i cane here i was so stressed but eventually i learned to work under stress cause diamonds appear under pressure. It is all over it was a great and terrible travel at the same time theres what to regret and what to be happy abouth. I know that i need to be more careful. I just can't ive always been like that and it costs me a lot but i guess ill just have to live with it.

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love notes #Part2

1/2/2017

Y: Btw did you accidentally said I love you but then realized it when you were hanging up and start mumbling 😂😂😂 or is just “I’ll call you later” with bad reception that’s all 😂😂

P: I said that

P: But in English is shit

P:I prefer it in Italian or Chinese

Y: Hahaha you were cute I was laughing

P: Stellina Mia sleep tight

1/6/17

P: Buona notte stellina

P: Ti bacio sempre P:I’ll fall asleep with your song patata Mia.. It’s now -9 left before my departure. I feel I could fly there with my own wings. Night out was cool but way too cold and now I would need you to transform myself into chimney. I miss you on my skin❤ bacio

1/8/17

P: You can’t imagine how much I wish you were here now..I can’t live those next days that are still dividing us. I would give everything to see you sleeping and sneak under the blanket with you, slowly waking you up whispering and kiss you gently, kiss your wet lips and eat pussy. It’s crazy how much the evening make me homesick of you. Amore mio.

1/9/17

P: I’m safe and sound home in my bed! It’s better to sleep in a bed where I know we slept together before; it’s anyway a step closer to you. Notte baby❤🐽

1/12/17

Y‬: Amore I had such a lovely date with Jennifer, we talked so much and it’s great that she is the only few friends that we really grow alike, in terms of mentality about life. And it made me really happy 😚 we talked about life and love and it’s just great! Made me love life a bit more today

1/13/17

PBuona notte amore🐽🐽🥔 your voice would take me anywhere! I wish I was already there being in the night with you. Ti bacio🐒❤

1/15/17

P: Ti voglio baby

Sleep tight🐽🐽🐽🐽

1/16/17

P: ✈️✈️✈️✈️🛫 its official Today🤘🏽🐣

1/25/17,

P: I’m boarding actually already, I send you all my love lady. You are in my thoughts and heart. Text from plane or later🐒🍆❤👅stay safe on the bus.

Y: Safe flight amore text me later x And glad you are picking up the good habit of getting things done earlier As in boarding and arriving to the airport early 😝 Loads of kisses x See you super duper soon

P: I love your nose Y, eye and sweet voice. I love the way you walk and the perfect decency of your gentle movements. I love everything you do to make me happy and what you say but what I love the most is your spirit, your transcendent, fiery thoughts, your ardent will, your high calling. I believe my soul is naturally attracted to your spirit. To define my love would be limiting it, so I won’t try. For what it’s worth I want to thanks you once again for the amazing time you gifted me in T. I had delicious food, happy company, wonderful sex, everything desirable by any being. I wish all the best to you my love, to the one who never fails to see the brightside in everything, to the one that make my time worth leaving. I’m so grateful to have you in my life and the joy you bring to mine every time we are together. I love everything about you so much, patata mia! Have a beautiful, wonderful week before leaving to your next exciting chapter. I hope you’ll meet kind people who have different, interesting points of view about life. Finally you are free, without regrets, holding dreams high, because you are able of achieving anything you want. Remember to be whoever you want to be anytime. There is no time limit. Start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you’ll always make the best of it. I hope we will see together more things that startle us. I hope you felt, like me, emotions you never felt before. I hope you’ll always live a life you are proud of, and if you’ll ever be not I’m sure you’ll have the courage to start all over agin. Ill be always here to help and support, if you wish. We’ll have the rest of our precious time alive to ketch-up. Never forget me, never grow up for me, ok? I miss you dearly already. I’ll see you soon on our new adventure. With all my heart, your biggest admirer, me P. Ti bacio amore. Wo oi ni. P: Yes I had some time to write… read it later with calm before sleep. Enjoy second dinner patata Y: My love, coming back to this empty room with no clothes left on the floor is a bit sad and empty. I am now lying in the bed and wearing your tshirt. They both still have small smells of sweat and sex that makes me feel as if you are still here. Oh geez, the first night in this bed without is going to be tough, my eyes are bursting into tears once more, and I am sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable when I cried a tiny bit. You made me so happy and emotional in a good way, and I honestly forgot what sadness is until realizing you will be gone. I’m so grateful to have you in my life, and yes I feel something different when I’m with you. Time freezes and my eyes are only on you. I can’t wait to see you soon. I truly wish we will be back again real soon. All the moments wth you feel like a dream. A magical dream. You are beautiful with your soul and kind heart. Have the best time of your life in the new uni I can’t wait to visit you again in ___! And can’t wait until the next time we hold each other tight again, with unlimited dreams we could talk about. Puppies, travel, life and all the knowledgeable things you have taught me. I’m also your admirer. You are the model of having a life that’s free, kind and smart. And I wish to become more like you and also have a bit of more brain like you when doing things. I want to learn more from you and see the worlds through your heart and lens. Until soon we meet again, amore mio.

1/26/17

P: My package is not as fancy and original as yours, very practical and just a little thing to spoilt the princess 🐽 for new adventure Anyway I need to have a date in mind of a plane for when I’ll see you again otherwise I don’t feel comfortable ahah🐒 I hope at least I’m gonna pass out as soon as I’m N tonight

Y: 😳 baby you always spoil me, and I love practical stuff!! I can’t wait And yes, I’m already wondering on the dates to see you soon again.

1/28/17

P: Buona notte patata mia❤🐽 I’ll let you know how it goes for __ I planned the joke perfectly with ___ and yeah maybe I’ll have the candy, depends on how the evening goes..🤙 sleep tight lady, ti bacio tanto🐒 Y: Ciao baby good morning from the other side of the world. I hope you guys have a wonderful night. Ti voglio 👅❤

1/30/17

P: Buona notte pata mia❤ I still have a lot to do tomorrow morning but should be fine. I hope you’ll sleep tight and nothing bad of any sort will disturb little endemic koala from Taipei 🐨! Wish those 44 days could fly away

1/30/17

P: Amore mio you literally made my day with “ready for pompino since 1998” you are super super cute in that picture ahahah little patatina🐽🐽 but who cares baby don’t worry just put them without the box, just the blaster in the shipped suitcase!

1/30/17

P: I miss you soo sooo much right now when the day finishes I won’t just to be with you🐨 I have finished dinner with a huge carbonara pasta and all work now so I’ll just chill tonight and have some food coma in bed now

I wish you the very best luck for your visit and don’t be scared baby, it’s all good, don’t be shy and explain everything to the gyno 🐒 Ti penso tanto stellina, always in my mind🐽🐽👅

1/31/17

P: Amore I hate to hear your voice.. it feels like you are here wispering in my ears but I can’t touch you and kiss you Y: 😞 I know I know dreaming about you since forever especially today P: My little sweetheart is sick and I just wanna go and buy breakfast with croissant and fresh orange juice and some easy light lunch P: I would be your personal diet guy to recover better amore Y: Buy “breakfast” 🐶? Or buy breakfast 🍳?

2/2/17

P: I’m fresh like a flower but tired like a sloth🐒 I think of you all the time dear dumpling because you’re so special to my heart. Tomorrow is your last day and I m sure you packed every little thing super ready to beat the custom with some illegal medicine blasters! Ahaha And yes I finally managed to watch black sails and jeeez the episode stars with the huge battle they prepared for three season .. it’s crazy! I wish you a amazing final brunch and I suggest you to eat like a pig before leaving🐽is your mum ready to see you leaving again?

P: Sleep tight, I miss you so much patata mia. Ti bacio👅🐒

Y: Good morning my sunshine, i woke up super early this morning because I was SO hungry … just like the time I took a nap at yours and woke up from it because I was hungry… 😵 Y: Baby I wanted to tell you on the phone how I realized I am spoiled by you, having you to spare me the time and energy to care for me. Sometimes I’m not good with words, and it truly takes time for me to figure out what I really feel in order to convey my true self. I hope you don’t mind I type it instead of saying it.. anyhow, I thank the universe for bringing you into my life. The thoughts of you as an individual in my life, I feel wonderful and happy for each day ahead. Simply your existence brings happiness to me. Of course there bring some worries that I never had for anyone so strong beside my family. Because I want the people I care to be happy and harmless but any obstacles they encounter. The ideas of even someone hurting you, your dream, reality or yourself, sadness me.

2/4/17

Y:Can’t wait for a proper skype sesh soon. Ti voglio ❤ P: Amore you melt me with that… I’m so happy thanks to your beauty, kindness and high thoughts

2/5/17

P: You are for me a source of inspiration, happiness. When I’m with you my life it’s simply better, much more intense and truly aspiring at something more, different. I believe the feelings we share now are a precious gift, a rare opportunity. As you mention, you conquered a bit of my heart as well therefore I’ll be always hoping the best for you, as much as for a sister but even more avidly since you are lover I can perceive in your fiery and strength in the jottings of your diary. Keep always those writings because one day they might be very valuable for you, like a personal Sputnik romance self edited . I wish I was there that cold and detached night . I wish I was there now, in your bed hugging you before the big day I’m sure you have such an exciting time of your life just ahead . I’ll be there for you if you wish holding you tight because life through your love feels just 10 times better Good luck my love for such a turning point in your life which anyway doesn’t change your dreams and who you are. Have a good one and text me when you can.❤🐽🐽🐽🐒 Ti voglio stellina mia. Un bacio🥔👅 Stay strong

2/12/17

P: Sometimes life gives you those unpredictable events which make every day worth living, hoping, waiting. You are a beautiful gift. You are always in my thoughts and I just can’t get my mind off. Hope you’re sleeping well cause today it’s the big day, right? No worries at all amore mio you’ll do more than fine there. People will appreciate my little patata!! Buona notte tesoro❤🐽🐽🐽

Y: Ciao patata, stellino mio ❤ I’m at the office now, apparently we got amazing breakfast served here, like proper human food, so I guess I can wake up later and have good food

2/13/17

Y: Good night my love, i wish for more happiness, love, and sex to come. And may all the misunderstanding, miscommunication, and small arguments to not become burden between us. No walls may become our barriers. Wishing only those three elements of life that I praise the most could surround us to be happier than we could have ever imagine. I do not wish for you to get hurt, and want everything to be perfect. May young love be imprinted in our hearts. Buona notte, my stellino.💫🌈🦄💓💜💙🙈

P: Amore you are always able to warm up my heart writing such beautiful thoughts. I’m thrilled about us, and what’s coming for us. I want to keep living through this love. To the best my love, for us. Sleep tight patata mia. 🐽🐽❤🐒rock tomorrow 🐨

2/14/17

P: Tonight you gave me some lessons about love. I wish I could feel for my entire life inspired by a dream of love such as the one you are making me feel tonight. The love I feel for you it’s the same every day, since a while. I cant stop watching the video and think how beautiful you are. How you make me happy with your unpredictable beauty. Don’t stop. You are my happiness everyday and I really cant wait to fagocitate you in Instambul. I have no more words to explain how enjoyable you, my love, make my life every single day . You are special and you make me feel special. I hope you feel beloved as much as I feel lucky those days. You have conquered my heart. I’ll always keep this video very tight for any moment of difficulties this would be the source of my strength, the source to find energy to any problem, because if you love and you’re loved… the world out there can never be bad nor scary. Lots of kisses to my princess which I cant wait to fuck like a…and I let you finish our saying.

Good night patata, always yours, P.

ps: happy san valentines

P: I just watched the video again amore..❤ I’ll try my best to protect our fresh dream of love in ecstasy for us. 🐽🐽🐽buona notte stellina . Ti bacio

2/15/17

P: I miss you every moment. My mind, soul and mouth is full of you. I would always recall you in any situation dreaming you were there with me. What I feel for you it’s something I’m very proud of. I want to have sex with you so badly, and touch your hairs again.

Wish tonight we were together her in N red light room or anywhere else but together . Sweet dreams my love. Good luck with presentation tomorrow, I’m sure you’ll rock ..smoothly hitting first week target. Ti penso

2/17/17

P: There are some people in this world who you can just miss, miss and miss no matter what. I can’t get enough of you. Buona notte golden mouth 👄. Tomorrow I walk up kind of early and leave to fine some powder

2/18/17

Y: Amore I was just looking through some old photos, and nostalgic feels came upon. I really miss the chillax life, meeting different people from everywhere, go to techno clubs, seeing dirty graffitis, people drinking and having appetizers or tapas, doing drugs, or smoke up.

That feeling, so strong!!!🦄💓🌈

I don’t think I can live like this for long. Being in a desert and malls and commercial clubs 🐷🦅👉🏽😵

P: No worries amore, it’s just a transitional period that will open you many locked doors, you are always welcome in my place wherever I’ll be: food, weed, and a bed.. if you wish sex as well are provided. I can’t offer more now, but you’ll always be welcome

I can understand your feeling and I wish you can achieve to do what makes you feel the best, I’ll help if I can

I miss you sooo much chica mia❤

P: Come and eat tapas with me, sex, reading, working, nature, travelling and everything all over again in the order you prefer

Live life with me

Y: How it would be my dream

I feel like I can have so many personalities and lifestyles, but it always comedown to being just a kinda hipster wannabe girl, living in downtown manhattan, Berlin, east London, or the sunshine barca 😂 And being in D makes me really missing the life of having choices of living some days as a professional, somedays as an arty girl and some days as a druggie. Growing up sucks 🙈😵

2/20/17

P:I wish you dream about one of our adventures because I really hope that will happen to me. I miss my patata every day, any time. Goodnight my love, be strong tomorrow at work❤🐒🐽

Y: Amore I’m going to bed now. I’m grateful again for having you in my life. You sparkle the dullness of my life. Making everything shine with glitter. And I’m the unicorn that loves strawberry ice cream. I’m so lucky to have you ❤🌈 I give you all my kisses and hugs and love 💓

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2/21/17

Y: Ahh baby every time when I think of you I get all excited heart bumping and all…. but also your existence in my mind soothe my soul… Amazing Buona notte my patata

2/22/17

Y: Amor mio, amor mio I miss every little thing about you on, inside me

P: Thank a lot for being that strong to keep this relationship so tight I couldn’t make it without you supporting me I misss you deep inside me. Buona notte, ti bacio

2/25/17

P: Patata I could spend my life in this sweet surrender with you. And just stay here lost in this moment forever. Truly missing you here in the alps, I hope the the desert is your dear friend darling. I dream about our meeting in Istanbul, as always will feel unreal, too paradisiac to be real I wanna see you soon amore mio, ti bacio cucciola mia.🐽❤🐒

2/26/17

Y: My love, I would say that you wouldn’t understand how sad I am to be away from you and how my heart always aches when i remember you are not physically here with me. But I somehow still thinks you do understand how that feels and maybe feel something similar as I do. I often think and back and forth about us and what a magical being you are. I honestly don’t know what I did to deserve you. You are so beautiful inside, out. And I have never feel more comfortable to say it out loud how amazing about a guy before, and with you I don’t even hold myself back a second to stop and praise your beauty. Do you remember that dreamy feeling we had when we were in T? Sometimes I even think everything is a dream, that if one day I woke up everything never existed, and the thought of it breaks my heart… I just want to tell you how grateful I am to have you. And wish a bright future for us, individually and a pair as partners in crime .. 🦄😈❤ Have an amazing night! Un bacione, cucciolo mio ❤

P: Amore mio, I can’t live without you.. because love is your religion and your practice kindness. I couldn’t ask for a better attitude towards life. I feel so special next to you and I hope you I make you feel special in the same lovely way. I can’t ask for better and you made one of the most crazy moment of my life .. one of the best. I always think our fairytale can’t be completely true, that’s why a Mis believer like men need Istambul to touch your reality. You’ll always have in me a brother, a friend, a lover a huge admirer for the beauty you express with your existence. Do not ever stop your self in telling me something, good or bad, whatever I want us to be fully transparent . I miss you deeply.. We are drinking now and actually in the end we moved everything to geneve, I’ll let you know how stuff goes here. Hope you’re having sweet dreams about puppies licking your face while I give you an amazing pussy pompino, let’s keep our dream in paradise. Un bacio patatozzz mia❤🐽🐒

2/27/17

Y: Have a lovely dream, un bacione to 17days left x

P: Is it more fair to love carnally and get separate at some point or to love someone’s soul and cherish time forever after?The answer fluctuates in the dust of the desert.. but I believe with you somehow the two elements glued up together giving me a sweet aftertaste of chaotic love every moment. Good night patatoz🐽❤🐒 un bacio

Y: Your words swept my feet this morning. I read it while half asleep and closed my eyes to imagine yours and ours existence all together. It’s beautiful. I wish you have a beautiful day to start this week 🍑🍓 love you dearly

2/28/17

P: Amore mio, I must say I usually don’t like science fiction movies but this one has a great story and I loved it. Apparently every single thing you touch, see, smell its gold to my eyes and trough your being I fell in love with everything❤🐒 don’t stop me loving life that much. Un bacio patata, have a great morning🐽🐽

3/2/17

Y: I miss you dearly🌸 thank you for being such a wonderful being in my life. Your wisdom of life always draws my whole attention, and I think about you always and every second. This feeling is amazing. Un bacione, my soccer ⚽️boy.

P: Buona notte amore mio. You are my source of energy and happiness every day. Let’s nurture our souls with this amazing bubble of love we managed to create. I love that feeling as well. I hope your dreaming of corto and bocca d'orata and wish a wonderful day tomorrow for my miracle worker Y❤🐽🐒

3/3/17

P: You didn’t ruin my mood at all, I need to understand that sometimes I can’t make you happy just because of the distance and it’s no Ines fault. Sorry if I wanted to push your mood, sadness sometimes is a noble sentiment. My fault last night in pushing you

3/4/17

P: I want to see you very soon my patata 🐒❤

I hope to find of you later in my dream during this night of sleep

Ti bacio🐽🐽

3/5/17

Y: Dear my love, every time when we talk I feel like I’m more attracted to you then before. You always seem to amaze. How extraordinary is this! Thank you for always teaching me how to dream, you are so beautiful like this. Maybe one day soon enough we would be physically close enough. And I can’t wait for that day to come。Coming home after a long day, seeing each other. We can cook dinner or sometimes we can be lazy and order food. Watch a movie or read a book whilst having some tea. Snuggle and sex and then snuggle again before bed. Waking up next to each other and kissing one another till one of us wakes up. Good night my love, I wish tonight I can have a dream like we wished. Un bacione my masterpiece of life

P: I want to explore your soul just as much I wanna discover the beauty of the world out there. Why not exploring both at the same time and together? Pushing our limits, helping each other to reach the edge, dreaming, living fast and taking care of the other with that amount of fresh sweetness? I hope we can leave this dream forever . I miss you from the bottom of my heart to the very top of my skin. You are the soul I’ve been waiting quite long for. Un bacio patata mia❤🐽 I wish you an amazing start of the week,.. can’t wait.. to see ya in the baccckkakkaakkalava country🐒

3/7/17

P: My love, my pussy patata I hope you’re sleeping like an angel and dreaming strawberry 🍓 ’s field. I send you all my love🐽🐽🐽yours dumb, broke young P. Miss you deeply

Y: Ok good night amore ❤ now I’m the one whose excited!! Can’t believe klock is coming, I really wish I can find some one to go with me then. If not…. I’ll wear my cap and go there myself 🙈

But anyways, amore can’t wait to see you next week! Super soon, for me this week is almost the end. And I’m sure next week it will be fast too. Buona notte amore mio, I give you the best of luck for midterm tomorrow. Kisses from boca dorata 👄🌙

3/8/17

P: Baby go even alone but I’m sure you’ll manage to find some nice people to go with.. and even if, the atmosphere it’s going to be cool anyway, ergo worth going.

My potato with the cap can conquer the entire world I’m confident ❤🐽 buona notte amore mio, I can’t believe, I can’t even imagine touching you🐒

3/9/17

P: Amore mio I’m in bed and I miss you dearly. Living with you in Taipei was simply amazing and I miss it right now; the smell of the bodies, the sweet crunchy strawberry 🍓 and you sweetest thing🐒❤ buona notte bocca d'orata

Y: Ciao amore mio ❤ good morning! I miss you too, I can’t wait to see you in 7 days, where all of our senses can rejuvenate to our love once again. Un bacione my dearest. And have a wonderful wonderful day!

3/10/17

Y: Dear my love, I never thought that i would fall into tears for missing someone so much. I realized that sometimes people do love too much, more than they could handle. But it’s this bittersweetness that made me realize how strong you are and how much I want to be better for you and with you. I never liked to face crisis or difficult timings with others, because I feel like it’s the most fragile phase that I would ever reveal to people about myself. So I would rather go into my little world and deal things in my own way, that is for example today I spent the whole day looking for alternative ways for us to see each other, just to make myself feel better. And it’s stupid, because it’s selfish of me to think that I’m the only one who is upset, because I’m sure you are too. But anyhow, I just wanted to tell you, thank you for being so strong, for me, you are perfect. There’s nothing I want to change about you. Sometimes I feel like we live in a parallel world of murakamis creation. when we are together, i don’t notice anything around us. It’s a whole new world dimension. And when we are apart, it feels that our souls are so close yet so far. For me, this love is so strong that I have never felt this way before, and it truly frightens me from time to time. But then again, thank you for everything and for being a part of my life and a part of me..❤

P: Trust me amore, that I would like to cry my sadness out as well for not being next to you. It’s just another way of reacting to the same feeling.. I don’t cry.. but I share the same pain, the same fear of loosing you because of distance. I’m terrified at the thought of loosing you and being in this grey world without my one and only source of colour, energy, sunshine.

I’m not perfect and you’ll discover that very soon but I hope you’ll accept the full package together with my disadvantages as well. I’ll try my best to be always perfect for you and at your eyes..! You are for me a dream. Remember always you are an independent strong woman and I’m so proud of being in your life. Sorry for my poor wording but I just woke up

P: Just remember that I’m always here for you… I would do anything for you

3/12/17

Y: Good night my love, hope I dream about you tonight going to galleries with me again.

P: Dear patata, I love the way you elaborate your thoughts on the things you’ve seen during day. Today was an art scene.. but always your analysis are enlightening and somehow deep but fresh. I don’t know if it’s my love for you that makes you so shiny informer of my eyes or you’re just such a precious being. Don’t question your self too much on what you’re going to be in 5 years because everyday something crazy like having sex with a pot head in N.. and you find you’re self with him in taipei a month after.. ! Keep dreaming because the best things happen while you are programming, in between bites of time.

This said, I probably can’t even understand how strong you must be in this first period of assessment in a new environment, without the freedom you were used to. Remember always I’m here, as a tool, as a friend, as a lover as a sex toy.. simply at your disposal for our mutual happiness. I send you my love and wish you a good beginning of the week before finally cuddle you in my arms❤🐽! Un bacio patata🐒

3/14/17

Y: Good night patata Un bacione for my perfect lover and Sputnik And also, thank you for always being so intelligent, intellectually and emotionally. Whether it is me nagging about my life in D or frustration toward things, you are always the most patient, patata. And your calmness brings me back to reality with a greater insight on life, that is to live in the moment. I’m grateful of you and I’m grateful of wherever I am now. Your existence often reminds me of that and thank you. Focus tomorrow and I give you all my love, luck and kisses 🌸

P: Amore mio, I just checked the flights for Iceland and the best is to go through London they have nine flights a dayiceland For Iceland * You make me feel like a king amore mio and I don’t know if why the gods gifted me with you I’ll wake up early early tomorrow to be fresh and revise before exams Thank you for sharing all this love with me❤🐒 I’ll be always here for you Good night my pata I’ll be fhw happiest kid on earthrhursdaay night 🐣👌🏿

3/16/17

P: Baby sleep well tonight because tomorrow we are going to sleep even better. I loved you with glasses, list like me the grandpa. I’m sure both our trips will just go smooth. I’ll see you in Istambul amore. All my love patata ❤

3/19/17

P: Sleeping in this bed alone.. after those two nights.. is incredibly lonely. Hope your travel back is not to bad amore mio. You are so strong and Hopefully you’ll get some kind of rest on the plane. Text me when you land my love. Thanks for the amazing time in Istanbul ❤🐒

Y: Ciao my love. I just landed, the whole journey was fine after all, although in the Middle I thought I was going to die… again…. the turbulence was so strong especially in a small flight … I hope you had a fun night with zey and aykan. And hope you did sleep well tonight, although I might be lonely, I hope you managed. Especially without me being there to bother you. I slept the whole way through but still tired… hoping to get some sleep on the taxi. I miss you already, as usual, this weekend seems like a dream once again. A beautiful one, thank you 🌙❤️🌸

P: I had an awful nightmare and just woke up all of a sudden. For sure because you are not here

3/22/17

P: amore mio I don’t know what’s wrong but I can’t download your audio properly. I miss you every second of the day and you’re always in my thoughts

https://youtu.be/vIYRbbHMesg

For you patata

Goodnight stellina ti bacio tanto

Y: Ciao amore I woke up listening to the song and then fell asleep again But then I started listen to john legend song from Lala land I hope you had a good night sleep I give you all my kisses Missing you dearly once again

3/26/17

P:I wish you a smooth day at the office today, you really deserve some appreciation, so please, if they don’t give you enough satisfaction just feel just because I could really see how much effort you dedicated to your job this weekend. Anyhow, beside this remark I truly miss you deeply and I have no more words in my repertory to express gratitude to the fate gifting me with such a rare bird. Patata mia you are a mirage, a miracle to my eyes. Please don’t stop❤🐒🐽 wish you were here now in this blue bed with me snuggling because it’s only trough you that I feel alive. Ti bacio sempre.

Y: Grazie amore you are the best. Being a mirage might disappear, I don’t wanna disappear with you, my rare bird. Have a nice day my love! Text me when u wake up

3/28/17

P: Amore mio I see you everywhere during my day, anything would evoke your figure or recall your name. That’s maybe one of the faces of my love for you. I dream of you. Good night my love. Always yours❤🐒

Y: Ciao amore mio 😂 ❤❤❤

3/29/17

P: Amore mio I would love to start waking up next to each other very soon. How amazing would it be if we’d work in the same

Place for a couple or more of years and after not to trough away our best years we go for a long road trip till we run out of budget..right now I would love this scenario. Hunting life with you. Enjoy your yoga session patata mia❤🐒

3/31/17

P: Im thrilled thinking about us, always. I think a lot about you, actually most of the time. Everything evokes something about you, your always around me and this is one of the sweetest tastes of love. I want not only to see you everywhere but I hope one day I’ll touch you, sniff you everywhere anytime I wish. Tomorrow it’s gonna be fine patata, do not be to frightened. I wish I could be there making you a bit stronger. I miss you dearly. Let’s discover new parts of our selfs together, never growing apart, shaping the future together. Gods night my pussy patata🐽❤🐒ti bacio

4/2/17

P: Good night my love, all the words I’ve written are still all true and I wish all my following days to be so full of love. ❤🐽🐒

Ti bacio

4/4/17

P:Tesoro, i really want to be there and pamper you under the sheets. I know you’re strong enough to solve al the difficulties you’re now finding on the way. Rise and shine patata mia, because soon a new adventurous dream is coming to visit🐒🐽❤ti bacio

Y: You are the most wonderful being after two months of complaining you are still here. Not that same anymore… but you are still here ❤ I love you

P: I would have never believe to feel this love. I’m glad I’ve met you. Have a lovely sleep my patatoz ❤🐽

I love you too 🐒

4/5/17

Y: Good night amore, I love to feel the love of loving you everyday. Thank you for being here, being you, and being in love with me. Un bacione my love

4/6/17

P: Finding a path in this world with you at my side is something I really enjoy everyday, even with struggle this love is bringing so much positivity and happiness in my life. I am sure its because it’s strong, I like to think so. I love you amore, good night 🐒❤🐽

4/8/17

Y: Ciao baby, I hope dinner was ok and grandma was feeling great ! I’m about to go to sleep, walked SO much today! And tomorrow is the big day !! Finally feeling that I can feel relieved Y: Baby I was also thinking how lucky I am to find you and to fall in love with you. How magical it is that it’s you. Good night my love un bacione ❤️

P: Going to grandma now I’ll text when home amore Amore mio im back home In my lovely room finally. I had a great great dinner and managed to kiss grandma after the surgery. She is fine and everything will be smooth shortly. I can’t stop of thinking about you in any action I pursue during my day, and our shared dreams is what makes me feel complete, full of life. Thanks for looking at the future with me, let’s keep this attitude patata. Anyway after a long period I think I found the book I would like is to read together: “The Dangerous Lives of Altar Boys” written by Chris Fuhrman. I bought one copy today in Verona for my self. Let me know if you’d join me in this adventurous reading. Tomorrow morning I will get up early to help my dad at the apple farm.. he has, as usual, new variety of apple tree he wanna plant. Wish you were here.. hope one day we will make sex in my teenage bed. Ti bacio❤🐒🐽🐽🐽🐽 Ps: let me know all the procedure tomorrow amore, good luck, more than sure it’s gonna be alright

Y: Amore mio, thank you so much for thinking about me even whilst working. I’m stronger when my thoughts are thinking about you. We are both achieving where we want to go somehow even far a part, but I know soon one day, we will be right next to each other. Soon will only be 10 more days until I see you once more. ❤ Good night my love. I was also staring at your eyes today, and I want to tell you that you have amazing eyes I love you 🌸

4/9/17

P:Amore mio I hope my golden mouth is feeling wealth. I really need you with me. Don’t wanna my bocca d'orata do be anyhow hurt….. Everytime in T is the same story, I feel you are my only home and I hope to be yours as well, otherwise please feel welcome to enter the door. Ti bacio tanto amore, I wanna have your lips on mine now. Wish you a smooth working day with no struggle. ❤❤🐽🐽🐽🐽🐽🐒i love you

Y: Amore mio, good night I wish a lovely night with no nightmare. I want my soul to be guarding you, your dream, and your soul tonight. I love you from the moon and back ❤ un bacione

4/10/16

P:You remain my professor in matter of love as always patata mia. I wish I could dream of you every night to compensate what I miss during the day. I love you so much, possibly as I never did with anyone else before. Can’t believe our story is real if I try to put all the pieces together. Ti bacio bocca d'orata🐒❤🐽

4/11/17

P: Good night my love only few days separate us and hopefully I’ll manage to see you every month. I love you and can’t wait to see my patata❤🐽🐒 don’t wake up in the powder bocca d'orata. Ti bacio amore Kiss me always🐣 I like how you act everyday

4/12/17

P: Amore Juventus won 3-0! It is an amazing and historical night for a supporter. I hope my patata is sleeping like a baby, because I would love to be sneaking under the sheets with you now and hug you gently. Tomorrow, just like you I’m going to the dentist for a check up. Ti bacio tanto amore mio.❤🐽wait for me in D if you can..I’m coming.

4/13/17

Y: Baby Have fun tonight Bouncing to bed!! Un bacione. Text me as always later, my love ❤

P: Amore mio the film is amazing You must watch this he name of the movie is: in between Not amazing but quite nice Buona notte patata ❤ i love you deeply and those days back in the provincial attitude reminds me harshly how lucky am to have you along my path. I have still high fever of our love and couldn’t live without it every day. You give me the energy and the happiness I need. Start your day with a smile, and I’ll kiss you soon. Ti bacio tanto patata 🐽❤🐒

4/14/17

Y: i ruff you

P: Amore I love you riffing me Amore mio, I wonna hide with you away from everyone and everything forever. Let’s take a puppy with us and fly away from this social prison imposing us standards and requirements . I want to live my love for you without boundaries ! I wish you all the best love in your life. Whatever it will take to me, I’ll always think if you of something pure, lovely. Ti bacio stellina mia.❤🐒🐽🐽🐽🐽

4/16/17

Y: Baby anything related to you I would love it Text me when you are going to sleep as always And baby I can’t wait for you to take me and explore the wonderful town of where you grew up Un bacione I love you from S to T to D and back !❤

P: Amore you are the hardest worker I’ve ever seen. I’m sure your effort will be rewarded and if not, you just invent a very useful tool for your self, when working. I think you deserve some days off and I hope to be a good distraction next weekend, can’t wait to be back in the road somewhere with you, feeling home touching your hand. I love you, buona notte. ❤🐽🐒

Y: Patattaasorry babyi ruff you

4/17/17

P: Amore mio i ruff all of you from the lovely lips to shiny eyes and smooth skin. I miss all of you and I can’t understand why the only person I would spend happily my time with isn’t next to me. I love you and I send you a gentle kiss. I wanna wake up with you. Buona notte snore mio❤🐽🐒 Have a good one at work

4/18/17

P Amore❤🐽 few more steps and I’ll be there. Love is cruel making us living so far but my love for you is strong at least as the difficulties encountered . Sleep well and have adventurous dreams ! -2 amore 🐒ti bacio

4/19/17

P: Buona notte amore mio❤🐽I just wanna see you, can’t wait any longer . Thanks for saving the situation as always . I see you working hard and getting things settled always smoothly, I’m not humble in saying : you are an inspiration. Ti bacio🐒 Ps: I’m still patata number one ad honorem causa😜

4/24/17

P: ❤❤ patata hope you’re not too tired You are so strong and brave. I’m here in the room, smelling our sec our love, I’m a pussy and I want to cry because I miss you too much after only few hours. I thank you for the strong life you make me feel in my body. You make me see the light. Have a great day patata, work hard, I’ll be waiting for you

Y: Ciao patata, thank you for writing this. Did you miss writing me love notes everyday? I miss you so much, hope you are not having fun all by yourself. I am pretty sure I can leave early today

4/25/17

Y: Thank you once again for another amazing adventure P:I’ll text when I board, ho back to sleep my miracle worker🐽🐒🌹

P:You are my only adventure

Y: Baby I just uploaded my 1000th photo on Instagram!!

Y: Ciao patatatata

I miss you already

P: Amore mio, I miss you deeply and tonight sleeping here on the floor in the sleeping bag, thinking I was in bed with you only 24 h ago seems to be impossible! Jerome told me that I can be back on Saturday afternoon so I’m sure happy and I miss talking freely on skype🐽🐽I love you ❤ good night my patata . O and D will always remember as another amazing dream with you..actually lovely stay at the beach with you that day. Ti bacio

4/26/17

Y: Honey, good night. Don’t think too much. Trust me, things are never that bad. We will go through this together for the next couple of months. I always tell myself everything happens for a reason, we missed the opportunity to go to a good school because at that moment we believed in something else. I missed my chances of going to my dream job, but then I believe life experience brings much more. Perhaps you can take a deep breath just focus on your current difficulties, studies, and spending some time thinking about me…😜 but really think about what you want to do. Business? Sustainability industry? Business is so broad too, some times you are interested in certain courses but in real life you wouldn’t want to do that for years, and vice versa, so unless you have hands on experience always leave your door open. Every kids with an ok or good family background can gain a master nowadays, it all comes down to what you can offer on the table. A degree proving you learnt some theoretical stuff doesn’t make you more appealing. Leverage your competitiveness from your background and professional experience that’s how so-so school graduates students thrive! You have a gift and strong interest try and find a way to leverage that, because passion is what’s lacking these days in our generation and recruiters can really feel the differences. Anyhow, let’s face this together, if corporate world is not what you seek for perhaps there’s no need to give yourself too much stress on getting into a good master straight away. We are also living in an exciting world, where smart people are building great startups! I love you. Have a good night ❤

4/27/17

P: Right now, in this cold night on a hard floor to sleep on, you made me feel home. Safe. Embraced by the love of an amazing girl that can act simply good every day, to me and to all others around her. I love you. I know you have so much positive contribute to spend on this planet that everyone should thank the gods to people like you do be alive. I’m great to have you on my side and we will go trough everything facing together everyday sadness and joy. I can live with you the bitter taste of life with a smile on my face. This being said I think in your current company or wherever you’ll be in the future, the passion for life you have, as you wisely said, will take you trough meaningful experiences which will get where you wanted, or better were you belonged. I belong to you and I’ll never stop believing in my patata. Believing In us. Wake up and go around to shine, my love.

P: Thanks for the advices, I’ll think about my passion and clear up where to spend best my thrive. I want be there kissing your front head and spending time with you. Anyway As you said, I have a gift and it’s you…and your pussy❤🐽I wish you were here and can’t wait to have good Skype with you. Ti bacio amore mio.

4/28/17

P: Amore im at M’s having dinner and than I’ll sleep either here or.. yeah probably here hiding from the old lady. I’m not usually a person that worries a lot but I just want to be sure you’re safe so plz just pop me a message when you can to make sure patata is fine, don’t need to say nothing just let me know you’re safe later

4/30/17

P: Amore mio, having your attentions every day is a gift for me . I feel so special because of our love and I thank nature for bumping into you. I hope pussy patata is dreaming sweeet-wet dreams🙊 we wired M’s friend and she ate something here! I’ll wake up tomorrow and stay in working on accounting and finance! Kiss for my love and have a great start of the week❤🐒I love you

Y: Ciao pat pat Good morning. Thank you for all the kindness and giving me love. Good luck studying tomorrow. Kisses for you too my love ❤

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ALL THE QUESTIONS

WHOAAAAA ok here we go!

1. Would you have sex with the last person you texted?

No i am not really into orgies… i imagine they are quite confusing. (It was a group chat)

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

No, we don’t talk anymore.

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

it’s important for me but i am big on the oversharing! so i tendt to trust people easily and then later regret having told them stuff

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

i don’t really like anyone right noww, sadly. A crush can be fun

6. What are you excited for?

Going abroad to Dublin for a half a year! although i still need a place and i will leave in septemeber

7. What happened tonight?

not much yet, i woke up quite late and since then i procrastinated the shit out of the day!

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

No! my main thought would be to look out for them, because being a wasted girl can be fucking dangerous and if it happens more often i may ask them if there is something that i can help them with, you know if there is an alternative motive then just enjoying oneself! And if she likes loosing control like that, than that’s fine, who am i to judge her?

9. Is confidence cute?

yes! i think confidence is attractive and cute and i don’t like the way women are told it’s not cute. And that a confident woman is a slut or a bitch or conceited. As long as that confidence doesn’t make you look down on other people its good. It is also ok to be shy. Basically what i am saying is you do you and you are perfect and good and cute regardless of confident or shy

10. What is the last beverage you had?

coca cola

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

yes

13. What are you gonna do saturday night?

going out to eat with my mum and talk.

14. What are you gonna spend money on next?

groceries ( i know very unspectacular)

15. are you going out with the last person you kissed?

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Yes, i hope so! i hope i can work out that issue i have and just move past it and go strong into my semester abroad. (i also belive in constant growth, soo yeah everyone changes in 3 months)

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about everything?

My mum and best friend!

18. The last time you felt broken?

Puhhh a few months back i uncovered something quite dark and i am not done with it, so i still feel broken sometimes when i look at it. (sorry for being so cryptic but i am not ready yet to go public with that)

19 Have you had sex today?

nope

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

yes, that i am stronger than i think and i can survive this.

21 Are you in a good mood?

Generally yeah, but a bit stressed and anxious due to the paper i need to write

22 Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

No i don’t think so, i am a real big chicken and am fucking afraid of sharks, which is a unreasoned fear, and i love to educate myself about sharks and stuff and i am fro their rescue and saftey, but i don’ want to SWIM with them, maybe look at them from a boat!

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

no, i have the eyes from my mum

24. What do you want right this second?

Being done with this semester, especially that dreadful paper!

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another person?

That depends, if it would be emotional ‘cheating’ not cool, i would get out of that relationship. But if it happened while intoxicated or something then it would be a wake up call to address the issue that was the reason of that happening. I believe love is not something that just stays you do need to work on it and commit and not run away when confronted with difficulties.

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair?

Kinda. Its blond but the ends are lighter. I will go cotton candy pink in the summer though.

27. Would you be able to date somebody who wouldn’t make you laugh?

No, what would you do? just talk about deep stuff ALL the time? no i need somebody i can have fun with as well as deep conversations etc.

28.What was the last thing that made you laugh?

I can’t really remember, something some of my friends said and the last night of the festival. we laughed so much, which was nice bc at that point i was a bit annoyed by everything and that was just a wonderful break of that and a wonderful ending to an exciting weekend

29. Do you really,truly miss someone right now?

I always miss my mum and dad and my tight knit friend group at home. I miss the spontaneity to meet up or the nights of conversation on the balcony or couch with my mum after i return from work or a party or something.

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

I think so! i believe humans are in general inherently good. But it should only be a second chance. When it comes to relationship i think thats especially important, as you also need to look out for yourself. And concerning prisons for example the second chance should be a REAL second chance, and not be designed for the inmates to fail at rehabilitation.

31. Honestley do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

No, not at all! quite the contrary, he is a sweetheart! Also if i hate someone (which also is quite the strong word) i would keep talking to them.

32. Doesn’t apply, i do not have a person i like right now

33. Are you one of those people who never drink soda?

no, i once regularly drank cola, like every night. Those were the good days when i could still afford them :P

34. Listening to?

Imagine dragons-gold

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

I normally prefer to write in pencil

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

No i only believe in attraction at first sight! love, in my opinion, is something that develops over time.

38. Who did you last call?

My mum, yesterday, although technically she called me but i can’t remember beyond that.

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

a friend of mine at the festival

40. Why did you kissed the last person you kissed?

because it was summer, i was in L.A. and felt adventurous (he wasn’t the best kisser, tho, so disappointment there)

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

Way too long ago :(

42. Did you hug/kiss any of your parents today?

sadly no beacuase i live in the netherlands and they are in germany.

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of your crush?

I can’t remember a specific thing, but who doesn’t?

44. Do you tan in the nude?

I don’t tan ind general, i am the whitest white person, i get sunburned after like 5 min in the sun….

45. If you could would you take back your last kiss?

Hmm, i normally would nevre take something back that i’ve done (that didn’t hurt somebody else) bc i believe all those things shaped me into the person i am today, but i may take the kiss and give it to somebody else that i met just days later. He deserved that kiss so much more

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep tonight?

no, i was alone and i loved it

47. Who was the last person to call you?

my mum

48. Do you sing in the shower?

Do you pee on the toilet? YES of course i do, a shower with out a private concert is not a shower its just sad

49 do you dance in the car?

Again WHO doesn’t? my moves are the greatest joy on a car ride! my mum and me had the best dance sessions while waiting for a green light!

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

Yes and it was sooo long ago, at least 10 years! It was at a class trip and extreme fun.

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

technically i can’t remember, but last year a friend of mine who is a photographer came on a roadtrip with me and also took some photos of myself. Does that count?

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

There are cheesy musicals for sure, but Hamilton was fucking amazing and i would call it cheesy. In general i enjoy musicals, cheesy or not

53. Is chrismas stressfull?

it can be, but i still love it and once everyone is sitting around the table and ate its the relaxing and fun and nice to have everyone around

54. Ever ate a pierogi?

No but maybe tis will change now that i have a teeny tiny polish cousin

55. Fav type of fruit pie?

Apple

56. Occupations you wanted to be when a kid?

The usual, doctors but after discovering i would need to put down animals and see blood i very quickly diverted my interest into becoming a flight attendant just like my dad.

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

58. Ever have a deja-vu feeling?

waaaaay too often! when i wrote this i had one… and they range from very specific to rather unspecific, like just a feeling

59. Take a vitamine daily?

i try and that reminds me…

60. Wear slippers?

since i moved out, yes. because students aren’t the tidiest

61. Wear a bathrope?

nope

62. What do you wear to bed?

shirt and undies

63. First concert?

Anastacia with my dad

64. Wal-mart, target or k-mart?

i think wal-mart. but target is not bad either

65. Nike or adidas?

neither, converse

66. Cheetos or frietos?

no idea what frietos, so neither?

67. Peanuts or sunflower seeds?

both

68. Fav taylor swift song?

puhhh, 22? i am not sure actually

69. Ever taken dance lessons?

Yes, i started with ballet and then moved on to videodancing. So i danced since i was 8 or 9. i also did a stint in traditional stuff like waltz and stuff but that did not last long. and i tried out some dance lessons when i moved away to uni

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

71 Can you curl your tongue?

yes

73 Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

yes! for example when i cam back from my half a year abroad in australia and my best friends picked me up and had a banner and everything.

74 What is your fav book?

so many…. Harry potter and dash and lily’s book of dares are the ones that come to my mind spontaneously but a lot more have shaped my life in significant ways and would be counted as my favs

75 Do you study better with or without music?

Depends on the topic

76 Regularly burn incense?

77 Ever been in love?

yes, once

78 Who would you like to see in concert?

Imagine dragons, again! they are just so fucking amazing live and in my eyes even better than on their albums. Lorde i would also like to see again. but mainly imagine dragons right now. Oh and young the giant

79. What was the last concert you saw?

Casper (a german rapper) who closed the hurricane festival on sunday.

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

middle ground but leaning towards cold

81 Tea or coffe?

tea

82 Fav type of cookie?

fresh subways cookies

83 Can you swim well?

i think so? I never thought about it… but i guess i don’t drown so i cant be that bad

84 Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

yes

85 Are you patient?

i like to believe i am, most of the time

86 DJ or band at a wedding?

i don’t know, i guess dj then you can request stuff and there is no time limit for the music?

87 Ever won a contest?

i don’t think so

88 Ever has plastic surgery?

89 Which are better black or green olives?

none, i hate olives

90 Opinions of sex before marriage?

Yes, do it if you want and feel comfortable with it, but i won’t judge you if you choose otherwise as long as you don’t judge other people or try to push your believes on them i am fine with whatever.

91 Best room for a fireplace?

from the top of my head i would have said living room but i think it could also be cool in the bedroom

92 Do you want to get married?

if i meet the right guy and it feels right, then why not

Puhh that was ALOT!

your turn :D ALL TE QUESTIONS

#question time

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a short week

I know this is the first thing that i post after last Wednesday and i know that i said that i will keep posting stuff and work but although i didn't it doesn't mean that i didn't attempt to i guess it still counts as sth lets say half point. Basically i started writing the next day but i got interrupted so i saved all i had written in a draft so that next time i start writing i can keep it from where i was. Untill now all my posts were directly written in tumblr so excuse me if sth is not correct but im not doing this anymore probably. So after i got back to work and finnished my post i posted it and idk why but the only thing that appeared on my wall was the first draft that i saved and the rest was gone. Like two days after i wrote it all over again and even more it was like 1500 words and after i posted it it didn't appear on my wall and again all my work was lost idk why and what happened but i was feeling really bad... Basically today i will write all i had written on thise posts cause i remember most of it cause i already wrote it twice. So basically is is also the event of the last week. It was a change of my lifestyle so that i will study more and be more efficient at my studying. I said to myself that i will spend most of my time in the library and gonna go home only when i eat or sleep even i could take a lunch with me so at least i get used to trying to study. Basically i think it was a pretty positive change but honestly im not doing enough work for all the time i spend in the lib so im not efficient enough. I need to be more focused and i need to remove all the distractions. I also need to know what i am doing cause often i just open 5 different works and try to work on all of them and at the end im not doing anything so at least i know what i need to do and thats what think is so helpful about it. So basically last week on wednesday i wrote my latest post actually i think they were two so I just had that decision to lock myself in the librarry i called it the first day in the bunker and thats how i named my post that i never released. After the lecture i went out to kebab rush so that i take my lunch cause its really easy to get hungry while studying so i had a good lunch with my wriends. After that there was a guest lecture. A very famous and good graphic designes was here to explain some stuff to us. I forgot his name i wrote it down but lost it with my first post. So he was showing us his work and saying why it was good he shiwed us some of his ancient designs from the era before internet. They weren't anything special to me but i bare in mind that there was no internet and media back than so im capable to appreciate it. There were some interesting ideas if maps made for pedestrians on streets and airport things and stuff like that. I think that was insightful but only to kniw it in any case its always good to know where the things came from but honestly i dont think it was worthed. I did learned some stuff but it was really hard for me to focuse. Honestly the lecture was so boring. I sware i was the only one trying to pay attention. Everyone around me were sleeping or scrolling through the facebook news feed. The designer once gave example how somebody said to him to be quiet and said loudly "Shhhhh" And my friends got suddenly scared of that thinkin he says that to them cause they've been talking among them. Although they've been quiet the designes was also quiet and we all were sleepy and was so easy to fall asleep. My tutors didn't like the fact that there werent many people cause it wasn't mandatory and people just don't wanna go to this lectures cause they are straight boring. My tutors didn't stay till the end and probably they had some classes but idk i still think that they were just borred and i think that they just pretend to be interested just to give us the right example cause if they are not should we actually be. See people start to lose interest in these lectures cause they are all boring. Than after that frankly i just wanted to go home but i tryed to make the right decision and go to the library so that i can study. I didn't have my catalogue started. At least the work on computer. But i was having the idea so i didn't have to take time for plans. I started with the basics and that made the illustration... Damn that simple illustration took me soo long at least a few hours after that i was placing the different elements like date and place some text about the exhibition and such things. I couldnt finnish it. It was really hard fir me to concentrate and create interesting ideas the graphic design skills were missing i made everything quite basic. At least the folding was more more interesting so is not the wirst thing ever but i was having a bit more to finish it. I stayed in the lib from like 2 to 9 and than i came come made some food for dinner and for the next day cause i cant afford kebab rush every day i wanna study at the library after uni and also i can't wake up early enough so that i can have breakfast. The next day we were having crits and i woke up on time i wasn't really sleepy but it was raining a lot so i waited to stop and i was late with less than an hour but i got on tine for the crit session. I got some feedback on the catalogue i did the previous day. I also got to talk to Zornitsa. She was guest lately and halping us and giving us some feedback. I was lucky that she was bulgarian as well so we were talking to each other to more understandable language for me so i got mire insightfull feedback. For now i had changed the type cause of her advice and some other stuff. That was the work that we should have been doing while the others have been doing the gifs for the web site. Damn this site... Before i know that we gotta do coding it from scratch i thought that im actually having some chances to pass but niw man... I feel so fucked. Basically i hate coding. Everyone hates coding. And if i wanted to study coding i would sign up for programming cause its better paid that design. We are suppesed to learn to code for half a month and all the lessons we are having are once a week and we should also make the camplicate design of a site and code it that way so is not a simple cading and i had never done this. It sucks for me cause even for the lessons that we are having in uni im so far behind cause in the begining of the course i went to bulgaria for my concert and i was having a bit of a trouble there and missed the first few lessons and than when i was back i just couldn't catch up with the group. Everyone have been doing some crazy stuff and i didn't understand anything. Im also having a dislection and its not only hard for me to read huge amounts of text. Like books and stuff. Here theres no logic context and sentences. Heres signs like dots slashes and colins and stuff. All that so confusing to me end don't get me started on when i make a mistake and i have to find it where is... Is cool that when a code isn't working its says where is the mistake but it takes a lot of copying ant stuff like that. You know thats why i never corect my posts its so hard to find and correct all my mistakes cause i just can't see them. I know it sounds stupid but i guess theres sth wrong with me. Is not that bad im handling in normally but im concerned that i might not be able to pass the module cause if that soecific breaf. The problem is that i should be doing it on my own and all the things i borrow fro another weds i have to mention them so i was planning to save the skeleton of some simple site and than change it like the pics banners and words similar to mine i can at least try but even that is not allowed so im really worried and i aint got no idea what should i be doing maybe i can try doing it my way and than say that it was actually me the one who wrote it its at least possible to pass it like that and if not i cant imagine honestly starting from scrach it will take ages fir me to finnish it... I will focus now on the other stuff and leave it for latter cause at least i wanna get sth ready. So after the feedback from Zornitsa i was trying to be helpful to my group for the group project for the web site. I was just standing there for atendance and litterally loosing my time i couldn't understand shit that was happening and i was getting tired of doing nothing and honestly i soent way too much time there i don't think that my team actually needs me but ill be there to help if enything else. Eventually we've been working untill 4 or 5 o'clock and actually i was verry tired so altho this was the second day of the "locked in the bunker" Series i was feeling that we actually had done some work like for the day i was having enough feedback and we had done some parts of the group project on top of that i was quite sleepy and it was a real challenge fir me not to leave. So i came home and on the way back i spread some CVs so i can say that although i didn't go to the library today i had done enough work and was a quite productive day. Honestly i forgot what i was doing the rest of the day but i think that i went to bed a bit more late. Next morning i got up late again, had breakfast and than i played a game that we recently bought and im starting to get quite adicted so i played for a bit. I wanted to go letter to the library to go study so in order to avoid playing for hours that game and waste my day i put an alarm so that i know when is time to go. I went than to the librarry and i started writing in my blog basically rewriting this post. I was writing it for like an hour and half and than im almost sure that i posted it but.. Yeah i did post it but than i checked my profile to see how it looks like, and i didn't see it at first so i waited a bit. I refreshed the app a bit times rested my internet and i was feeling so bad... At least i know now to write it always on my NOTES app cause there everything i write is saved automatically. So basically i was trying to code my site cause there was no way fir me to start doing all this stuff all over again so i decided to change the topic cause for almost two hours of writing i was soo fed up and i mean... The way im writing is i just pick up my phone i concentrate and i start instantly writing everything that comes to my mind and is almost with no pauses, maybe only when i need to translate some words but apart from that i am constantly writing and i think that this is one of the little things that i can keep my atention to... maybe its because my phone is much smaller and i can controll where it is and keep my focus where it should be and for the computers in the library they are too big and it takes more of my peripheral sight and amont with it i see other distracting things and.. Idk its just much more easy for my phone to keep my atention instead of the PCs. The only thing thats holding me back from writing in my post is i guess the will to actually start writing its like i know that right now i might be free but i fill probably decude to do sth stupid in the next 10 min and i don't actually wanna spend an hour writing. Good ting would be to write befire i go to bed and orobably i could make this as a habit but right now its rather sth that i wanna do but i never do. So i spent the rest of the day trying to make the code for my site and i saw how hard it actually is to check all the codes and make them work property and i got kinda depressed about it cause honesty idk how im gonna pass it.. Basically untill now i was focusing more on my other stuff like the catalogue and the poster cause this is a thing that i still have to do and is the most denanding thing cause i need to be in track with the lectures so that im having propper feedback. And this is sth that i learned from the last semester that if i dont have corect feedback than i will have many incorect things and at least when im handing out my breafs i would have talked to my tutors and i would know what they are looking for to be done and i will have it done till then so if theres anything that i didn't do well i will know it cause they already told me. So thats for friday. Honestly i forgot what i was doing on saturday and sunday i know that one of the days i almost finnished my catalogue at least i made it look better i had my poster almost done basically i dont know what actually i should be doing on it anymore i took Zornitsas advice so i changed the type that i was using and than i repaired the little details. And about the catalogue i ictually folded it and i saw that i was having some technical issues so now i have to repair tham but it wont take too much time. On monday i was working no the modules from my last year and unfortunately on tuesday i couldn't attend on my lectures cause i was having a job interview finally.. It was about a work in a hotel on the road between Coventry and Birmingham. I was instructed to take the bust to go to one of the stops and than i should have been waiting for the hotel minibus that would take me to the hotel. So what happened. I went there an hour earlier so that im sure that everything is all right. Than when the time came i started to look for that car and i didnt see it. I called the hotel number but nobody picked up the phone. I kept looking for it than i saw it going the oposite direction without to stop. I was calling them again for like 20 min than a woman picked up the phone. I explained the situation and wanted from her to connect me with the man who sent me the invitation. In another 20 he called me. And told me that in an hour i will have to wait for another car. The point was that i was cold and my hands were blue yet from cold. But i needed that job so i waited for it. This time i instantly saw it and got there. It drove me to the hotel there i saw the man i was having conversation with before. He interviewed me, i think i did well but unfortunately i didn't have enough expirience and depending on the other peoples expirience he will write me in a week if i get the job. The think that worries me i that i lied in my cv that i used to work in a bar for a few months but honestly if i didnt write it i wouldn't be called anyway. He asked me some interesting questions and i got to answer all of them and than i got to talk to him so i tryed to convince him that im actually really good about that job. It was well done. Im really hoping to come up well for me. So than i went home but when i got to the bus station i got the bus the other way to Birmingham. I know... I just can't change. Ive always been like that and i swear im still trying... I got home at 6 it was a long travel. I didn't have time and energy to study so i had a dinner maybe played some game and went to bed and thats basically my last week. I think that it was quite busy and its much more productive than before. I hope that in the future ill get used to being more efficient and productive at what im doing.

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