#bc like. okay firstly socialising with people. ew. no thank you. i’ve lowkey been avoiding flatmates for a while now as well so like aa.

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could my anxiety pls kindly fuck off thank u

#we’re doing a flat christmas thing today which is cool and all but fuck am i anxious as all hell #bc like. okay firstly socialising with people. ew. no thank you. i’ve lowkey been avoiding flatmates for a while now as well so like aa. #but also we’re doing a secret santa. which is a whole other thing that i despise. #and like. there are two people with the name that i picked out. one of them does not actually live here but they’re coming to the christmas #thing i think. and then there’s one who actually lives in the flat. and i’m assuming it’s the person who lives in the flat that is doing #the secret santa and i got them a thing based on an interest that i know that they have but i’m now here like. oh fuck what if it isn’t her #what if it’s the other guy. he won’t like this shit he doesn’t even know what this thing is. #and it also now feels like it’s too late to like. ask. i wasn’t here when they arranged it idk who’s taking part. #i didn’t even want to take part i was entered against my will. #also i think my parents are visiting tomorrow and i gotta clean my room and do laundry and stuff but i can’t do that bc idk when the thing #is starting and i’m stuck in waiting mode and also still filled with anxiety and i really think i’m just overthinking it all but f u c k #why am i like this.