#bc i literally keep embracing it and then going back to my cissona like clockwork

[vzajemnik]

ive been so obsessed with the thought of having a butch partner lately but today i thought. a fem partner not necessarily a femme but 🤍🤍🤍 i love you femmes. anyway dating sb feminine would be so healing. i think overall being in a lesbian relationship would be groundbreaking for me

#🗞️ #its always summer and its always the cusp of july/august and then again aug/sept when im having the most intense gender thoughts #and like. ive been drawn to butchness since forever and ever since i was a little kid since i didnt know sth like that even existed #its always been a part of me that ive both embraced and hid very deeply #so like. ive been stuck at the first year of a transition awkwardness #bc i literally keep embracing it and then going back to my cissona like clockwork #and im so fucking sick of it -__- #i have so many clothes that i love but ive realised they make me feel like im wearing drag and as i said. that is good to feel sometimes. #but most times i just wanna feel like myself ............. #and idk. a thought of having a feminine partner popped into my head bc just the absolute intimacy of me giving my clothes to them #them wearing them & feeling at home & me feeling at home in return #-__- okay whatever. sorry for the rant. #i needed to share this with the world bc im setting this thought free for the universe to take and do sth with it. pretty please