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#basically Clare was like we haven't made any gains in over a year and your state keeps getting worse. nothing we do helps
flintbian
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1 year
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Man, life is just depressing right now
#the one thing that was keeping me sane has gone away
#i would always say 'yeah every medical professional has given up and there's nothing they can do. but at least i have my PTs' well...
#my current PT's are the only ones that ever treated me like a person and they always kept trying...but they've given up too
#basically Clare was like we haven't made any gains in over a year and your state keeps getting worse. nothing we do helps
#so it may be time to consider stopping bc throwing away money isnt helpful either
#and i argued that it's damage control and improves my quality of life and i have a progressive disease i never was going to get better
#not to mention mentally it helps to know there's people in my corner and at least they haven't given up on me
#but now they have and im feeling so very very alone and hopeless
#it's not like this is a surprise right? ive always been beyond help and it's an incurable degenerative disease
#but still getting to this point fucking sucks
#and i went to the new neurologist and he had nothing but crazy experiments bc ive tried fucking everything
#and then to top it off the only doctor i trusted from when i was a teenager for one specific med issue had also said the same
#literally this week she was like there's nothing more. i cant help find someone else. sorry kid. wishing you the best
#and Xmas is a depressing and challenging time too
#and i have 400 med problems while trying to find work
#the past few weeks have pulverized me and i havent stopped crying in days
#so yeah. terribly terribly alone
#and im trying not to go down any spirals and havent. my therapist was out this week. but im seriously questioning the point
#at this point maybe i should give up too
#im being stubborn bc no i cant go yet i havent seen the lights yet or read my new books
#but honestly i havent been able to read partially bc im afraid if i do im losing the last tethers to earth
#there's not much or anything to live for
#it's at times like these you truly realize how much you dont want to die. you just wish you could live
#but im broke and freezing and in pain and alone. this story's ending fucking sucks
#my dbt is coming in clutch but seriously. is there a point anymore?
#never got to live. sick since a kid. hell was always here
#sorry for the depressing state of things ill go back to being insane in a moment
#p
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