#back to looking at gay david tenannt characrer posts to cope ig uess

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#brain constantly oscillates between i didn't deserve any of this and life is evil and cruel and rotten #vs i deserved it all and i did it to myself and life is just consequences and karma and there's ontly me to blame #bc at this point things cannot just be coincidence/life at this point i must be making this happen i must deserve this stuff #there's too much stuff for it to jsut be the way it is #thinking abotu how even if there is no afterlife the idea of nothingness and nonexistence is a millipon times better and safer #and kinder than what i have right now #if something exists cool if it doesn't still cool i wouldnrt know any different #like if life is still like this at 25 what’s the chance it would ever get better #i honestly have never felt so ready to die everything and everybody is so cruel and horrible and theyve never been any different #ive been a punching bag since i was born #shit childhood shit life shit body shit shit shit pain every day brother constantly hurling abuse at me everybody taking it out on me #im fine im just ranting on here i guess theres nopoiint to this post i just cant stop crying everything is so horrible all of the time #back to looking at gay david tenannt characrer posts to cope ig uess #i