#ayyyy lmao im not dead B)

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okay im finally getting around to posting this, tbh i had to take a few days to (rest) before i thought more about this lol. also sorry it’s so long, ill put it under a read more. ANYWAYS my vav experience, as follows:

so for the fan sign there was a Lot going on so i forgot most of it but.. barons teeth sparkled when he smiled lmao anyways st van was first and I told him he was my moms favorite and he went rly?? in a really cute voice and he just seemed so surprised, it was endearing

and then jacob... i don’t mess with him anymore. jk lol he was so freaking attractive but like in a Hot way? his smile was so nice that im pretty sure i garbled my words but i tried to tell him i really like love night.. and I was going to ayno and like idk if i was joking to myself or what but just loud enough i actually said, oh that’s lots of bling! and both ayno and jacob heard me, ayno laughed genuinely and jacob was like omg i can’t believe this idiot.. i don’t think i said anything to ayno, he seemed really uncomfortable so i didn’t want to bother him anymore. but his laugh was genuine i could tell, and for a split second i don’t think he was wearing his Idol Mask(TM) when he smiled. but that’s probably just wishful thinking lol

ACE I CANT BELIEVE HIM he looked so fucking good oh my god i got to him and i called him a Casanova and he went ayyyy with a thumbs up and finger guns and i wanted to die lmfao

when i got to baron he said my name but kinda pronounced it wrong but i corrected him, and he said it again. and then i told him my name rhymes with his and he said mine like four times in different ways trying it out and rhyming it with his stage name😭 HE DIDNT have to say my name that many times, god. his English was so fucking good holy shit and his pronounciation??? Amazing and he’s so handsome up close, like literal Disney prince handsome

ziu talks sooo much!!! I love it and he’s so good looking and kind and he shook my hand and ??? he said to enjoy the show and i told him to enjoy doing the show and he did like a shy smile kind of thing !! you could tell he was trying hard with the English i was rly proud of him

lou had a flower crown on and i complimented on it and he said my name so well and there was more with him but i forgot 😢

but that was just the fan sign lol so much other stuff happened... later during the show i nearly died bc of ayno.. they were picking people to go up on stage, right? and there was a girl in front of me also with her hand raised, like freaking out (maybe a bit too much?) and i was like okay she probably wants it so i kinda like.. stopped raising my hand and gestures to her? If that makes sense... he almost picked her but when he saw me be nice and let her have it, he literally stares at me and picks me, dead on...but someone random that he wasn’t pointing at like ROWS back walked on stage before we could realize it was me but that fucking eye contact i had with him made him SHOOT up my bias list lol now I have to rethink my entire order. im like 75% sure that he picked me because i wasn’t a crazy fan, like the girl in front of me was a bit much.. and obviously if i was willing to give it up im not that insane... ladies, it pays off to be a nice person!

AND JACOB WITH THE BABY please end me i fell for him so much like he’s almost overtaking baron that’s how much i liked him last night and how nice is vav that they tried to pick new people?? like they picked the fan boy, the little baby, the elderly lady.. and they even helped her to and from the stage 💗😍 AND SPEAKING of gentlemanly stuff there was a guy with a wheelchair during the snapshots in line for jacob and when they were done he personally pushed the guy in the wheelchair all the way to where the man needed to go. he breaks my heart and heals it simultaneously, he’s so underrated but still a genuinely and QUIET nice person.. he doesn’t do good stuff to be noticed. like when winter breeze was over, they had the rappers sing it too... but not jacob. i was so upset and he also didn’t do his solo song that i specifically told him i liked, but ayno did two of his. im not bitter at all what do u mean ??? 🤷‍♀️

i feel like more happened at the concert but i can’t think of much more, im sure other fan accounts will have it all. the only thing i can think about is the snapshots anyways lol

the group picture was ... interesting. the hi touch wasnt much except it reinforced my idea that ayno recognized me, bc instead of a high five he held my hand for as long as possible, probably an apology for earlier. i nearly died. the pic ended up looking awful but thats okay lol. then we tried to leave but i ended up going the wrong way, and a staff handed me roughly like actually grabbing my shoulders and pushing me in the right direction (which i did not appreciate, please chill, u just didnt tell us the right way to go...) and a few members saw that and didnt like either. ayno looked irritated but im sure  hes just irritated at everything at that point lol, lou and ace looked at me sympathetically, and i gave ace the happy bday present someone asked me to give to him. he was so surprised it was adorable.

OKAY, NOW FOR THE SNAPSHOTS: so i actually had 7 snapshots but ended up getting 2 with jacob and 2 with ayno instead of one with everyone (which.. if u look above is not a surprise lmfao) so the first snapshot i do is with baron, obviously.. and this ASSHOLE wants to kill me like... for everyone i tried to pick poses that werent too touchy bc a) im not comfortable w that and b) im sure they were all tired of being touched lol so i picked the one where you make fingerhearts while standing next to each other, but NOOOOO

baron decides he doesnt like that pose enough so he literally puts his hands on my shoulders, guides me to a position thats not only in FRONT of him but CLOSER TO HIM than i was originally!!! what the fuck!! thats not all after that he had to lean around me and basically like... he was so fucking close to me oh my god. he smelled so good i need to know where he gets his cologne. also lol when he moved me in front of him i was like... omg are u sure??? im kinda tall.. and he just laughs and smiles and leans into/around me. that picture of me looks so stupid bc i was so.. happy and Not Ready lmao

anyways i go to jacob next and do the e-t touch pose lol since like i said... didnt want touchy ones and he seemed amused that i picked that one. i wonder if it was one of the least popular ones? probably.. and GOD hes rly such a gentleman hottie like i rarely say h*t but.... jacob was hot. since we did the e.t touch pose we had to touch fingertips and (eyes emoji) not to have a hand kink or anything but hes got. really nice hands. long fingers. also lmfao he had long ass fingernails and i kinda joked with him like “youve got longer fingernails than i do!!” and he laughed and smiled at me. and okay i turn to leave like gotta have the next person go but APPARENTLY he wasnt ready for the next person yet...  i literally had to have the staff be like wait! jacob is saying bye to you!!! and i was like WHAT and turned around and ran back to him basically to say bye he was grinning the entire time and he waved his hand and held it up for (i thought) a high five but he grabbed it and i swear i fell for him right there. JACOB WHEN WILL U BE MINE godfjkdgd and i watched him for a little bit but he didnt say bye that enthusiatically to anyone else (that i saw, at least)

then i did the prom pose with st. van, it was adorable. you could tell he was rly trying to interact with everyone and idk what it is about him but i felt comfortable enough to actually do a Touchy pose (the holding arm pose, like prom yknow). we love an amazing leader~

oH i did one with ziu too!! i did the byung byung pose with the hands together and we both looked ridiculous lol. i dont remember much about him except he was so tall wtf taller than i expected.

at this time i keep looking at my pics and THE E.T PIC WITH JACOB??? makes me crack the hell up.... it had to have been fate, obviously. in the pic (from the camera flash, i guess) where our fingers were touching, it just SO HAPPENED THAT THERE WAS A FLASH OF LIGHT......... iconic. jacob n i are meant to be. so i get in line for him again bc i want to show him the pic, but by the time i got up there again i had forgotten. i was also like... ready for a touchy pose with him bc why not. i cant remember what pose i did with him or if anything happened, im sure i was in a trance then lmao. pretty sure he recognized me but i cant be sure. 

then i get in line for ayno and i have two snapshot tickets left, and the staff announces theres only a few mins left so i was like SHIT and figured id just do two with ayno bc i didnt wanna waste any. his line was so long and staff had to keep reminding ppl not to hug/touch him and i felt soooo bad. i picked poses that werent too close to him, and even those in the pic he looked like he was trying to not be close to me lol. i feel so bad for him, im sure he got a lot of weird fans that night. i think he recognized me (again) because he smiled genuinely like he was happy i was there. i think he appreciated that i picked poses that didnt require touching -- he probably had a Lott of that. when the second pic was being printed the staff member laughed at something someone said, but i thought she was laughing at my picture bc i take shit pics and i got offended for a second and so did ayno LMAO but then she explained and i said bye to him and he went back into Idol Mask(TM) and i think that was it. 

i also ate at ihop that night, it was great, we didnt get back to our hotel till after 2am, it felt so... young adult-ish to be out so late lmao. i was very proud at how everything turned out, i dont think i wouldve changed a thing

anyway, long story short: im in love with jacob, baron is a disney prince, ayno shot up my bias list (he was like... last lmao) and i appreciate him as a person. those three were the Big Three, but i still loved meeting the other members. 10/10 would recommend vav

#vav #mtxt #vav in chicago #vav meet and live tour #please reply to this i spent so long typing it lol #honestly i cant tell 100% about ayno but.. #idk it might be wishful thinking #but i really thought i saw changes in his aura depending on who talked to him #anyways.. my time of death was ayno eye contact o clock #lmao

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300+ FOLLOWERS BIAS LIST

wtf okay - fam idk h o w we’ve hit this number already seeing as mason hasn’t even been on indie for a year, b u t SHIT BOI I GOTTA SAY I’M SURPRISED YET I’M FEELING SO LOVED !! even with my shitty activity gap back in march - april y’all still stayed here with me ayyy.

i do have to say the past two months on tumblr have been a blast. not only when it comes to writing but also ooc banter. fuck okay i’ll admit the banter’s been hilarious.

because of how thankful i am for every single one of you guys i’ve come to the decision of making one of these. it’s been a while since i made a proper one anyway (   and by a proper one i mean one like back in christmas   ) so why not ey.

below you’ll find people listed that i either LOVE ; ADORE ; OR ADMIRE FROM AFAR pls don’t be mad at me or start shit if you ain’t on here i’m forgetful but i love you too - and just like all of them you’ll also get an onion from me i promise. i’ve got for a bunch ; enough for e v e r y o n e.

THE SQUAD

@helmct​ bitch i’m so thankful for you, you can’t even imagine. that dead ass verse where we never even wrote brought us together and all i can say is thank fucking gOD THAT I JOINED THAT. legit, you’re the chips to my ahoy, the milk to my oreo, the dorito to my mountain dew. a tru friend that i know i can count on. still there’s something we gotta work on ma friend and dAS WRITING BC WE BARELY DO LMAO. anyways dad just know that i really care about you and that imma always be there for u yeh ; you’re bae papi. ; an onion for u to show u ma love

@sheriis​ bitch i’m glad alex sent that link over to wherever but i’m so gLAD THAT YOU DECIDED TO JOIN THE DISCORD VERSE. i’m like b l e s s e d™ ; literally i feel as if baby jesus made an appearance only to drop you off in that hell of a chat. c’mon i’d be lying to myself if i said thAT IS NOT HOW IT IS LMAO. for reals tho i grew super comfortable so fast ; we didn’t even know each other and we hopped on a call (  which is surprising bc i talked so much and we even where alone for a while and we didn’t shut up ???  ) the ooc banter over here is real fam. i’m just so glad we met and i like the plotting we do from time to time and like iDK I WANT MORE THING W U OKE YOU’RE BAE AND U KNOW IT. i’m rlly fuckin glad to have u here boo ; u can’t imagine. ANYWAYS imma always be here for ya hunty ; here u go an onion

@newgiirl​ ayyyy mariesa mariesa la que me la pone to tiesa here we go again bitch ; you’ve been more than supportive. whenever i had a problem you were there, whenever something went wrong you were there to pull me back up. if it weren’t for you i wouldn’t have met jae and alex in all honesty so i am grateful for that. it’s funny how small this world is ; a tiny cycle that made us friends, verses and more verses as well as plotting and more of that. i do miss writing and chattin with you but i know how busy you are with everything rn so i got your back. i lOVE YOU MA FRIEND YOU’RE VERY IMPORTANT TO ME SO U KNOW THAT ; did u no onions have many layers - like my heart

@tragedywept​ hOE ; idk what account to @ u on so i went w/ the first url that popped to my mind bUT ANYWAY. shit i remember the days u being on here me LIVING FROM AFAR when i saw u on my dash until we began writing ; imma admit somethin i used to find you intimidating af ??? (  idk why u simply were super duper quality in my eyes WHICH YOU STILL ARE OFC  ) and it’s hilarious because now i feel as if i do say a lot of fucked up shit in calls which does probs make you question why you even put up with my ass lmao. anyways pUMPKIN just so you know i do hope we’re able to write more or even talk ooc more than the occasional short chat we have ?? das just me tho i know that shrek fanfiction scared u away tho so like i wOULDN’T BE SURPRISED. anyways naeva or wHATEVER YOUR ACC NAME IS AYYY imma call u miranda ; thank u for being here pumpkin you’re actually probs one of the best people on the platform and i feel like this is too random and probs too long for how short it could be but who cares. you’re rad and i’m glad to have you around. i love all your muses and i hope we get to chat more and plot when we set down to do so XDD stay rad. sends u lots of onions xxoxox

@humantovch​ erin erin erin erin erin erin erin eRIN I MISS YOU OKE LIKE ACTUALLY A LOT. idk man it’s still weird not texting back n forth anymore, and while i could spam your ass until you get back i’m still like n a h imma not give her a bible to deal wit when she’s back ; bae doesn’t need that. sO IMMA MAKE YOUR LIFE EASIER WITH THIS POST. mason and riley are sittin on a tree k i s s i n - k i s s i n (   what am i doing   ) i miss chatting with u i miss writing with u i miss u and i just want you to know that my butt hasn’t forgotten about you oke you’re always gonna have a space in these follow forevers like for reals. you put up with my crap and with my insecure ass and with everything, and you’re honestly someone i’m comfortable with to the point where i’m like open about everything with you. i’m thankful for you sliding into my ims a few months ago. i’m glad - vv glad. THANKS BOO HERE U GOT AN ONION

PEOPLE THAT I ADMIRE A LOT ( EVEN IF W/ SOME IT’S FROM AFAR LMAO )

@defiantiisms ( of course omg ) ; @darkcndtwisty && @sheseemsnice ; @dxrkparadise-xx ; @weakerblood && @imscandalized (  idk where you went but i miss you man ) ; @heartpride ; @hiraethc ; @ofcorruptiion ; @ofcherrywine ; @fearhermind ; @facetiious ; @pearlyfangs ; @eternallydreamingstar ; @thefineartofbitchcraft ; @unfadiism ; @usurpcd && @shebecame ; @rainsblood ; @helmctboy && all your other blogs cx ; @pink-gvy ; @brckenones ; @bxdyrxck ; @meddlingheels ; @lenasbeacon ; @lawtied && @loveceased ; @starsxmemoriesinthesky ; @draculaisms

hope y’ALL DIDN’T FIND THIS TOO LONG OOPS anyways ogres; until next time

#ffw #( out of giordano .x ) #// ayyy look at dis #// aLSO I MADE THE BANNER FROM SCRATCH I'M ????? #// NO PSD'S OR ANYTHING USED ?? IT'S ALL MINE ALL MINE ( asides from two textures i used bUT THE REST OMG ) #// i'm proud oke but anyways y'all are vv special to me hope u know that