#at least i got mid 80s on my matsci and physics exams at least i got that going for me

[iron-niffler]

fuck calculus :)

#i can do the math okay #i just can't remember any of the gosh darn formulas #ive spent hours and hours doing practice problems but Nothing Is Sticking #im shaking and can't tell if it's nerves caffeine or sleep deprivation #life is great :) #i need a week long break and finals haven't even STARTED yet #i have been over almost every slide and worked out every single in class example #but i still know just as much as i did when i started #which is terrifyingly little #at least i got mid 80s on my matsci and physics exams at least i got that going for me #even if i am about to bomb the second calc exam in a row #got a 64 on the last one which was like two points above the class average but still #not up to the impossible standards i set for myself so i spent like two hours crying while watching various random youtube compilations #the a's and b's without studying in high school to struggling college student pipeline is hitting HARD #im studying engineering bc i thought it was interesting and cool and it is but i am just Terrible at it #but im too stubborn to quit so it is going to be a rough four years