#at coworker who's v dear to me has invited me to a town festival that's today

[tkbrokkoli]

aaaaaahhhh guys!!!

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #at coworker who's v dear to me has invited me to a town festival that's today #i would love to go but there are so many obstacles. i dont think i can take them #the town is a 30 min drive away. which is ok. i could manage that. problem is where do i park. since it's a festival there probably will #only be limited parking space right? i could take public transport which would take 1 h but i'd have to take the train and #i've never taken the train by myself before and it leaves from the main station which is huge and scary. for me i mean #also ive never been to a festival by myself before #basically there are many things that ive never done before that are scary and difficult for me and having to tackle them all at once #is too Much i think #i would rly love to meet up w that coworker tho and im kinda scared this will be our only chance to meet outside of work bc they have #a busy schedule :( but i cant do it. i just cant :((( #i have shift w them next week tho so maybe we can arrange another date. maybe one that's in the city so i could take the tram or bus as #usually. they dont live in the city but they come here often to go shopping or to visit their relatives. maybe it can work out! #i gotta cancel for today now. i hope they won't be sad :/ #i am sad tho. im not mad at myself bc i know my limits and i know i cant push them rn. but i am sad that the circumstances didn't #work out right