#as a nb person i deal with transphobia not irregularly but even so i often have a fear of identifying as trans

[trashycosmos]

Hu5h

#as a nb person i deal with transphobia not irregularly but even so i often have a fear of identifying as trans #bc i don't want people to think i'm faking but also bc i v much can benefit from male privilege bc i'm misgendered/viewed as such a lot #and even though i put not an insignificant amount of effort into maintaining an androgynous appearance i don't have any desire #for either any kind of surgery or hrt to any degree #like i'm content with my body and the things i want to change aren't really based in dysphoria #but rather in just wanting to be happy and look the way that makes me feel that #i've had a dream where i was seen as a trans woman and it stressed me out enough to wake up bc all i could think was “that's not who i am” #there's also no real way to describe the feeling/emotion of rightness that comes with being called they/them and seen as essentially #having no gender whatsoever like gdi i just wanna be and be happy and fall in love you know? #Falling Apart And Coming Together #Edited #and ik you don't have to want or get surgery or hrt to be valid #and i don't think anyone who doesn't want those things is any less of their gender #i think i just have some internalized shit to work through and have to stop being so doubtful #bc tbh people are gonna assume wrong no matter what and that's their fucking problem not mine #but when you assume that makes an ass out of u which leaves me to deal with it #and whatever shitty problems you're having and projecting instead of taking a hard look at yourself in the mirror