#as 'payment for her suffering' wrt the torture fic

[words-writ-in-starlight]

exCUSE me???? How dare??? What a GOOD FUCKING FIC. I CANNOT BELIEVE I AM READING MEDICALLY ACCURATE TORTURE FIC IN THE YEAR 2018 BUT IT IS FROM YOU SO OF COURSE IT WAS EXCELLENT. DAMN. Holy shit that was such a challenging and complicated concept because we never like thinking the heroes can use/do villainous things but damn. DAMN. You pulled it off but good, these two kids who think they’re broken and so they only good they are is breaking other people. D a m n i am speechless. So good.

(swallow up the flame like me, tw: torture and a bunch of other dark shit)

THANK YOU VERY MUCH

God, okay, listen, I just…REALLY like to explore the idea of people doing terrible things, and how that may or may not make them terrible people.  I read too much Animorphs as a kid to be anything less than THOROUGHLY into that concept.  And honestly I’m easily as interested in Beau in that fic as I am in Caleb, because he knows he’s capable of something like this, but Beau is just discovering that she’s capable of standing aside and allowing it.  

Idk, for all Beau’s self-esteem issues, for all that she’s never thought of herself as a good person, she was only ever a petty criminal–forger, thief, fence, brawler.  She has bravado, but she’s clearly never even considered in any kind of depth the kind of systematic violence that Trent trained into his students.  I’ll lay money that, while it might occur to her to beat the truth out of someone, she has never put thought into the finer points of how to torture someone.  Under other circumstances, she probably would have said this was a hard limit she would never cross, but we already know that Beau is prepared to get more violent than she expects in defense of her people–she likes kids, by and large, but she was ready and willing to not just hurt Toya, but knock her out, when it came down to Toya or Beau’s friends.  And she seemed bothered that she was willing to do that, but she did it, not long after meeting these fools.  They’ve been together longer now, longer than Beau’s had anyone in a long time.  I honestly, genuinely think that if Caleb had a good enough argument, this would not be outside the realm of possibility.

#critical role #cr2 #caleb widogast #beauregard #beau #compliments are scary #i am a vending machine #empire kids #i love their friendship...so much guys #listen i appreciate you all so very much for the last day or so #my week has still been shitty but i feel much less like a living trainwreck thank you so much #on a lighter note lathori is extorting a fluffy caleb/molly fic from me #as 'payment for her suffering' wrt the torture fic #but i don't know what to do #soulmate au maybe? hanahaki sickness? i considered caleb telling molly his backstory but....i'm not as assured about how that's going to go #i'm just not #on the one hand molly does have the whole 'i don't care about the past i only care about who you are right now' thing #but also molly always believes he is right #and that kind of absolute blind faith in himself just doesn't seem likely to play well with being understanding of #you know #being manipulated and controlled and that whole complicated mess #i think that may be more complicated than some people think #for better or worse everything that mollymauk tealeaf is and everything that mollymauk tealeaf does has been completely his own choice #from the moment of his creation #he has very little basis for comparison for caleb's experiences whereas caleb has a very good point of familiarity for molly's #and i think that it might get messy if molly's first response is (understandable) horror #because molly usually trusts his first response #asked and answered #anonymous #idiot teenagers with a queue