#apparently i'm having astounding and mature insights but i know in the end i'll do fuck-all with it and it's FRUSTRATING AHAHAH

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hate when i realize my hyperfixation is waning because i get all introspective and have emotional whiplash by meeting older hyperfixations on the street

#oops i used to think i had a crush on you but really i was just hyperfixating but the mystery kept me on edge enough #so this hyperfixation might come back any moment if we get back into proper contact #i am talking about actual people because i do that and i hate it #i don't need those moments #apparently i'm having astounding and mature insights but i know in the end i'll do fuck-all with it and it's FRUSTRATING AHAHAH #i could've had a double-old-hyperfixation whammy today but one person didn't come after all (which i'm mad about but psh) #i don't even want to watch the new bts stuff EVEN THOUGH IT'S MERMAID DAY????? #and that's goddamn depressing to me #i want to scream at my silly middle-aged man being a goldfish mermaid but my brain said no you go be depressed now #gotta love the beginnings of hyperfixation limbo (not) #i'm not gonna tag this with my usual tag this is gonna get drowned out at some point