#anyways im not letting myself go to the laundromat today im doing it tomorrow and hopefully i will be more uh. clear-headed

[oscill4te]

having the most delusional thought process ever rn

#luckily thoughts get to stay as just that- thoughts #i wanna say it so bad but its annoying and dumb #missing yr ex has u thinking things like “oh ex frequents this laundromat... what if we cross paths again 😳 what if we meet up..” #but im just lonely and thats cringe and creepy (my ex wants me back tho..... and i wanna go back... the self control struggle is rl.) #this is all happening bc the apart laundry machine broke and the xlosest one to uber to is the one ex goes too #in reality i should rlly be paying the extra fare money to go to the one in the town next over #ive just been crazy these last 2ish months thtz all #i wish my ex would say something like “i never wanna see you again/ we are done” i wish my ex didn't want me back #to be wanted again.... omg..... #anyways im not letting myself go to the laundromat today im doing it tomorrow and hopefully i will be more uh. clear-headed #i know i went from never talking about this for the majority of 2023 to now talking about it at least once a week #idk what happened bruh #something in my brain totally snapped loose and im like. i wanna go baaaaack (for all the wrong reasons)