#anyways i keep envisioning this confession-gone-sour thing in my head and i keep shaking myself like

[number-1-crush]

having anxiety and a crush at the same time is so much to deal with

#i felt like i was getting signals. so i invite them out to get sushi with a few other ppl #admittedly short notice i will not lie #i got an ‘i’m sorry i’m busy :( have fun though!’ #pretty standard message. polite even #i am currently trying to stop treating this as a sign that they want to avoid me #girlie u asked them the day before. they were busy on a saturday. u are looking so #fucking far into this #chronic fucking overthinker. dear god #this is supposed to be fun!!! crushes are meant to be fun!! #they say hi to me when they don’t have to they laugh when i make a shitty joke i keep catching their eye from across the room!!! #so one ‘i’m busy sorry :(‘ and a lack of offers to hang out and not texting often aren’t indicative of anything!!! christ #i mean it’s obvious they aren’t indicative of anything! because i am also guilty #i had never invited them somewhere before and i almost never text them #and CLEARLY i’m interested. #god #anyways i keep envisioning this confession-gone-sour thing in my head and i keep shaking myself like #Do You Hear Yourself???? they Aren’t Like That they’re nice they’re kind #even if i get rejected they’d probably still be down to be friends! i mean fuck dude #i need to just. Chill Tf Out #but it’s hard when i have chronic Can’t Chill Out Disease otherwise known as Generalized Anxiety Disorder