#anything chilhood aka THOSE things are trauma 1

[nie7027]

Today's revelations(or more like reflections? Shit I already knew but now I get to see with* a new light) made me realize...

Wow my parents really were the shittiest combination possible

*the use of with instead of in was purposeful

#or maybe theres some thing shittier #but still #my dad is responsible for big trauma number one #and my mom for bug trauma number 2 #and together they brought big trauma number 3 #the numbers arent a scale they are just to differentiate it #om a scale they would all be at the same level in catgeory of trauma 1 #yes i jave a category #anything chilhood aka THOSE things are trauma 1 #and extended family related trauma is category 2 #funnily this leaves anything brother related as trauma 1.5 which also fits perfectly because he didnt come up with any of the shit he did #he was just an extension of trauma 1 2 and 3 from my parents ( the category 1 ) and he even suffered those two #anything friendship is category 3 or 4 (depends on how strong) #and so is anything academia related #trauma 0? no we dont talk about that one #is this overly complicated? yes but i understand it and thats what matters #funnly enough those failures at job and such that have made me cry and be a sobbing mess for a day barely reach trauma 5 #the everyday shit #HAHAHA