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heyheysola14 · 5 years

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Happy Birthday, Sola!

SUPER long post ahead but it’s your birthday card so be patient :p

I just want to remind you that I love you despite everything. I want you to know that if ever you feel down or if there are days when the past seem to shadow all the hope that you’ve gathered, I’ll be here to help you stand up (kasi your back and tiny ass legs get tired easily haha) and remind you that you’re worthy.

I also want you to know that I do see you. I see all the efforts you make, how you’re making things right, how you’re trying to change, how you’re trying to be more open, how you’re always making me feel loved, how you’re taking care of me, how you make me laugh, how you want to make it work with me, how you’re sweet to me when you have sins hahaha, and how you’re proving yourself. I see you. I appreciate you. Your efforts aren’t going to waste 🌸

Thank you for your patience, for loving me at times I’m not myself. Thank you for dealing with my sometimes dramatic ass hehe. I know i know I can be moody and OA sometimes but only because I really care hehe. If not i wouldnt bother diba hehe. Anw, We’ve been fighting hard battles lately from arguing about sleepyhead and daniel, to our victory against HIV plus that painful ass injection plus going home broke af 😂. To be honest, I did believe a little when you said you have HIV and I was ready to comfort you and shower you with more love na haha. Being HIV+ is depressing and that’s when you need me the most so even if you were positive, I would not leave you. Even before we did all these tests i already thought about those so it didn’t really intimidate me much. But i’m super happy na we’re both negative. It’s a victory 🤗 No matter the struggle, I’ll make sure you won’t face it alone. Thank you for staying through it all. I know that we will come out of this stronger and our foundation will be even more stable. And with that I have faith and confidence that we’ll get through anything as long we got each other and of course if God wills it.

Sorry for all my shortcomings, for the times I hurt you with my words, for the times I make u feel condemned, for the times I shut you down, and for the times I get angry. Sorry I failed your trust and that I fell short. And thank you for forgiving me and giving me another chance to make it better. Please be patient with me hehe. I want you to know na i’m trying my best (because you deserve the best 😉😉 ha ha corny). I promise you that from now on, I’d be more open and that I’d communicate everything na. I’m working on it already hehe i’ll be better at it soon 😊. Looking at the bright side, my failures and shortcomings helped me identify where I’m lacking, how I can love you better, how I can improve my ways, and how I can be better at making it work.

Thank you for always wanting to make me a better version of myself, for correcting me when I’m wrong, for accepting all my manliness hahaha. It may not look obvious but I am learning from all of it (Starting with the corned beef I cooked. ADMIT IT, it’s good right????? haha). Thank you for always listening and for remembering the little things about me. Thank you for pulling my shirt down inside my pants, and for giving me back massages (I swear the last one I did on you was really great but you didn’t feel cause you slept off!!!!!! HAHA), and for being sweet (when you have sins). I like all our little moments together. From the little laughs, to bad breath kisses, to you holding my boob as soon as I wake up, to taking a bath together, to looking for apartments together, to moving in together, to ugly stolen pictures, to our petty quarrels, to farting at each other, to touching my sensitive butt area, to hugging me when i’m cooking, to calling me a fly, to you sleeping off while we’re watching, to our cute cheap dates, to our coffee shop sessions, to having sex everywhere, to me matching up to your amazing dance moves in the club haha, to going home drunk, to crying to each other, to winning over battles, to make up sex, to trying new things, to going out without taking a bath, to criticizing each other’s face, and to all our future journeys to come.

I want you to know that I’ll always have your back. I’ll help you make your (and our) dreams happen. I will always go with you to places where we’ll both grow together. I’ll always strive to take good pictures of you and find your less ugly angles (hahaha joke lang you’re always cute).

Sometimes I wonder why I have this love for you. This love that I have never given before. I know it’s been just a few months but time cannot measure feelings. I still don’t know the entirety of why I feel this way with you but all I know is that you make it so easy for me to love you. I can be my entire natural self, not worrying about how smelly my poop can be and having freedom from my insecurities. You make it easy for me to love you comfortably, which allows me to reach depths of love I’ve never reached or felt before. Before I met you, my world was just revolving around my career and what I wanted to do for the world. And then I met you and I have this corny shit fairy tales in my head already haha. I hope this doesn’t sound creepy or weird haha but to be honest, it’s you that I imagine burying my body and visiting my grave. Smiling down at my grave knowing that God and I will be holding your hand soon. And it’s you that I wanna present to God. A few weeks ago I heard this song with the lyrics:

“And when our time here has ended

And God asks me what I have been through

I will lay at His feet all our victories

and thank Him for giving me you

Through battles won and fears overcome

I found a faithful one”

I cried happy tears after hearing these lyrics. I thought of you. And I thought it was a beautiful thing to finally be holding God’s hand and presenting someone to Him :)

You’re an amazing person, Sola. I still look at you with the same adoration as the day I said “yes” to be your girlfriend. I’ve been roaming here and there taking all the lessons from different failed relationships the universe wanted to slap on my face. And then here you are. I am finally home 😊❤️ I love you 3000 🌸

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gogysastrologer · 2 years

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Eh I’m like really neutral about you both like you guys have ways of reading charts and I don’t understand much about astrology so it has always been very interesting seeing your analyses. You and blair are like two of very fews who explain things in details and are very responsive to questions. A lot of her stuff is literally said taken from divination and I don’t really mind that. It’s fun and she has been keeping me alive through the 20 days dnf drought because of her random “dnf is dating” like I dont personally believe in that but at least there is someone who doesn’t say “dnf is dead” the whole time yknow? Lol. About blocking I mean it’s her blog she can block whoever she wants tbh. I guess I don’t have the same view as a lot of people and my stance is a bit ambiguous but she is not hurting anyone playing around in her own space on tumblr. Whatever she says, as crazy as it sounds, wont even reach dnf because they arent on tumblr and it’s not like weird nsfw stuffs anw. And lmfao I got blocked by her before because I accidentally said something can only befound on a certain subtwt and I dmed her about it. She was chill and explained why she blocked me do I was like ok good to know moving on👍. I still check her blog cause I still like her as a tumblr blog so I choose to lurk quietly now to not bother her and myself. Like idk i think with blair (or with anyone really) it’s better to communicate rather being reactive like a lot of people I have seen in her and others’ inboxes. Also from what I have seen blair has bouts of replying short, blunt answers that sounds like it leaves no ground for debate but i think it’s just the way she talks🤷‍♀️ and like ofc not everyone are going to answer something they don’t agree with with long answers lmfao

Like lol I’m so used to observe people and not take anything personally so it’s been great in your and blair’s blog (and others’ lol) like I have been in cee and vee and other ccs before writing long ccs but if anyone doesn’t answer or even block me (yeah I reached that point before earlier this year that’s how I learned 🤡) I just move on with life yo if I deem them interesting enough I still lurk their page if not I just dni. Anw I hope those who are upset about blair (and those who support blair and are upset about you) find peace because I’m glad you two are ok with each other from what I have read in your tags on a previous post.

Merry Christmas!

EDITED: This is super long, so I am just going to put my response under the cut, because jesus christ... It's too long, ahahaha! So if you want to read, it is under the cut. Thank you, and Merry Christmas or happy holidays!

I like that you are neutral about this anon! :D Very nice to see that. You're right, she isn't hurting anyone in all honestly. She is just doing her thing, but once again, that doesn't make her free from criticism. It's the same with the blocking thing, you're right in that she can block whoever she wants, but that act of blocking deserves some criticism in my opinion. She is free to criticize me, or anyone for that matter. I personally just dislike some of what she has to say, and the fact people sometimes rely on her alone for their info when she can be a bit, uhm, interesting with the things she says. And that also goes for the way she responds to anons who disagree with her. Some of my anons clearly are just talking based on their feelings towards her, just like her anons were talking based on their feelings towards me! I'd personally rather it be constructive, but I'm going to allow them to speak their truth. You seem to enjoy DNF! Which is amazing! So I'm glad you had a blog to give you comfort during those times. I understand how the DNF neg on leak can be a bit much, especially if you, yourself don't mind or even like DNF! Unfortunately I do have some personal distaste for it, if that wasn't already obvious and I have differing opinions when it comes to it. And it's not like I hate you if you like DNF, at the end of the day, you're allowed to like whatever you want. I just like criticizing it I find it interesting tbh. But I feel bad sometimes, because I just wanna enjoy it too, but sorry my hyper critical mind just can't sit still LOL! I'm not trying to say her DNF takes will reach them and that's why I don't like it, no. I don't like it, because I have some personal criticisms of DNF, and also I just feel like she has a biased towards DNF and that can sometimes cloud her readings when it comes to that, IMO. Same really goes for me too! Like sometimes I have my distaste for DNF slip out in my readings involving them, and I feel awful when that happens because I try to be as unbiased as I can. With the whole divination thing, I honestly don't know much about it; but I feel like If me and her did it, she'd get "DNF are real", and I'd get something opposite, I feel like it would depend on our energies and how we'd feel about them, then again I know very little about it, so forgive me if I sound ignorant to it. You can have fun on her blog, I don't want to ruin your fun, sometimes it's fun to be there too not gonna lie; so if you want to filter out the hashtag I have for her when me and my anons discuss about her, then you can do that! I like that you're neutral, it's interesting seeing someone who I guess "doesn't have a side" so to speak? So I really appreciate this anon! Very insightful and it sparks up conversation! Merry Christmas to you too! :)

#nht discourse #askastro

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