#and yet. despite the soul crushing loneliness i cannot allow myself to actually use my blog the way it’s intended to be used

[parm4carm]

literally every single time i start typing out a personal post to post on MY blog i get secondhand embarrassment and delete it. can i not just be cringe

#like i’m trying to express a positive thought despite yesterday being one of the worst days of this year for me #and yet. despite the soul crushing loneliness i cannot allow myself to actually use my blog the way it’s intended to be used #i haven’t slept yet. it’s 6 am. i have not been able to sleep properly for two days now bc of anxiety #😁👍 i’m itching to delete this but i need to stop living in my drafts LMAO #jade.txt