#and yet it was a beautiful ending to an impactfull story

[meadowsofmay]

sometimes, only sometimes, i think back to the moment when scanlan came back to vox machina — and they had their first night in the scanlan's magnificent mansion after a long while — and scanlan played cards with vax while catching up on things that happened during the year they've been apart — and vax said i am happy and it took scanlan by such surprise he asked again as if he wasn't sure he had heard him right.

the last thing he remembered of vax was him on a really low point, mirrored by his own, filled with pain, guilt, fear and a myriad of unknown troubles atop of that. and then he left to fix himself, find his own, and vax had a moment to do this too, it seems, and scanlan was so happy for him. so happy and so sad he wasn't there to witness it. yet, still happy.

and to think, as i do sometimes, that scanlan wanted vax — now healed, happy vax — to live, to have more time and yet, was forced to choose in a matter of moments between the whole world and a little percent chance of saving his friend. it's so cruel that it happened to be him to make that decision.

it's so cruel that it's sam who had to give up a ninth level spell to stop the mad god and not to save liam's character.

sometimes i just think and sometimes i think i shouldn't...

#tiktok edits keep hurtin me with edits of this particular moments #and i legitimately keep crying #it's just so #hard not to #i miss vax so much #and i am so heartbroken by what kind of life he didn't have #and yet it was a beautiful ending to an impactfull story #and i wouldn't trade this heartbreak for the world #it keep me living #the way it seems sa's c2 character tries to keep liam's c2 character alive #these two #fucking hell these two #vax'ildan #scanlan shorthalt #liam o'brien #sam riegel #vox machina #critical role