#and when its sexuality i go into panic mode and feel like a fraud yet again

[vzajemnik]

i wonder why it is that im way more forgiving towards myself when it comes to gender and not at all when its about sexuality

#🗞️ #like when my gender and or gender expression changes im like ok cool. whatever man #and when its sexuality i go into panic mode and feel like a fraud yet again #like idk.....ive lived as a bisexual for my whole life basically. and now that i feel like im a lesbian i feel. idk like i maybe + #should stick with the bisexual label just for the hell of it and just not date men.....but thats just not right yknow like being bisexual + #just isnt me anymore. and when i made that coming out post last week or whenever it was i did it because i felt like id choke and die if i + #didn't tell somebody that im a lesbian #and also idk i feel like such a fraud too bc i know me being a lesbian is a result of trauma and sa and whatever. so it feels ingenuine tome #but it isnt all bad like i feel so liberated and free being able to call myself a lesbian. a weight has been lifted off my shoulders forsure #but still. idk. okay i feel a bit better now i needed to get this off my chest #it also started fucking raining again I HATE HOLDING AN UMBRELLA AUGHHHH