#and there's so many good papers already written on tolkien its just nice having an excuse to read it all

[your-local-granny]

winter break is a dangerous time because ill spend the entire semester going "if only i had a few days off then i could get glasses and see a hemotologist and an ENT and maybe even the dentist and get a credit card and—" and then winter break hits and instead im gaslighting myself into thinking i should read multiple translations of beowulf so i can compare the translations and use it to support an essay on tolkien that i outlined FOUR YEARS AGO AND NEVER WROTE

#RARRGHHHH!!!! #i reread the outline and intro and BRO I WAS COOKING #tragically i was writing this paper in MARCH 2020 so i never wrote it for obvious reasons #its just so UGH!!! i love LOTR as a piece of literature obv i think its great fun but its also so good to research from a historic angle??? #just because tolkien's life impacted his work so overtly so its really easy to trace connections from his diaries and academic pursuits #to his fictional writing #and there's so many good papers already written on tolkien its just nice having an excuse to read it all #and in some ways i like the history surrounding LOTR more than the actual content just because LOTR itself is uhm. white men crusade yknow #so it hits harder when you link it to the actual generation that fought in WWI #idk the history itself is good to explore in how that colored his views especially on xenophobia and industrialization and the end of an ag #anyways. want to read his translation of beowulf but i think itd behoove me to read a more modernized translation first #cause that really helped me w the iliad #I ALSO SHOULD READ A POETIC TRANSLATION OF THE ILIAD #now that ive read a prose version and understand the plot and themes lmao #CHRIST #anyways #portal of rambling #tlotr