#and there's been periods where it felt like any complements I've gotten have been less detailed and just there to be polite

[alren-ki]

Hmm. That sure is brains. Don't like em but they sure are fucking exist

#feeling like the only one in any of my groups that has been consistently drawing the past few years with little to no change #awled rens vents #I've always had- issues about the fact it seemed my art style was uniquely unwanted or something #I think I've had all of like- 10-15 commissions in my whole online career #and a solid chunk of them have been out of pity of some kind #I've always felt like I put in more effort towards lifting other people's work then people put into mine #and there's been periods where it felt like any complements I've gotten have been less detailed and just there to be polite #I've watched all my friends have these massive dynamic shifts meanwhile I pick out a peice from 2020 and a peice from this year- #and it barely looks at all different #even the shit I'm proudest of some of the time #it's not even maybe I'm bad and everyone's to nice to say it anymore it's entirely #maybe my arts just got nothing to be said about it #maybe the reason I'm struggling so much to be even noticed is there's nothing to notice #idk man I'm just having a Time and Circumstances aren't helping at all #best I can describe it is feeling like I'm being left behind in some way compared to my peers #then again #what else is new?