#and there is nothing saying i can't reblog shamey stuff whenever the fancy happens to strike me

[heymacy]

okay fINE i'll just say it!! i miss fandom!!

#i know i'm still like. AROUND. but it's different #ofc it's different #idk man #things don't click and clack in my brain the way they used to #which is probably a good thing all things considered bc we were in a bit of a pickle mentally there for a hot minute #but goodness gracious i miss the community of it all and the freakouts and the emotional meltdowns over Some Guy(s) #it was FUN #it IS fun #and there is nothing saying i can't reblog shamey stuff whenever the fancy happens to strike me #bc it is not that serious and it ultimately doesn't matter what i do bc life is just one small blip in the grand oblivion of it all #but i feel like making a french exit and then swooping back in is a bit of a weird move lmfao #anyway #this is all to say that i'm thinking about them today #i'm thinking about their love and their story and the way that they were literally the blueprint and completely unmatched on all levels #and it's driving me a little mad #maybe i'll make some gifs #we'll see where the day takes me #okay that's all goodbye