#and then it happens in canon and itt's like oh no not like that

[sixstepsaway]

[tw sexual assault mentions/discussion for the content of this post. if that's a trigger for you or something you're uncomfortable with, but i've tagged you in the post and you are uncomfortable or can't handle it, please feel free to ignore it, or ask me to untag you, or mute the thread (if that's a thing you can do on tumblr?)]

before i get to my inbox, i got to thinking about @treesofgreen's interpretation/headcanon of izzy as a survivor of sexual assault, about the comments @ourflagmeansdemise left on my post about the aftermath of what ed did to izzy, the tags @aromanticjangofett put on that post: "#you guys are driving home what a breach of trust this was from ed and i am all the more sad for izzy AND worried#what it will do to me if this isn't given the appropriate weight in s2#BUT i love everyone ITT#of meta#correct opinions about ofmd#ed x izzy" (love the "#correct opinions about ofmd" tag so much 😂) and, finally, my post about the framing of the toe scene as sexual assault

and, obviously, we don't have confirmation of izzy being a sa survivor in canon, that's just a (very good and unpleasantly likely accurate) read, and most of my metas are drawing from the immediate text (things explicitly said/done) rather than a more speculative angle

but

i cant get it out of my head.

when i first read that meta i was like, "damn, this is really good, but idk if my personal read is the same as yours. great analysis though!" and then, without me even realizing, it wormed its way into my head as my own headcanon, to the point it's become a big factor in the fic i've been writing the last few days

so, naturally, when all of those additions and thoughts happened above, i tacked them all together on a corkboard inside my head with pushpins and red string and what i got from it was: oh god

because the main point that @ourflagmeansdemise and i were making on that post up there was how awful what ed did to izzy was on so many levels, including that if izzy has an icky tummy (like chronic IBS or something), especially an icky tummy that is triggered by stress and anxiety and fear, and ed knows this, the cruelty of feeding izzy his own toe, especially in a moment of heightened anxiety, stress and terror is immeasurable

but god, then i got thinking about those thoughts in correlation against the framing of the scene that's so much like a sexual assault, and the idea that izzy is already a survivor of sexual violence

and fuck.

imagine if izzy has chronic IBS and he's a sexual assault survivor, and the thing that ed decided to do to him in 1x10 was to creep into his bedroom in the dead of night, with dim lighting and a soft voice, assault his body without consent, feed him his own body part while crooning that it's okay, it's just the pinky, stop crying, swallow it down, shut your mouth, there you go, threaten me again and i'll do worse, okay, clean yourself up and come find me, whilst invading his space, his body poised over izzy's, the two of them horrifically alone with no one coming to save izzy who screamed when he woke up in such agony, mostly naked and vulnerable and assaulted

i am having a lot of feelings about this

#izzy hands #izzy hands meta #it's not really a meta but it's close enough that i am tagging it that way #ofmd #ofmd meta #our flag means death

[nateriverswife]

Hii! I’m scared This may come off as a bit weird or something..but I just want to tell u that I really enjoy reading mazaroth! I’ve literally never read a fic w/ oc’s in them, and usually avoid first pov, but I instantly liked your fic and it’s become one of my Deathnote favorites. <3

My fave thing about the fic is how it feels like this real world when I’m reading it. I feel like actually immersing the reader into the world you created yourself is such a hard but important thing to do- and you’ve done such a great job at it! 

when the MC is writing to mazaroth I feel like she’s directly talking to me . so when the mc switches from writing in the diary to real life I’m sucked out of this convo between two friends and my little world has abruptly ended, as if someone has interrupted a conversation between two real friends. 

I also like the parts where  the MC stops writing and is now experiencing the real world around her, bc they just have a really good use of character voice in them. The description of her thoughts and views about what’s around her makes me feel like I’m inside the MC’s  head.

And Istg when I see you reblog posts about the struggle of writing I literally cannot relate more haha. I don’t write at all at this point bc of it. if I don’t get something the way I want it right away on the first try then I instantly get discouraged and stop.

good job, at not just having the courage to write and express yourself, but sharing your work. That can be such hard to do, But you did itt! Keep on slaying!! <3

*Insert awesome and not-socially-awkward ending here*

Okay, so you have decided to make me cry.

This literally brightened up my day. You have absolutely no idea what all of this means to me. I read this before getting to my study session, and I kept stopping myself every two minutes and just saying “oh my goodness”.

I can’t even find the right words to thank you, cuz “thank u” is literally not enough to describe how grateful I am for this message.

I do know that OC fics and 1st pov (especially together) are not so popular or liked so wow, seeing you saying that even though you aren’t drawn to them, you still enjoy my fic sends me over the roof.

And you literally described what I was trying to do with it, and the fact that it seems to work… omg. I want the readers to feel like they are part of the Wammy’s, in some type of way, because the original idea was just kind of a slice of life of what I thought L experienced at the Wammy’s. Just a nice cozy story about kid!L, but then I asked myself: why don’t I create situations that could explain why L thinks humans are cunning and why he can’t make friends and what I think the Wammy’s is? And it ended up being this mess, because if I had only focused on him, it would’ve been boring. In my opinion, he doesn’t care about the Wammy’s unless there is someone that pushes him to be part of that world (here, mostly Ayla, Ethe and Lex - in different ways, of course).

I then had to decide the way to write the story, and 1st pov seemed the best, because:

the diary is relevant, not only to make the reader feel like Ethe is talking to them, but it’s actually very very important to the plot.

she is part of the wammy’s, even if she feels like an intruder, so she can explain how it works, give her opinions, be judgemental asf, talk about what happened in the years prior and about other people there without being like random info-dumping.

she is the main person who initiates any conflict with L and I have this thing of trying to make the reader hate a canon character – like in my first ever dn fanfic, L was a huge asshole; not only he blamed the MC’s brother of her murder, but he then sent him to the death row, after making him get some important documents for him – so I need the reader to follow Ethe’s thought process, even though they might not have all the pieces, and be on her side, otherwise it would’ve been a random ass person that literally attacks L out of nowhere.

related to point above, if the reader doesn’t know L’s pov, I can make him do all his behind-the-scenes tricks and they will know about them once Ethe will too.

It’s also very angsty, and I feel like this is done best when you exactly know how the character feels and thinks lmao.

But anyway, about the diary making it seem like you are having a conversation with her – this only makes me want to finish it as soon as possible, because the last chapter is actually the first chapter I thought about, like I exactly knew how to end this story before even starting to write it lmaoo

Thank you again!

And if you ever write something and publish it (or if you have anything published rn), please let me know. I would love to read it. I know how hard it can be, and you didn’t ask for advice or anything, but I will still give it to you.

I started to write when I was 13 and I published stuff I am deeply ashamed of, but if I hadn’t that, I would’ve not been here. It was a pile of flaming dog shit, but it was fun, so I kept writing. Even if no one was there to read it. I had my ups and downs. I deleted stuff, I republished it, I went back to rewrite them, I had months in which I didn’t touch the story once and so on. The writing process is anything but a linear one, and that’s fine, because that means you are growing.

And I totally get what it means to want something to be in a certain way the first time. I too have this problem, to this day, after years of writing, and to be honest, because I don’t hold the secrets of the universe, I don’t have a solution. In the past, when something like that happened, I would try to focus on some other fics, hoping that some type of blessing would fall upon me, but nowadays, I continue to write the same story and keep the part I don’t like as it is, until I go back to edit it. Usually, I end up changing that part and it fits better, because I know what it comes next and can easily connect the two.

Actually, that happened to me yesterday. I was writing the 16th October chapter, and I wrote up to a certain part and I know what I needed to write at the end of it, but the middle part – I had absolutely no clue, so what I did was writing some sentences that I needed to remember to add in the middle part and went directly to the part I had in mind. Then I went back to fill the gap.

I also feel like something that really helps is having an outline and write chapters without publishing them or editing them.

I used not to write an outline and to publish chapters as I was done writing them, and that’s why I never completed any story, because I didn’t know where the story was supposed to go and what exactly should happen to these characters. I just had in mind some scenes and tried to connect them. It was honestly a mess. And I am not saying that you can’t do this, but if you are someone like me, outlining seems like a chore but it is actually so useful, also because while you are writing it, you get all these new ideas you never thought of and you can now add them where it fits best and you can clearly see where the story is going.

It takes a while, not going to lie. I had to create a notion template to keep track of everything. It took me almost two months (jan-feb of this year) to finish it (because it had a lot of chapters so that was my bad – usually fics are not this long so it might take less) and since then, I managed to write 15 chapters (that are yet to be published). Considering that it took me two years to write the first 10 chapters of Mazzaroth, it is an improvement. And it’s because now I know what to write for each chapter, so I don’t need to ponder, after I finish one, what’s going to be next, I just write.

I still need a lot of time to get things started if I have no idea how Ethe should say to Mazzaroth, but it doesn’t take me so long anymore.

Since it is not a race, taking your time to write things as you want is really important. For me, publishing is also a factor that discourages me sometimes, because now other people will be aware of it, so I learnt to write as many chapters as possible, until my motivation naturally disappears, because interests can change over time. So, maybe, take in consideration that this could a factor for you too. Also don't focus too much on how things are written in the first draft. First draft is about the content not the presentation.

This is all the advice I can give, because other stuff may be more personal, but writing is a learning process and there should be no shame in it. You can’t get everything right at first try, and I think it’s better because you can’t improve if you don’t have a benchmark to start from, which should be only your older fics, in my opinion, cuz comparison to others could lead to lose motivation – “I will never be like them” and you don’t have to. If we were copies of one another, there would be no diversity and that would be extremely boring.

I am done for real now lmao. Thanks again. I really appreciate you. I get so happy when I see you in my notes to be honest lmaoo

#dn.inbox #death note fanfiction #tag fic: mazzaroth #death note #death note oc #dn.fanfic

[jasntodds]

ok but literally when i was watching no way home i was like “this is like fucking hamartia i’m gonna jump off the roof”

but like in a good way

Lmao I still wanna jump off a roof, literally was texting my friend the whole time going "I quit" I'm glad you felt that way in the good way though lmao

I'll never do it again lmao I learned my lesson

#cannot believe THIS #sometimes you write fanfiction because it's fun #and then it happens in canon and itt's like oh no not like that #bex tag #nwh #nwh spoilers #spider-man: no way home #spider-man: no way home spoilers #no way home #no way home spoilers #sunflowerxbarnes #kaylee answers

[patricianandclerk]

re: carrot ironfoundersson and the power of his kingly charisma

i blurted this out like, directly into the discworld discord and it’s So Long but here

there's a reason vetinari, vimes, and a lot of other people in the city find him so like deeply frightening

and that's even while feeling such affection for him

carrot is in command of this natural charisma - people might not know he's a prince, but they feel there's Something about him, and his bright smiles and his warmth and his ease make everyone want to just do what he says, even when they start out as hostile to him it doesn't always work, but like, for him to have the success rate he does, and in ANKH-MORPORK? city of a billion ornery bastards?

and the thing is like, having that power...carrot could take the throne but more than that he doesn't need to take the throne

he has this authority where he can just go in and make things As He Thinks They Should Be and especially in the first few years, like... you can tell that he's on that line a LOT and vimes' narration particularly is very conscious of the way that carrot is on that line

the line between observing so that when something goes down, he can intervene as a copper and between stepping in and Changing Things, Changing People, so that he doesn't have to intervene, because whatever you say about vetinari, he never does that, not directly

he changes the situation and he changes it again and he changes it again, so that broadly, people can choose. people choose convenience, people choose, broadly, to live in relative harmony, people choose the society that's increasingly helpful to them - with the post office, with the train, with the hospital, etc etc

instead of choosing infighting or brawling or murder

but carrot isn't that subtle, you see, and the thing is like Carrot's instinct is always "I can make people be Right" before it's "I can let people be Free" and he resists that instinct! he knows it's not the right one to have

and I think it's a genuine struggle that he has, especially when he sees the world in such black and white terms

but yeah, the fact of the matter is that that power is always at his command and like the thing is?if he was on the throne - or if he was commander of the watch - if he was visibly in charge

he could still do it and do it easily

vetinari has this weird transparency but also everything happens behind closed doors, but carrot? if he were king or if he was commander of the watch like 

he could kill someone in the street and it's not that people wouldn't care, it's that they like carrot SO MUCH they'd justify it to themselves that he did it, before carrot even said a word to defend itt. hat's why carrot has to be so much more moral than anybody else - because people have too much trust in him but that morality has to be for him. 

as soon as he starts forcing it on other people, like... it's too much power. it's too easy.

and i have to say like, based on what we see in the canon and the relationship that we see between vetinari and carrot, i wouldn't be surprised if they meet up once a week and talk about this thing specifically because like, vimes isn't great at communicating Nicely on big stuff like this? his mentorship is more of a catch-all thing and i think he finds carrot's specific charismatic powers too frightening to sit down and take them apart whereas vetinari can sit down with carrot, have a quiet cup of tea with him, and they can have this conversation which is... 

carrot knows that vetinari is feeling him out to see if he has to have carrot put down, but vetinari knows that carrot is doing the same - they're both testing one another for corruption, because it exists in such spades in potentia. 

 but vetinari will tease things out and then repeat them back to carrot in a different context so that carrot can do these mental exercises which are hard for him to do himself? because he just hasn't got that kind of mind, the kind of “analyse my own feelings and morality” mind, and he really does need an external hand to search for ambiguities but tbh carrot... doesn't talk to anybody about his feelings. 

not to angua, barely to vimes, not to any of the watchmen. there's a reason we donn't see his POV after G!G! - there's a storm going on inside that head, and he doesn't like to talk about it.

and i think often about like... the loneliness that he must feel, because i think a lot of people mistake Carrot’s literalism and his focus on things being as they should be for like, a lack of personal love? and that’s not true, it isn’t true at all, but like... the way his head works, the priorities are clean cut, and they have to come first.

if Carrot was still a protagonist in later books, I think people would fucking hate him, to be honest. People would say he’s too cold, that he finds complicated ethical decisions too easy, that he’s too unemotional, but none of that is true - it’s just that in the moment he acts,he does what he knows is Right, because he’s not like... got a complex enough mind to worry about Ethical Dilemmas. but after? Afterwards, when the emotion sets in? Or when he’s made the hard choice, the one that hurts him personally, but is good for others - especially when he knows how easy it would have been for him to make the other instead?

Oh, then I think he’s very emotional. but not for everybody to see. quietly, in his own head, or maybe down on paper. he’s very private about stuff like that - and indeed about everything.

carrot is just this character with so many layers who PRETENDS to be simple - and i especially love how he complements Vetinari, who does a very similar thing himself. 

#as defined by dictionary #havelock vetinari #carrot ironfoundersson

[asharinhun]

🔥 🔥 🔥

// Ok, here we go.

1, I don’t accept Hermione Granger as canonically a person of color. It’s nothing against people of color. Personally, while I find no issue with any of the actresses who play her in the Cursed Child theatres around the globe, she will be still white for me. I admit Rowling never outright said she was white, but again, personal opinion here, she basicly never stated that 9 out of 10 times with most characters. In the books, Lee Jordan and Kingsley Shacklebolt were specifically mentioned as being black peoople, hence if she was one too, she would have been mentioned as such as well. Also on this note, Rowling played an important part in picking the actors for the movies and she herself chose Emma Watson, while, again, Lee and Kingsley were played by actors whose skin color matches that of beign mentioned in the books. So yeah, for me Hermione granger will forever be a white person, even if the actresses playing her are people of color.

Hmmm, let’s go a bit towards rp as well.

2,The lore, for me, is a guideline, but that’s it. It’s not the only way, you can also find a path through a forest with your own compass other than the guided path that is marked. And as mentioned above, if I personally think of parts of lore as messy/meaningless/crappy, I will… oh wait, how did Adam Savage said it? Found it: “I reject your reality and substitute my own.” That’s the gist of it. If I don’t like it, I ignore it and do it my way. Nobody else has to like my version either, but I do and for me that’s the main thing. Some of my ocs are rolebreaking and I like it that way. There always workarounds if you want to rp with me on those ocs but dislike the lorebreaking parts (like simply not mentionign who or what was Asha’s first partner), but if you don’t want to, that’s fine too. Not your cup, then not your cup, but that’s it, itt will still remain my cup.

3,I’m gonna burn for this one too. Everyone has favorite rp partners just as best friends. This doesn’t mean you don’t like the others, but there are and always will be favorites. This is fine. What’s not fine is treating others as optional substitutes. Sadly it happens. Your rp partner puts in some effort, but when suddenly their current favorite comes online, your rp is forgotten or barely get proper replies just so they can fully focus on the favorite. That you are a good placeholder when noone else is there, but the moment the main dish appears, you’re tossed aside. This is not okay. It’s fucked up and I hate it. It’s true that there are times when two ocs just can’t make it work, but if it always happens no matter what oc you are using and you get tossed aside? Fuck that shit, that’s not okay at all.

@the-real-arcanist-val

#ooc #the-real-arcanist-val

[intotheblackhq]

Dr. Parker Gibbs { THE SCIENTIST }

( chris hemsworth, 33, cismale ) Word around the quadrant is that (DR. PARKER GIBBS) is originally from (LIEVIS), but have been on the terminus for (SIX MONTHS). If you’re in a pinch, he is  a talented (BIOLOGIST). Is that why they’re the (SCIENTIST)? Anyway, everyone says he is  (INTELLIGENT) and (HARD WORKING), but don’t get on their bad side because they’re (SELF-ABSORBED) and (STUBBORN).  Oh shoot, don’t look now! He has their (PLASMA PISTOL) out! (ooc: nicholas, 24, est gmt -5:00, he/him/his, none) 

WORLD BUILDING:

If your role is from a planet or station of your own creation or there is a location that is vital to your role that is not currently listed on the main, please fill out this section. 

—-> Name: Brittas 

—-> Located On: Lievis

—-> Brief Description: Brittas is a collection of settlements which are located by a large, clear freshwater lake. These settlements are placed alongside the coast and the various islands of the lake. They are interconnected through a series of floating waterwalks which connects each settlement to the other. The citizens have created their dwellings in the trees, having created small towns through connecting skywalks. 

Brittas’ main export is freshwater, which they ship to other planets in the system. The main concern of the citizenry is living in an ecologically sustainable way. To this effect there is a sizable research facility which studies comparative ecology and biology of the planet. They work together very closely with the freshwater export industry to maintain an appropriate balance. 

ROLE DEVELOPMENT:

—-> Important History: bullet point any back story points that would be important to know for world building or canon purposes (i.e.: discord on planets, major events the entire galaxy would’ve known/heard about). this is not a bio. 

Lievis is a planet which places a large amount of funding and programming into proper education for all its citizens. Parker was no exception to this. What is equally important is noting that the citizens also value maintaining the natural ecology of the planet itself. This is demonstrated through settlements like Brittas, Parker’s place of birth. The education to the people living there is comprised of traditional academia along with a heavy focus of comparative biology and sustainability studies. While life was truly harmonious  among humans and nature, some would argue that it was also quite boring. 

One of the reasons company became interested in acquiring Lievis is due to the large amount of freshwater on the planet. It is a well established fact that the planet didn’t put up much resistance. However, what is important to note is that many people chose to collude with the company for their own benefit. Parker would be considered one of these people. He saw the company as a tool to advance his own research agenda and to become truly respected among the scientific community in other planets. The company needed native Lievisians to assist them in properly extracting the planet’s resources. It would be a mutually beneficial relationship for both parties, and Parker happened to be one of the lucky few they chose. 

The company isn’t above using dirty tactics to further their own agenda or to dispose of those who have become a nuisance. This includes dissidents and other such troublesome people being disposed of at the drop of a pin. The company slowly started to remove native Lievisans from their previous posts before occupying them with other members of the company. Tensions for those working close together were high. 

Parker was a victim of being disposed of by the company. His pigheadedness and grandiose nature were merely tolerated at the beginning due to his talented mind and wealth of knowledge of the planet. Through the years he was slowly stripped of responsibility due to his inability to lead, and once he obstinately refused to follow orders he had to be dealt with. The data records of his research were falsified, effectively shaming him from the scientific community as a whole.

Bounty hunting can be seen as a form of punishment to those who are no longer useful to the company in their traditional roles. With nowhere to go, this is what Parker had to resort to so he can make a living. Bounty hunters aren’t good at working with those who aren’t good at contributing to the team, and people talk. It’s hard to get hired onto a crew when all your previous crews only keep you own for a few months before parting with you. 

—-> Headcanons: 

Parker is deeply lonely but doesn’t really have the capacity to realize it, let alone admit itt. His offputting attitude led to him constantly switching from projects, teams and associates. This naturally meant that he’s been cycling through meeting and forming short-lasting relationships with many different people. He believes that he’s above such things as genuine human connection, but it’s clear to see that he seeks validation from his behavior. It’s not like he believes friendship doesn’t exist, but it hasn’t really worked out for him so far. 

Parker never really took to the bounty hunting life very well. His obvious difficulties in working teams aside, the occupation is simply out of his skillset. Some crews hired him because he looked intimidating, but it became clear that his muscles were more for show than anything else.  He is traditionally attractive, but lacks the social skills to be a grifter. He’s a terrible shot (but has, through some forced training, become an att least passable these days). If he applied himself to the role he could be surprisingly strong on the field, or at the very least decent. In his mind his current situation is simply a temporary setback until he regains a position at a lab, or perhaps with the company again. The true reality of his situation is something that he refuses to acknowledge. 

Parker deeply regrets working so closely with the company when they occupied Lievis. The first and most obvious reason is that the company completely destroyed his reputation. It’s soul-crushing to realize you were nothing more than a pawn in their overall game plan for the planet. The second reason is that he feels a certain amount of shared pride to the planet. The research facility of his hometown no longer employs any native Lievisians. He effectively helped them colonize his own planet… and it’s difficult to come to terms with that. 

—-> Key Relationships: list & briefly explain one or two connections (excluding outside wanted connections) you would like for the role within the group. please limit yourself to one romantic connection for purposes of the app (of course, in the group, we won’t police how many romantic connections you have/want!).

Intellectual Rival: This person has stimulated Parker’s interest for him to feel almost threatened, or at the very least competitive in trying to assert his dominance. While Parker would never be entirely agreeable, he can at the very least respect this person for being skilled as well. If the person is able to handle Parker then they could potentially work very well together. If they are unable to handle Parker, then they will likely clash often despite the fact they will need to work together to assist the rest of the team. 

The Terrible Two: This person and Parker actually work incredibly well together. Why, you may ask? Because they’re both self-absorbed jerks  who are great for inflating each other’s ego. If someone is able to recognize Parker’s genius, then it’s only natural that he gives some sort of complement of his own. If they’re both simply so great, then they must stick together! Birds of a feather, and all that. This could likely be a strong relationship for Parker and turn into someone he’d be willing to call a friend, or maybe even a confidant. 

Yes Sir/Ma'am: A natural leader, this person knows how to deal with  all sorts of people. Unfortunately for them, this means that they’re tasked with keeping a delusional and incredibly aggravating scientist under control. He will rebel against the force of authority with all the antics and effort of a petulant child, but eventually he will listen. In the end… he doesn’t really have much of a choice, considering his circumstances. He’ll likely be aloof once he’s stopped rebelling, but he will listen. He might even be able to respect the other’s authority if they’re lucky. 

—-> Wanted Connections: None. 

ADMINISTRATIVE: 

—-> How Did You Find Us: A potential applicant linked me to it. 

—-> Anything Else: 🥑🥑🥑🥑🥑

About time you showed up, PARKER GIBBS, we were just about to take off without you. Stow your gear and make sure you send in your account and finish off thechecklist within the next 24 hours, or else we might have to dump you out the nearest airlock. CHRIS HEMSWORTH has now been claimed. Oh yeah, did I forget to say welcome aboard?

#itb.accepted #submission