#and then brain was like so yea steven universe am I right they live in the beach fucking city wouldn't it be funny if there was an episode-

[bearinabandana]

@thirteenmyspacegirl

Tumblr cut my tags but um Im not finished actually so Tags Part Two Ellectric Boogaloo ↓

#okay sooooooo where did I stop #okay the experience didn't TRAUMATIZE me but it was funny because I was just trying to think about Anything Else to distract myself #and my brain was like wellllll what do you like what brings you comfort and I was like uhh doctor who steven universe kombis lighthouses #and this sort of stuff #so my brain was like oh cool so doctor who huh? what were the ladt episodes you watched?? oh yeah the one with the pirates lol wouldn't it- #- be funny if they fucking drowned lol #and I was like NO!!!!!!! NO DROWNING!!!!!!!!!!! SKIP DOCTOR WHO!!!! NEXT! #and then brain was like so yea steven universe am I right they live in the beach fucking city wouldn't it be funny if there was an episode- #-in which they all fell to the sea and lol wait there WERE episodes like that I think so funny lol #and then I was like PLEASE PLEASE NO BEACH NO SEA NEXT COMFORT THING GO #brain was like well you know where you find the biggest concentrations of the so called 'hippie' volkswagen furgons known as kombis? #and I was like oh god it's the beach #and don't even GET ME STARTED on the lighthouses #so yea now everything I seeked just reminded me of my miserable experience and this sucks because all the mentioned stuff fucking rule!! #and I was a sad little sore creature going to sleep without thinking of #well #anything #because all made me more miserable #I'm not sure how I slept that night #it's been a week I think #anyway how are you babe how you doin #news from the horsies?

[shikitsuka]

@holi-holy thank you for the tag! Started a new thread bc it was so loooong ;_;

What do you prefer to be called name-wise?

There were 3 kids named Karolina in our primary school and my friends ran out of shortened versions and so I was just Karolina :c So any nickname/ shortened version will make me happy pls I want nicknames. I was a “fox” bc I like foxes. I’m just a bread bun in a discord server bc of a nickname association. Anything.

When is your birthday?

march 15th

Where do you live?

Silesia, Poland. City of ~55 000 people so not saying city

Three things you are doing right now?

Writing this, listening to an among us stream in the background, procrastinating on learning (again)

Four fandoms that have peaked your interest?

Gravity falls, Star vs The Forces of Evil, Steven Universe, and now The Owl House

How has the pandemic been treating you?

Uhhh more like this year than the pandemic I guess but: v single again v in uni and still fighting procrastination as it becomes a problem v ideas for future? gone. I am just existing help v actual pandemic one: I missed the longest summer break after Matura exam and I am sad :c I planned spring walks when the city is empty bc everyone is at work/ school... whyyy Edit: Also I think that going outside with a routine helps me a bit with actually doing something so uhhh yea we’re doing chaos now. I’m not sure if i would do better with normal lessons the last ones I have been to were in February I slowly forget how I felt XD. But It was the good time of the year so I guess I was doing good with a routine?

A song you can’t stop listening to right now?

Hmm, right now none, I mostly play videos/ podcasts in the bc now. Helps with nOT drifting off into daydreams/ just sitting here listening.. a bit

Recommend a movie

The Devil Wears Prada. It’s not an animated movie. It’s about high fashion. Nothing I normally watch, nothing that interests me and yet I rewatched it. How? Idk if I like it it will probably catch you too it has something good in it

How old are you?

19

School, university, occupation, etc

First year of uni, math major. Help.

Do you prefer heat or cold?

Heat when it’s too cold. Milder warm in summer. Want what you can’t have : D

Name one fact others may not know about you

I actually regret rambling to you most of the times after I do it. I try to talk a normal amount and yet I have only two modes somehow: - don’t approach bc trying to muster up courage took too long - babble like a madman, probably making yourself look like an idiot. congratulations

Are you shy?

I guess the first option from above is implying that

Preferred pronouns

she/her

Biggest pet peeves

Chewing noises, whispering without a reason (don’t ask me how that works if we NEED to be silent it doesn’t bother me and yet when someone just does it the sound is HORRIBLE my skin is crawling staph), the sound some materials make- for example the slippery material winter coats are made off. I’m putting that shit on and not touching it unless I absolutely have to. Hands inside my sleeves just so they don’t touch it. Ijnmkjnhy

What is your favourite ‘dere’ type?

No

Rate your life from 1-10

6? Depends on what factor. Doing what I actually plan to do? 2. Comfort of living? 8-9. Overral rating of how I feel about it? 6

What’s your main blog?

I only have one blog

List your side blogs and what they’re used for

^

Is there something people need to know about you before becoming friends? I have no idea what I am doing. I do not know how to cheer people up via text, my first instinct is to hug. I WILL be afraid you don’t want me near then switch to clingy the moment my brain decides we are really close friends. I’m just winging this life, sorry for any chaotic traits that seem to change up on random I do not have the knowledge to be consistent ;v;  tags: (sorry if any are a double from previous tags) @i-can-reblog-all-day @coleide

#tag game

[id-rather-be-an-outsider]

tagged by @lucypcvensie uwu thanks for putting up with my weirdo self ily <3

How tall are you? 5′2 

What color and style is your hair? lots of people say my hair’s a light brown, but hair stylists say it’s a dark blonde so I’ll trust their judgement // my hair’s curly

What color are your eyes? blue (with these little flecks of gold right around the irises, you can only see them if you look real close)

Do you wear glasses? I have glasses, don’t necessarily wear them all the time

Do you wear braces? I used to, but I developed root resorption and had to get them off early (spring of 2017) so now none of my teeth toouch except for in the very back :( makes it really hard to eat samiches (yes that’s how I like to spell sandwiches fight me)

What’s your fashion sense? so I don’t count most days as my fashion sense bc I wear athleisure ish allllllll the time out of laziness, but when I do make an effort I have two ends of things bc I’m androgynous. so on a day when I’m feeling more masculine you’re gonna see me in a sporty-type-look (spandex, just barely sagging joggers, a graphic tee, my gold chain and jordans, I usually pull my hair into a ponytail and lay my edges), but on a day when I feel more feminine you’re gonna see me in some tried-and-true type of clothes (cute shirt, leggings, heels, jewelry, makeup did, hair down and [hopefully] acting right), but on a day when I’m feeling in-between I’ll try to experiment or be “edgy” (basically mixing and matching or trying something I saw a celebrity do and thought was cute). regardless of any style I’m in, though, you’re always gonna see me with my nails done, whether that means I got acrylics on or that I painted them myself... just know. that’s how we do. and by we I mean me.

Full name? I won’t share my last name, but Eden Amaris (fun fact: amaris can be pronounced two ways!) Is my first and middle

When were you born? December 18, 1999

Where are you from and where do you live now? was born in Federal Way, WA but I consider myself to be from Tacoma, WA as I’ve spent all of my most important years there (early childhood + hs + uni). I now live in Tacoma.

What school do you go to? University of Washington

What kind of student are you? a fucking mess I’m quiet at first, but once I’m comfortable I’m rly talkative and answer so many questions that my teachers will literally stop calling on me unless if there’s no one else lmaooo, I’ve also had several classmates and teachers tell me I should be a teacher and surprise, surprise, I do want to be a teacher for some time

Do you like school? f-f-f-FUCK YEA I LIKE SCHOOL how is that even a question??? to take it down a couple notches, yes, I love school, whether it’s for sports or for learning, I’m always excited to come to school everyday wow what a frickin nerd amirite, frickin loser

Favorite subject? depends on my professor. at this point, I highkey hate all of my classes rn bc I don’t feel like I’m learning anything. that miiight also have something to do with depression and anxiety though so idk what to tell ya man

Favorite tv shows? not a super TV person, but I’m a thot for Steven Universe

Favorite movie? I love tf out of movies, my all time would have to be Dawn of the Planet of the Apes (I just pretend that WftPotA didn’t happen atm bc I hate sm of what happened in it), but in the last few days I’ve watched War Horse (I cried like a bitch lemme tell ya), Secretariat (didn’t cry like a bitch but got teary-eyed) and 42 (I did cry at certain parts but it’s kinda uplifting so ya know, wasn’t super sad) and they were all lovely so if you haven’t seen them yet, go watch them! They’re all free on Netflix

Favorite book? When I was little it was this book called Junket (that thing is older than my grandparents, good lordte), I think some of my favorites rn tho are Heartless by Marissa Meyer and Tales from the Perilous Realm by J.R.R. Tolkien

Favorite past time? a couple months ago you would’ve thought it was crying from how much I did that, but tbh it’s probably drawing, writing, reading, watching movies, listening to music, sewing, spending time/going on adventures with my friends and helping my friends with their lives. I KNOW THAT’S EVERYTHING BUT I CAN’T HELP IT REEEE my most favorite past time atm is helping my friend Charlie clean and organize his room and designing things for his business, also spending time with my favorite little niecey-poo in the WHOLE WORLD OMGOODNESS HERE IS A PICTURE OF HER BEAUTIFUL SELF I LOVE HER SM SHE IS THE SWEETEST MOST CUTEST AND FUNNIEST AND SMARTEST WITTO GIRL EVER AND I LOVE HER <3

Do you have regrets? boy oh boy, do I: taking so long to forgive my abuser (thx for destroying my childhood @ my biological father), procrastinating, not having enough self-love/worth/confidence, being complacent with so many of the friends I used to have, focusing so much on socializing in hs rather than my sports and my schoolwork, being so afraid to just be myself bc I knew most people don’t want to be friends with a weirdo, the list goes on, all I can do now is move past it though so... ohwell.

Dream job? oh SIS get ready for this: sooo I want to own my own business, known as LEAD Revitalization (L for Love, E for Equity, A for Advocacy, D for Diplomacy - these are the core values of my business), which aims to help revitalize underdeveloped and underserved ethnic communities in the US and around the world and fight against gentrification through implementing art of all mediums in or near historic locations in that community that is representative of the demographic living there (so if the area is a primarily black neighborhood, you’re gonna see art depicting black history and culture, and if the area is primarily Asian you’d see Asian history and culture). I won’t get too into it just bc that would make this post way too long, but if anyone’s interested or wants to hear more you can bml ;) like literally bc I’m passionate af about it so I will talk your head off for days on end if given the chance

Would you ever like to be married? yes

Would you like kids? yes

How many? two or three of my own (I’m hoping for a girl and a boy) just so I can have the experience of having kids, but once they’re grown and out of the house I would like to adopt more if I have the resources to. my cousin’s adopted, so like, idk. I think that if you can adopt a kid, you should, bc there’s so many of them just stuck in the foster system and that’s complete bs

Do you like shopping? yes but I usually don’t like getting myself things (unless if we’re talking groceries or something I actually need), I love to buy things for other ppl tho if I can

What countries have you visited? canada for like 3 days technically, I just went to Mt. Whistler for spring snowboarding (that shit hurted) with my aunt bc she paid for the whole thing and my passport

Scariest nightmare you have ever had? TRIGGER WARNING: DOMESTIC AND SEXUAL VIOLENCE - I had a nightmare awhile ago that this guy I used to be involved with raped me, I also used to have recurring nightmares after I stopped going to my biological father’s house for visitation where he would come searching for me trying to kill me and my older brother (he’s tried to kill me 3+ times sooo... it makes sense). so like. fun.

Any enemies? S A T A N and myself, or.... my brain, I guess. idk.

Self-doubt? you betcha

Any significant other? kinda? I’m currently fwb with my ex and still have feelings for him (oopsies), we split bc he was going through shit and needed to figure himself out, I’ve been close to him for a phat minute so I’m not really trippin about it. I also have crushes on other people, but nothing’s presented itself as something worth pursuing yet so. yakno.

Do you believe in miracles? lmao I would fuckin hope so, the very fact that I’m alive rn is a gd miracle so yea

How are you? I am so-so. If we’re just talking about today, I’m prolly fine, but if we’re talking long term, I’ve been going through it. I’m just trying to figure myself out atm, and it’s rough, but I’ll probably get there. My friends think I will, at least.

i tag: @crookedly-rainy @secretpatrolpiespy hi I don’t have any other friends on Tumblr so I tagged my friends from Amino Y E E T

#tag game #outsider rambles