#and the songs goodbye yellow brick road‚ hey there delilah‚ and rainbow connection (by my own 9 year old interpretation)

[leos-regression-cove]

I think it says a lot about me as a person now that that the easiest way to make me cry as a child (and still now. I didn't think I'd tear up while writing this lmao) was to imply that the majesties and wonders of childhood and imagination are all a dream that inevitably leaves us as we get older that we can only regain in death and that the vivid inner worlds and personalities we give our toys in our early years either feel abandoned, vengeful, or die entirely as we age.

#i would literally have to leave the room for some movies or skip the endings of others because I found them so upsetting #a quick list of properties this post is about: #frosty the snowman‚ the polar express‚ the Carebears movie: the next generation‚ the velveteen rabbit‚ peter pan #the third tinkerbell movie‚ winnie the pooh‚ toy story 3‚ narnia‚ the wizard of oz (books)‚ the miraculous journey of edward tulane #and the songs goodbye yellow brick road‚ hey there delilah‚ and rainbow connection (by my own 9 year old interpretation) #The idea that adults can't access magic and it is something you HAVE to grow out of and this mystification of childhood upset me so much #I'm so glad I can put it into words now that I'm older #there are also probably many other properties that fit this description btw #like the brave little toaster and the raggedy anne musical I think #but after being traumatized by the velveteen rabbit I purposefully avoided most movies about toys #there are a lot of christmas shorts I also skip for that purpose #so anyway I'm putting it down this low for a reason #but I was reminded of this because now I'm using these same tattered toy and attatchment motifs in my own writing #but subverting that original meaning by sewing the toys back together so it becomes about repair and healing AS WELL AS the horrors of time #but also how such things can bring magic to people of all ages #and how love and comfort can still be provided by these inner worlds so many years later #the world is filled with beauty and wonder at any age and turning to cynicism and rejecting that reality is NOT what 'growing up' is about