#and telling her she is psychic. bc when i was 15 i had this gut feeling i had developed bipolar & 5 years later i got diagnoses with it

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so. i guess i have to go to urgent care tomorrow. & show the doctor my lab results. & try to get in for a cancer screening that way

#jesus fucking christ. #my aunt (who works in the medical field) saw my lab results bc i showed them to her #and she went 'they didnt refer you to a specialist? they didnt call you?' #and i had to explain that no they didnt bc they told me to lose weight instead #but like. i dont know how my weight correlates to my red blood cell count & other results #they referred me to a dermatologist for cancer screening because of my moles #booked that appointment and guess what. earliest was DECEMBER #b R U V #anyway if i end up getting diagnosed with leukemia i'm going back in time to 15 year old me #and telling her she is psychic. bc when i was 15 i had this gut feeling i had developed bipolar & 5 years later i got diagnoses with it #around the same time i speculated abt the bipolar i also speculated i may have some chronic form of leukemia #bc i would get these red dot patches on my arms + my doc at the time told me i had severe anemia #but they blamed the anemia on my insanely heavy periods + the lethargy on my Teen Angst™️ #but i just had this sinking feeling there was more to it #& now 9 years later i feel like my body is shutting down + dying and i have lab results that prove 1) my liver is FUCKED and #2) my red blood count is FUCKED #and 3) my cholestrol is FUCKED #god if i actually do have blood cancer i'm going to scream