#and suddenly realised they were basically the grand galloping 20s au designs poorly drawn from memory in my style

[myname-isnia]

Honestly I’d really like to make some kind of MLP AU or redesign/rewrite or whatever else of the sort because MLP was essentially my first fandom and it’s extremely nostalgic to me, but I’ve seen so many people do it already and have found myself physically incapable of producing something that isn’t blatantly copying what other people have done :/

#and yeah yeah I know that nothing in the world is truly original and everyone’s inspired by something #but I want to make smth that isn’t rehashing what I’ve already seen #and it’s hard bc redesigns and aus are kinda all the rage right now #and no I’m not talking about those infection aus bc while those are really cool and I’m not interested in making my own #I’m a really squeamish person. to the point I even avoid sick fics most of the time #so while I enjoy seeing a lot of those aus because I too had a creepypasta phase and it reminds me of cupcakes and rainbow factory vibe-wise #I’d probably throw up if I had to draw smth like that myself 😅 #anyway. what I meant is some kind of rewrite where I’d get to explore themes that interest me more #maybe dig a little deeper than the earlier seasons of the show could afford in certain places #like coming up with a clearer reason for aj’s parents’ deaths. for instance #and also making next gens is basically my modus operandi at this point so while I’m not really interested in making kids for the mane 6 #I’d like to redesign them + their families to get to play with genetics a little. #but again. I’ve seen a lot of redesigns over the years and I’m afraid they would influence me too much for my liking #only reason I’m so worried is because last year I did doodle some ideas a little. for the CMCs in particular #and suddenly realised they were basically the grand galloping 20s au designs poorly drawn from memory in my style #and any ideas re: redesigning the actual pony species are essentially ripped off from skyscraper gods #as are some concepts about becoming an alicorn/gaining immortality and all hat #so… yeah. no #idk. I’ll think about it some more and maybe I can come up with some cool ideas that I can string together in some way #it might be really fun and would also give me a chance to let my sotrl hyperfixation rest a little #don’t get me wrong. I love the universe Kat and I created and my OCs and everything. but I’ve been going at it non stop for almost 4 years #sooner or later it’ll burn me out and I won’t be able to come up with anything for it anymore #and I literally don’t draw anything BUT sotrl #so it’d be nice to branch out a little. maybe I’ll finally feel less like I’m screaming into the void with my incredibly niche OCs #again. I don’t know. we’ll see if I’m struck with inspiration or smth #also coming up with ideas is like half of the problem lmao. horses are really hard to draw #even cartoon ones 😭😭 I was hyperfixated on mlp for most of my childhood and still never mastered it #I can barely draw humans lower than shoulder level let alone horses. but I’ll figure it out if I get a concrete au idea #okay I’ve been rambling for like half an hour. rant over I’m done