#and please dont feel any pressure about the dnd stuff

[trashbinbackyard]

i know im late but i got 3 consecutive desk hours today, ummm ivana romantic (head)canons & things you want to do/explore/try for holy diver/hibiscus/ismael/others

Its all good i still got an hour to waste

Ivana is very careful during the getting to know each other phase, she can be a little blunt but she doenst mean to be mean. She’s also very forward when she lets the other person know shes interesred.

He main love languge is acts of service, she does go out of her way to help out the people she cares about (no one from the office though 😔) Carmina needs something from the store? Shes getting it. Carmina hands are freezing? She can have her gloves. Still hungry? Have the rest of Ivana’s food etc

She is not immune to hotted boob

She cares about her dad a lot so it would mean a lot to her if Carmina would ever visit him with her. (And of they do Yuri speaks five words to carmina and afterds Carmina finds out from ivana that he likes her)

She does enjoy a good couch cuddle, but sitting just side by side with ahoulders touching is also good

Contrast to her working shes actually pretty laid back on her free time, she does have a routine she sticks to but shes considerably softer outside of work

For the dndudes

I would like hibiscus to encounter more ghosties, bc you know phantom rogue after all. Also more ”being a little shit and nuisence with pestle” would be so fun

Some seafaring for holy diver? Punch a leviathan or something, would love to team up with wellerman again!

I’m actually kinda itching to play kresh again ngl, maybe industrialization hits his swamp

Ismail is just so pathetic, challenge him to live on one gold for a week, also im really curious about that festival, are there any fair-games? 👀

#and please dont feel any pressure about the dnd stuff #but if you feel inspired by something then by all means! #ivana has her worksona and personal life-sona very separated #like the person kenzo knows is completely dofferent than the person carmina knows #also ideal evening for ivana and carmina to have: carmina paints on her own corner #ivana reads in her own nook #parrallel play babey #no need to fill the silence when the mere presence of the other is enough #hecca was a little too fast-paced for her

[angelicgaming1007]

Skip this if you want I just wanna talk about some things

I love my friends dearly. So so much. But so many people in my life don't understand a few things 1. Even if I'm at home and we're internet friends I have disabilities and disorders that do limit me. Everything is a fight for me most days. Mentally though is the hardest on me. 2. I don't like multiplayer games that much something I made clear to everyone on numerous occasions. I love voice calls screensharing together, I love typing over discord together. I'm uncomfortable with talking on calls both because my family are nosy and restrict everything I say and are controlling with an iron grip on what of my life they can hear and see. and because I have anxiety bad anxiety its hard to talk physically. I'm uncomfortable playing multiplayer games because I dont have the same amount of energy as most my friends I have less spoons by default so to speak. They can go longer than I can, they can play more often than I can. But if I play with them then I'm pressured and forced to hang out with my older brothers again and then once more I become their caretaker without any choice, something that has taken me YEARS to break out of and I only got free of 6 months ago.

and overall I prefer parallel play. Personally I hate how friendships are so strongly centered on spending direct personal time together (as in vocally and physically) For me I'm happy with talking through text, sharing memes, rping, dnd campaigns, sharing videos, watching stuff on call together, screensharing. And I feel like theres a huge pressure on my shoulders to give in to what everyone else wants or im "A bad friend" for not hanging out the way they want to. And a lot of my friends will buy me games, my brothers do this too and it makes me feel obligated to play them because people pressure me into accepting then pressure me into hanging out on the games. It doesn't matter if I say no. It never matters if I say no. I'm just tired. I'm tired of my consent on hanging out and how we hang out not mattering. Of me having to put myself into uncomfortable situations my whole life to please OTHERS. I just wanna play BG3 work on my dnd inspired campaign, sit on call, screenshare, type to eachother, share memes / videos, and gossip about fandom dramas or talk about and share our creative projects. Thats it. My kind of "Play" is not your kind of "Play" And it is mentally tiring and rotting to try to force myself into a type of play that makes me distressed.

#personal