#and now I'm in perennial freeze mode but I'm so emotionally reckless too

[love-too]

Just made a fool out of myself

#I've been so rude without noticing #my god #i feel so ashamed #I've not been myself lately and my anxiety is showing itself in a way that's unfamiliar to me #I've always had the high functioning tummy ache can't sit still type of anxiety #and now I'm in perennial freeze mode but I'm so emotionally reckless too #idk why #I'm so ashamed really #in front of my friends and towards them too #why can't i shut the fuck up??? #but then if I don't talk they get worried and also i need to talk or I'll go insane #i needed to get this out or i won't be able to sleep #like #I'm an adult for fucks sake #why can't i behave??? #i want to just bang my head on a wall #so embarassing