#and me demanding the same honesty back is unfair also hence me being a shit person/socially incapable

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i like. refuse to entertain any thoughts that maybe i just didnt come out right or theres something fundamentally wrong w me cause i don’t want to get caught in a self pitying mindset but i do wonder . what exactly makes me always end up in Predicaments with people why do i feel like the more honest i am and the clearer my intentions the worse they get across

#p #i am so desperately fighting this feeling of otherness i will NOT shut myself out #but god fucking damn it sometimes people make me feel so bad for apparently being so unable to resonate with them #i’ll make a very clear straightforward statement and they’ll be like By that you clearly mean this: #like no i don’t actually. what i mean is exactly what i said? #this constant social expectation to read between the lines of everything and then getting in trouble for taking things at face value #and the thing i say to be taken at face value always get misconstrued bcs ppl read between lines that don’t exist #i just feel slapped in the face after genuine efforts i’ve made to stop being an annoying bitch and picking everything apart to get to its #deeper meaning. now i’m suddenly made to feel like either a shit person or socially incapable #all cause ? i refuse to read other peoples minds and don’t expect them to read mine? #and me demanding the same honesty back is unfair also hence me being a shit person/socially incapable #thes things make my head hurt . should everyone elses values and priorities be respected except for mine. which is in my onion a very #reasonable adjustment for clear communication..? #Should i kill myself. yes or no