#and maybe u consider the shallow characature of urself that u se before u to be ur ineveitabke future as u dont expect to make it out alive

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dang actuslly hold on, hold on, i didnt realize this the first time i played black mesa, but in xen theres a whole ass cave full of hev zombies and all the headcrabs they killed before they were overtaken and a bunch of them are just eating the remains of un zombified hev users

#oough more horrible situations to make gordon experience in comic format #truly the best part of gordon is the trauma like yes u have seen and done horrible things ily ur so fucked up #i love it when charas get to see what they could have been if they had been slightly less resilient or slightly less observant #or if tbey had been on a different assignment #like yes be able to see ur possible past present or future in a faceless entity that bears resemblance to you who uve never known #and never will know and k ow therell never be another like you as u becum a horrible remnant of a destroyed present #and ull never be able to return home due to internal amd external factors #if u even thought u had a home in the first place and now beleieve ull never have one again #and maybe u consider the shallow characature of urself that u se before u to be ur ineveitabke future as u dont expect to make it out alive #and maybe u co sider them to know u more than anyone uve met has known u and u know them more than u ever could another living person #do u even k ow urself anymore afte rwhat uve done these past 2 days? #anyaays dont mind me lol im having fun #iwillspeakincessantly