#and im tired of having to accomedate him when hes been cruel to me and never apologized

[ahaura]

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sooo my brother showed up. and we got into an argument. and then after he left me and my mom got into a fight about my comments about him following his exit. and then both me and my mom cried. and now its 1am and things are fine now but jesus christ. also i had almost half a pie which was a bad idea because it's 1:30am now and im not sleepy at all. sigh.

#ahvañe #i originally typed out like 10 paragraphs explaining what happened but. just pasted it in #my journal to talk about in therapy and cut it down. idk its not worth it to go back into it. but im tired of being angry at him #and im tired of having to accomedate him when hes been cruel to me and never apologized #and im sick of being the one expected to be civil when HES the one being shitty but thats just how the cookie crumbles ig #jesus christ. what day is it anyway. saturday? thursday? friday? idk. #i feel so shitty about upsetting my mom though. that i DO regret. and feel awful for. that much i will say.