#and im like... hahahaha remember when i was recovering from shit nd let people do shit to me i didnt want and remember how panicked and

[keirametzbrassknuckles]

This is fucking me up. I feel disgusting

#hes like 'remember when you called me daddy and let me [redacted]' #and im like... hahahaha remember when i was recovering from shit nd let people do shit to me i didnt want and remember how panicked and #awful i felt and how ive tried to move on from this and now im back in it and i just want to fucking dieeee??? #i was so fucked up when it happened i dont even remember half the shit he's talking about #my memories of all of this are mostly a blank i was on so much coke and drunk all the time #and hes saying these things and sending pictures and im just.... i let someone do this to me??? i did that??? #i hate myself so fucking much i feel sick #i never wanted to go back there cause im good now i am i am i am ive gotten over stuff and gone to therapy #and im a better person now #but oh my god i did that? i let people do that? i dont even remmer #i want to jump off a bridge #he could be totally lying #maybe none of this ever happened but I dont Know and thats whats fucking me up