#and im kinda bummed this furlough wasnt as rejuvinating as i was expecting it to be

[quiveringdeer]

I really don't want to go back to work. technically probs shoulda worked yesterday but like no one else is going in this wk pretty sure- and I technically have annual leave I can burn sooo I think I just might

ugh

#i rarelh go on vacations so not like i'll use up all my leave #and im kinda bummed this furlough wasnt as rejuvinating as i was expecting it to be #i have my big internship i run every summer coming up #but even tho i love it im feeling a littlw trapped now that more kids are applying and #having to turn some away #like i dont even wanna recruit this year from more than the most local school cause i #already have like 7 kids to reach out to from last year and lots of prospects that signed up for more info at the last career fair #and i can only hire like 8 :/ #im just feeling soooo overwhleemed by every single thing lately #the options of things at work #plus all the shit going on in the world tied to huge systemic issues that it really feels #no amount of protesting will fix cause those in power are too situated in that power #and then all the lil outlets i wanna try and gain joy from seem too much #like i went through old photos to put in frames and hang up #but now im overwhelemed on which to choose to hang up and how to display them nicely #and ive wanted to hang some shelves in my craft room but the brackets arent aligning with the spacing of the studs #and i gwt overwhelmed in the steps of looking upwhich anchors i need for the wall cause its not drywall but something else #and i dunno how to tell how thick it is and then how to putin the anchor right #and i dont wanna take out the brackets and rescrew them at a bettwr distancecause that feels overwhelming too uuuuugh #nat rants #things for therapy #and i also feel crappy kind of complaining when others dont even have jobs and uuuuuuuugh #i just it's too much