#and i think it is succeeding whoops this week i may suffer lmao

[thecherrygod]

i just had an energy drink (which is sorta bad bc its 6 pm but anyways) and i sorta feel like it did affect me a little like. physically. but also? it made me tired and i would go to bed for a nap if i knew i could

#my posts #and. i know i cant my body doesnt work that way with caffeine #like it will make me feel kinda bad sometimes. hopefully neutral but i think today is a bit bad #not bad enough tho so its fine i am aware #but also i know they make my insomnia worse so if i cant sleep tonight now i know why <3 #i have been feeling a bit bad tho like.. lately. and i sorta feel deep inside like i want to completely obliterate my sleeping schedule #which already sucks and barely exists #but i feel like i want to completely ruin it so i can make my own life harder like i think thats how my brain is working lately #and i think it is succeeding whoops this week i may suffer lmao #tho yesterday was like.. a very weird day. like the afternoon was amazing but the morning? i almost had a breakdown in class lmao so maybe #just maybe i am actually more unstable than i think so yeah im probably gonna sorta ruin my own life a little bit while also trying to not #do it toooooo much maybe #maybe. anyways im gonna stop writing about it and maybe im gonna just watch some dumb videos and rb my silly little posts idk